by Lucía Salas, Patrick Holzapfel

La vida útil meets Jugend ohne Film

Cine­ma doesn’t die easi­ly. It has been declared dead for ages and by now it must be one of the undead; a ghost haun­ting our dreams, night­ma­res, hopes and lives. In a time in which we are not allo­wed to go to cine­mas around the glo­be we deci­ded to start a litt­le dia­lo­gue about the films we see at home. We always belie­ve that cine­ma is neces­sa­ry and useful but even more so in the­se times of inse­cu­ri­ty and when a lot of our fri­ends face a strugg­le to sur­vi­ve within the world of cine­ma. Sin­ce cine­ma is always ali­ve when we talk and wri­te about it, dream and think about it, this is our con­tri­bu­ti­on to resur­rect what will never be lost.

Mon­day, March 23, 2020

Patrick: It seems quite obvious that films always react to the world around them. Recent­ly wat­ching films took a very abs­tract turn in my per­cep­ti­on but being forced to sit at home all day, I redis­co­ver­ed the life insi­de the frame, the tou­ch­es, the sen­sua­li­ty. Though I don’t neces­s­a­ri­ly think that wat­ching this or that film is an act of soli­da­ri­ty, I feel drawn to images of or from Ita­ly the­se days. I wat­ched Un petit monas­tère en Tos­ca­ne by Otar Ios­se­lia­ni. It’s a beau­tiful film por­tray­ing the life around a monas­tery. The workers, the mon­ks, the natu­re. Like often with Ios­se­lia­ni ever­y­thing holds tog­e­ther becau­se of music. The­re is a co-exis­tence of sacral music and folk songs. The peasant’s life is touch­ed by God and the believer’s life is touch­ed by the world we live in. Though it is a very hop­eful film it also made me sad. It’s also a film about ways of life being lost.

Tues­day, March 24, 2020

Lucía: It is true that films always react to the world around them, even the way the world tur­ned out to be after they appeared in it. So I have been most­ly inte­res­ted in see­ing what I can­not see, which is peo­p­le in places, now that space-tra­vel has beco­me almost as impos­si­ble as time tra­vel becau­se of the coro­na-sharks out­side. Your mon­ks and peasants took me to right across the bor­der from whe­re I am, to the French side of the Bas­que Coun­try, as I wat­ched Un petit monas­tère en Tos­ca­ne and then, right after, Iosseliani’s Eus­ka­di été 1982. France now seems a lot far­ther than 25 km away. In this one the crew goes around some small vil­la­ges of the regi­on recor­ding Bas­que par­ties and prac­ti­ces, as well as the infi­ni­te coun­try­si­de. For exam­p­le, in an ama­zing mon­ta­ge, an image of one woman shea­ring a sheep cuts to ano­ther woman, knit­ting. But I have a pie­ce of life insi­de and out the frame for you: almost at the end of the film many peo­p­le are on a stage for a town par­ty and in the midd­le of a batt­le sce­ne a litt­le trap door opens in the stage and they throw the defea­ted enemies the­re (out of the frame). That image cuts to a shot from below the stage, whe­re two actors recei­ve their fel­lows sur­roun­ded by pil­lows (back to the frame). It impres­ses me very much when, after having wat­ched some­thing for almost an hour, I rea­li­ze the­re is a second came­ra at work, which makes this cine­ma­tic magic trick pos­si­ble: to be both in the stage and in the back­stage while an action that will only take place once hap­pens. Or per­haps (I can only hope) it is fake, and they were all plot­ting against us, and not only the film­ma­kers (as usu­al) but the cha­rac­ters too. As both films were made for the small screen (alt­hough per­haps not as small as a small com­pu­ter), there’s still hope of being as clo­se to the film as you can. I am glad your mon­ks took me to France, as I hadn’t heard anyo­ne spea­king Eus­ke­ra sin­ce the qua­ran­ti­ne star­ted (the film is half in French, half in Eus­ke­ra). What I won­der is why on earth do your mon­ks pray in French in the midd­le of all that Tuscan wine?

