Text: Đana Kurtović

It feels some­what stran­ge to wri­te about some­thing that in the quiet logic of one’s life, is sim­ply assu­med. When I am thirsty, I drink a glass of water; when I want to watch a film, I go to the cine­ma. And for me, that has long meant two places: Kino Mee­ting Point and Kino­te­ka, the Cine­ma­the­que of Bos­nia and Her­ze­go­vina. The first is more con­tem­po­ra­ry, born in post-war Bos­nia of the 1990s, while Kino­te­ka dates back to the time of Yugo­sla­via and ser­ves as the natio­nal film archi­ve of Bos­nia and Herzegovina.

To explain why they mat­ter is unex­pec­ted­ly dif­fi­cult, not becau­se their importance is slight, but becau­se it is so deep­ly woven into the fabric of my days that I rare­ly pau­se to name it. Love, when it beco­mes habi­tu­al, risks beco­ming invisible.

The­re is a rou­te I almost always take befo­re arri­ving at Kino Mee­ting Point, one that beg­ins in Radiće­va Street, usual­ly some­whe­re near Gale­ri­ja Boris Smo­je, whe­re the noi­se of the café folds into the street and lin­gers for a while behind me as I walk on. Then comes the bridge over the Mil­ja­cka, not long enough to divi­de one part of the city from ano­ther, yet suf­fi­ci­ent to loo­sen the rhythm of the day, as though the crossing its­elf pre­pa­res the mind for a dif­fe­rent kind of atten­ti­on. A few steps fur­ther stands Aca­de­my of Fine Arts Sara­je­vo, and bey­ond it, almost wit­hout tran­si­ti­on, the pas­sa­ge bet­ween the buil­dings lea­ding toward Kino Mee­ting Point, so dis­creet and unas­sum­ing that one could pass it wit­hout noti­cing. From the out­side, it does not look like a cine­ma at all. There’s no sign out­side, yet ever­yo­ne knows it’s the­re. The ent­rance is slight­ly tucked away, mode­st, far from the grand, decla­ra­ti­ve faça­de one might expect in a capi­tal city. And yet this is part of its charm. You step insi­de and imme­dia­te­ly the pop­corn machi­ne greets you, ming­ling with the inti­ma­cy of a small foy­er. A lar­ge and a sligh­ty hea­vy door sepa­ra­te the scree­ning room from the café bar, a space that feels like an exten­si­on of the films them­sel­ves, whe­re con­ver­sa­ti­ons lin­ger and sto­ries con­ti­nue in ano­ther form.

For me, it is more than a venue; it is a place whe­re I return to what I value most: wat­ching films. It is also a subt­le chro­nic­le of chan­ge. I knew it first as a teen­ager dis­co­ve­ring Ita­li­an neo­rea­lism, later as a stu­dent drawn toward more expe­ri­men­tal cine­ma, and now as a thir­ty-eight-year-old woman who incre­asing­ly choo­ses docu­men­ta­ries. Over time, I have sen­sed my tas­te beco­ming more pre­cise, laye­red, atten­ti­ve. I encoun­te­red films the­re to which I might other­wi­se never have been expo­sed. This is whe­re I first encoun­te­red Atom Ego­yan, Car­los Rey­ga­das, Joshua Oppen­hei­mer, Amat Escalan­te; whe­re I wat­ched Sat­an­t­an­go; whe­re I lis­ten­ed to all kinds of dis­cus­sions, some lucid and for­ma­ti­ve, others mean­de­ring, yet somehow neces­sa­ry. And, like so many others, so many, many others: excel­lent films, less excel­lent ones, even tru­ly bad ones; tho­se you for­get almost instant­ly, and tho­se that remain, stub­born­ly, for the rest of your life.

I have wat­ched films the­re among others, but just as often alo­ne, gra­du­al­ly under­stan­ding that soli­tu­de in a dar­kened room can its­elf con­sti­tu­te a form of pre­sence. In that cine­ma, I have expe­ri­en­ced moments of ease and luci­di­ty, but also peri­ods of inward­ness, estran­ge­ment, emo­tio­nal fati­gue, dis­trac­tion, agi­ta­ti­on, and a kind of con­cen­tra­ted sad­ness that occa­sio­nal­ly approa­ched tears, per­haps more inten­se­ly than in any other cine­ma I have known. Not only becau­se it is in my home­town, but becau­se it is the place whe­re I choo­se to expe­ri­ence all of this.

Cine­ma is never sta­tic; it is a kind of emo­tio­nal archi­tec­tu­re. The­re are tho­se rare moments when someone’s pre­sence feels quiet­ly cer­tain, as if their place bes­i­de me belongs not just to that scree­ning, but extends bey­ond it.

Gra­du­al­ly, almost wit­hout noti­cing, the cine­ma beco­mes a kind of frame through which I begin to under­stand peo­p­le: who remains in your shot, who drifts out of focus, who belongs clo­se bes­i­de you in the same sce­ne, and who exists some­whe­re fur­ther away, in ano­ther sequence enti­re­ly. Wit­hout ever sta­ting it direct­ly, the cine­ma has a way of making the­se distinc­tions for me, quiet­ly, almost imper­cep­ti­bly, reve­al­ing who belongs in the con­ti­nui­ty of my life, and who was only ever meant to pass through it.