“qua­ran­ti­ne in the bas­que country”

Wed­nes­day, March 25, 2020

Patrick: Isn’t it curious how cine­ma can occu­py places and geo­gra­phies? We are wri­ting about Tusca­ny or Bas­que Coun­try as if we could real­ly visit them, walk through their moun­ta­ins and hills, lie in their gras and sur­vi­ve their cruel his­to­ries. I recall Alain Badiou’s noti­on about how cine­ma is able to pos­sess a pie­ce of music, to even chan­ge it. I think, he descri­bes how he can’t lis­ten to Mahler’s 5th wit­hout thin­king of Venice (becau­se of Visconti’s Mor­te a Vene­zia) any­mo­re. Yet, I think this is also true for the place its­elf. Venice is not the same after having seen that film. In the­se attrac­ti­ve men­tal move­ments of an ima­gi­ned lifel­ong qua­ran­ti­ne, I won­der what would hap­pen to all tho­se places we know but can’t reach any­mo­re. Would they beco­me memo­ry? Would they be for­got­ten? Or would they beco­me cine­ma? Con­cer­ning your ques­ti­on about the lan­guage spo­ken in Un petit monas­tère en Tos­ca­ne, I read a bit about it. The monas­tery is the Abba­zia di San­t’An­ti­mo, it has a long histo­ry and has chan­ged sin­ce Ios­se­lia­ni film­ed the­re (may­be that’s why we didn’t get the film he pro­mi­ses at the end of this one) but at some point the French “cha­no­i­nes régu­liers de saint Augus­tin” moved the­re. They belong to the Pre­mons­tra­ten­si­ans and their task is to pray, sing songs and help the neigh­bor­ing peasants. In its­elf this can may­be be seen as a meta­phor for how cine­ma at its best might trans­form a land­scape. It brings an aes­the­tic or spi­ri­tu­al truth into what’s alre­a­dy the­re and tri­es to help tho­se who have to live. This brings me to two films I have seen inspi­red by your Bas­que ven­tures. Both are short films by Bas­que film­ma­ker Vic­tor Eri­ce, both were made as part of antho­lo­gy films. Alum­b­ra­mi­en­to and Vidros Part­idos. For now I only want to sta­te that I won’t accept that the­re is no cine­ma of even­tua­li­ty. As Eri­ce shows we can ima­gi­ne or fear wit­hout mani­pu­la­ting, the­re is an illu­si­on which is also a rea­li­ty. May­be that is a com­fort­ing thought, may­be it is a night­ma­re. Howe­ver, the land­scapes, buil­dings, ani­mals and peo­p­le Eri­ce films are trans­for­med, they beco­me a memo­ry and still, I feel, they have a capa­ci­ty of heal­ing (not only for the view­er but for tho­se invol­ved). So is a film­ma­ker a Premonstratensian?

a dog dre­a­ming (cap­tu­red by Vic­tor Erice)

Satur­day, March 28, 2000

Lucía: Sor­ry for the delay in my respon­se, my fri­end, I didn’t get coro­na­vi­rus but I sure got the coro­na blues. There’s a com­mon joke bet­ween the stu­dents from the film school here in which you are eit­her an obe­dient fol­lower of Otei­za or of Chil­li­da, but never both Bas­que sculp­tors (I know, we need bet­ter jokes around the­se parts). This also hap­pens often bet­ween cine­phi­les, and I always won­der if that’s the case with Vic­tor Eri­ce and Ivan Zulue­ta, as they both lived in San Sebas­tián and Madrid for so many years. I think they are both their own kind of Pre­mons­tra­ten­si­ans, only they might have dif­fe­rent defi­ni­ti­ons for what pray­ing, songs and hel­ping the neigh­bors is. My recup­er­a­ti­on from the coro­na-blues came stran­ge­ly from Zulue­ta, a film­ma­ker that I would have never cal­led a hea­ler befo­re, alt­hough I would have cal­led him an exor­cist. But I came across some of his short films, some of them as an ani­ma­tor and found foo­ta­ge film­ma­ker. In his film Aqua­ri­um he starts by ani­mat­ing the sky. Most pre­cis­e­ly, the clouds that float in it. It appears to be a Super 8mm sin­gle-frame ani­ma­ti­on, a time-lap­se of the clouds which allows you to per­cei­ve their move­ments, shapes and rela­ti­onship to the sun­light by making ever­y­thing go fas­ter. Curious how it usual­ly works the other way around: to real­ly per­cei­ve a move­ment it helps to slow it down and de-com­po­se it, like in Muy­bridge. But here, the pos­si­bi­li­ty of wat­ching ever­y­thing going fas­ter is what makes you see how all tho­se par­tic­les behave, and how time flies. They also look like an army of smo­ke slow­ly taking over Madrid (if only the­re was an anti-coro­na cloud). What a task, to stay still for so many hours, regu­lar­ly cap­tu­ring the clouds as they pass by in order to crea­te the illu­si­on of a new move­ment for them in the film strip. It seems like a per­fect task for the qua­ran­ti­ne. To ans­wer your thought around the rea­li­ty of illu­si­on, if it’s com­fort­ing or a night­ma­re, for now, I will go for com­fort­ing. All the ani­ma­tors of the world must be saner today than all the rest of us.

Spea­king of which, way down east, in Astu­ri­as, the­re is ano­ther monas­tery, Monas­te­rio de San­ta María de Val­de­diós. The­re are places that you want to visit for the first time only after wat­ching a film, and this is one. Ele­na Duque made a film last year cal­led Val­de­diós, about this par­ti­cu­lar place. It’s a three minu­te film that takes the spi­ri­tua­li­ty of the place and ani­ma­tes all over it, brin­ging the world and the stars lite­ral­ly to its door­step. Val­de­diós tou­ch­es on the explo­si­ve fee­ling that land­scape can crea­te within you and makes shapes and forms out of that, which, super­im­po­sed to the images of the place, crea­te a who­le new explo­si­on. I wat­ched this for the first time in a docu­men­ta­ry film fes­ti­val, after which a fri­end told me it could also be thought of as a docu­men­ta­ry about an ani­ma­tor, which made me like it even more. This has its own reality.

Look at this still from the film: Ima­gi­ne being able to take a pho­to­gra­phic image of a hor­se and have the tex­tu­re of the brush at the same time? It’s like having your cake and eating it too.

Sun­day, March 29, 2020

Patrick: Your descrip­ti­ons and thoughts brought forth in me a desi­re to see clouds. Out­side I can see a lot of them. I ima­gi­ne them loo­king at us. They seem fri­end­ly and indif­fe­rent. They won’t bring rain but they still block the light of the sun like Dio­ge­nes did with Alex­an­der the Gre­at. They are wiser than us. Alle­gedly we have more time the­se days. Some peo­p­le I know tre­at this situa­ti­on as if it was a medi­ta­ti­on. I am not one of them. The clouds haven’t chan­ged. Neither has the way I look at them. I think about James Benning’s Ten Ski­es and FAROCKI in which clouds are the prot­ago­nists. I feel too clo­se to real clouds, real ski­es to real­ly under­stand the merit of the­se films that remind us what it can mean to look. We exch­an­ged some thoughts about the neces­si­ty to tra­vel the world with cine­ma and though I am cer­tain that cine­ma is also a school of see­ing, I remain doubtful as to whe­ther this appli­es for see­ing films at home. I think, If I under­stand Ten Ski­es, it is in a cine­ma in which I am more or less ent­rap­ped in the dark and which might allow, after a busy day, to final­ly brea­the, see, get clo­ser to rea­li­ty. Or, as you put it, to see how time flies. At home the­re is no need for it. I see the real clouds moving through the win­dow behind my screen. Espe­ci­al­ly digi­tal clouds (and I am not sure if I can trust Ben­ning here?) have their way of remin­ding me what a lie cine­ma can be. May­be it is the time for lies and illu­si­ons? (I have to remem­ber that my dreams of riding on a cloud always end with rain.)

I also thought of Drif­ting Clouds by Aki Kau­ris­mä­ki and Floa­ting Clouds by Mikio Naru­se. In the for­mer (which I con­sider the most heart­warm­ing film by this lover of peo­p­le) the­re is a sen­se of rea­ching for the clouds when you’ve sunk so deep that you almost can’t see them any­mo­re and in the lat­ter the­re is a sen­se of of rea­ching for the clouds we once have known. Both films are melan­cho­lic to the bone and beau­tiful. Yet, both films also por­tray defea­ted socie­ties and peo­p­le. Which emo­ti­ons can sur­vi­ve a war, a finan­cial col­lap­se, a loss of life? Is the­re a space for the touch, a kiss, a ges­tu­re of love? Of cour­se the­re is, you just have to deci­de whe­ther it’s an illu­si­on or rea­li­ty. Do you feel that in see­ing films at home, time moves differently?

Mon­day, March 30, 2020

Lucía: We alle­gedly have more time, but time flies more than ever. Whe­re did all my days go? Films also, they end quite soo­ner than befo­re now from home, but they seem to be taking much more space. I think this is what they call dis­trac­tion. But to ans­wer your ques­ti­on, it may depend on the con­di­ti­ons for wat­ching you have at home. I don’t have a TV or a pro­jec­tor whe­re I am, so I watch films on my com­pu­ter, and as time and space are indi­vi­si­ble, so is the per­cep­ti­on of time and the per­cep­ti­on of space (I’m gues­sing here). So, in my small screen, smal­ler than mys­elf, the­re is always less immersi­on, in both the space and the time of the film. Some­ti­mes I try hard to tweak my per­cep­ti­on to get lost (phy­si­cal­ly) in the sounds and images a litt­le, and it works. Ever­y­thing is smal­ler of cour­se, but what would be the word for what hap­pens to time? Is it more disper­sed? What I would give for a screen big­ger than mys­elf (and for pro­blems that are the exact opposite).