If a sin­gle place can offer you all of that, then to call it mere­ly “important” feels insuf­fi­ci­ent. It beg­ins to resem­ble some­thing clo­ser to a per­son you need to have in your life becau­se it gives you, in its own ste­ady and unas­sum­ing way, ever­y­thing you did not know you nee­ded, and ever­y­thing you can­not quite live without.

A new lay­er emer­ges when I find mys­elf orga­ni­zing a scree­ning of a film the­re. Only then do I begin to grasp how deman­ding, and how beau­tiful, that act tru­ly is. The space trans­forms once more from a place whe­re I recei­ve mea­ning into one whe­re I attempt to offer it.

If Mee­ting Point is a move­ment, The Cine­ma­the­que of Bos­nia and Her­ze­go­vina is a memo­ry. It exists in a dif­fe­rent regis­ter of time. It car­ri­es the weight of a past that con­ti­nues to brea­the, an archi­ve not only of films, but of ways of see­ing that might other­wi­se disappear.

Tog­e­ther, the­se two cine­mas hold me bet­ween them: one rea­ching for­ward, the other hol­ding ste­ady what has alre­a­dy been.

The images arri­ve alre­a­dy sedi­men­ted, alre­a­dy mark­ed by time, and one wat­ches not only the film but the per­sis­tence of cine­ma its­elf. its capa­ci­ty to remain, to endu­re, to be re-seen.

The Cine­ma­the­que crou­ch­es in Sara­je­vo like a for­got­ten reel of black-and-white cine­ma, very mode­st from the out­side, yet car­ry­ing the still arro­gan­ce of a place that has sur­vi­ved histo­ry by sim­ply refu­sing to dis­ap­pear. Its faça­de does not beg for atten­ti­on; it stands like an insti­tu­ti­on stran­ded in a coun­try that no lon­ger knows what to do with places built for coll­ec­ti­ve memo­ry. One feels that the Cine­ma­the­que, still mourns the vanis­hed socia­list Yugo­sla­via that once unders­tood cine­ma as cul­tu­re rather than expen­se or bur­den. It seems trap­ped bet­ween sys­tems, aban­do­ned by the sta­te, tole­ra­ted by the Can­ton Sara­je­vo, and sus­tained lar­ge­ly by nost­al­gia, iner­tia, and the devo­ti­on of a few remai­ning enthu­si­asts. Even its decay feels ideo­lo­gi­cal. Even the neon sign abo­ve it has long sur­ren­de­red its lumi­nous ambi­ti­ons; the let­ters no lon­ger glow, but somehow that only makes the place more truthful, as if the buil­ding its­elf deci­ded that genui­ne cine­phi­les should alre­a­dy know whe­re to find it.

Insi­de, the air smells of dust and the faint after­li­fe of cel­lu­loid. The cor­ri­dor feels like aban­do­ned sce­nes from an Eas­tern Euro­pean art­house film, and the dim­ness grants ever­y­thing a cere­mo­ni­al soft­ness. I wat­ched old Yugo­slav films the­re for the first time quite deli­bera­te­ly, almost stub­born­ly becau­se I wan­ted the Kino­te­ka to intro­du­ce them to me pro­per­ly, like a slight­ly eccen­tric pro­fes­sor insis­ting that cer­tain mas­ter­pie­ces deser­ve ritu­al con­di­ti­ons. Silent films, too: Metro­po­lis fli­cke­ring in Ger­man wit­hout sub­tit­les, and Batt­le­ship Potem­kin roaring in Rus­si­an wit­hout trans­la­ti­on, which somehow made both films feel even more monu­men­tal, as though lan­guage its­elf had beco­me secon­da­ry to rhythm, light, and faces. At one scree­ning I found mys­elf whisper-trans­la­ting sce­nes to the per­son sit­ting bes­i­de me, and at some point it struck me that all we were miss­ing was a ben­shi, the ghost­ly live nar­ra­tor Chris Mar­ker wri­tes about in Silent Movie, stan­ding some­whe­re near the screen like a pro­phet of cine­ma explai­ning dreams to the audience.

And then the­re is the Cinematheque’s most char­mingly tra­gi­co­mic cus­tom: the per­pe­tu­al strugg­le to gather enough peo­p­le for a scree­ning to actual­ly hap­pen. The rule is that at least five souls must popu­la­te the room befo­re the pro­jec­tor is gran­ted per­mis­si­on to awa­ken. More than once I ended up buy­ing extra tickets for ima­gi­na­ry spec­ta­tors, one absent stran­ger, some­ti­mes two sim­ply to save a film from can­cel­la­ti­on. It felt absurd in the most beau­tiful pos­si­ble way: pay­ing for ghosts so that shadows on a screen could con­ti­nue living for ano­ther evening. And every sin­gle time, it was enti­re­ly worth it.

Sara­je­vo has never offe­red the polished cer­tain­ty of lar­ger capi­tals, and its cine­mas car­ry visi­ble traces of fra­gi­li­ty, aging walls, spar­se audi­en­ces, insti­tu­ti­ons sur­vi­ving more through devo­ti­on than sup­port. Yet pre­cis­e­ly becau­se of that, every scree­ning feels less like con­sump­ti­on and more like an act of persistence.

I know the­re are lar­ger cine­mas, more beau­tiful and more per­fect ones, and I hope to encoun­ter many of them. But the­se are mine: the mode­st pas­sa­ge lea­ding to Mee­ting Point, the fading neon of the Cine­ma­the­que, the half-emp­ty scree­nings, the fami­li­ar darkness.