I was loo­king at some ski­es too, from insi­de two cars. In The United Sta­tes of Ame­ri­ca Bet­te Gor­don and James Ben­ning dri­ve from New York to Los Ange­les with a came­ra atta­ched to the back of their car (in the insi­de) in a way in which we can see them and the road ahead. In Lett­re à mon ami Pol Cebé, Michel Des­rois, José They and Antoine Bon­fan­ti tra­vel from Paris to Lil­le and back as mem­bers of the group Med­ved­ki­ne to pre­sent the film Clas­se de lut­te. Gor­don and Ben­ning appear to be silent, but they talk through the frag­ments they choo­se, both in image and in sound. The radio is always play­ing, songs and news, and we learn that the Viet­nam war was about to end as they crossed the untouch­ed ter­ri­to­ry of the losing side. Radio is almost gone, but TV is still here, still in the news and games busi­ness. Des­rois, They and Bon­fan­ti do talk, bet­ween them, to the fri­end who this let­ter is for, Pol Cèbe, and to ever­yo­ne here at the house. They ask at the begin­ning why is taking film to the lab so expen­si­ve? And their ans­wer is becau­se film is a class instru­ment, as cine­ma is such a powerful tool. And joyful­ly (for them, for Pol Cèbe and for us) they take a good amount of film (color film stock!) and they wri­te and cap­tu­re com­ra­de­rie all over the road. If time is money, then money should buy time, and it often seems that way. I won­der how we can con­ti­nue to try and break that cycle now that we alle­gedly have more time, no space, no money, and we can’t get in the car with com­ra­des and think or have such a con­ver­sa­ti­on. I won­der this also becau­se in The United Sta­tes of Ame­ri­ca there’s a song that plays many times, as it is or was usu­al on the radio. It’s Min­nie Riperton’s Loving You, a song I hadn’t heard in pro­ba­b­ly ten years, and I can’t help but think that this is how the new deca­de star­ted. In the song she says And every day of my life is fil­led with lovin› you and, cor­ny as it sounds and is, I am glad that we love cine­ma, as every day can be fil­led with some­thing and some tools we have.

Spea­king of time and ski­es, I lea­ve you a few from João César Monteiro’s Bran­ca de Neve.

Wed­nes­day, April 1, 2020

Patrick: The beau­tiful clouds you sent make me think of three things at the same time: pubic hair, Robert Wal­ser and John Wayne’s hips.

João César Mon­tei­ro has to be a com­pa­n­ion the­se days. He always is. I remem­ber rea­ding the inter­view he con­duc­ted with hims­elf and how he talks about his film Sophia de Mel­lo Breyner And­re­sen being a pro­of for the impos­si­bi­li­ty of film­ing poet­ry. In a poem of Sophia she talks about how vola­ti­le images are. She says that we are stan­ding naked in front of living things and she asks whe­ther any pre­sence can satis­fy the eter­nal urge within us. Tho­se sen­ten­ces have always rever­be­ra­ted in my heart. Loo­king at Monteiro’s clouds, it came to my mind we are not only loo­king at the clouds, we are also wat­ching in the cloud. All the­se films that are now gro­wing from the digi­tal dark­ness like weeds, all tho­se offers, all the­se films that can be down­loa­ded, strea­med. I have to run through my online gar­den with a hoe and scream: “Stop! Stop! I can’t see any­thing. I only see a big cloud!” I doubt the­se are the vola­ti­le images Sophia wro­te about. This is an infla­ti­on, a sen­se­l­ess fire­work in which sup­p­ly exceeds demand by a cou­ple of life­spans. Who the hell is going to watch all tho­se films? Is this the urge of cine­ma (cul­tu­re) in times of its non-exis­tence? Is it the pur­po­se of cine­ma to be the­re for us or is it, as they make belie­ve ever­y­whe­re, that we are the­re for cine­ma if we con­ti­nue see­ing films (which films?) on this or that plat­form? I am not refer­ring to the films we search for, I am refer­ring to the ones we can­not hide from. Some­ti­mes I won­der, whe­ther we shouldn’t all just dream about the films we can’t see now. For exam­p­le, I think I’d love it if you wro­te to me about a film I have no chan­ce of see­ing at all in the near future. The cine­ma (cul­tu­ral) world is under thre­at (has been as long as I remem­ber) and I can under­stand cer­tain reac­tions and ide­as. It’s a strugg­le for sur­vi­val, in this is cer­tain­ly no time for onto­lo­gi­cal deba­tes. Yet, the sheer speed in which after a cou­ple of days solu­ti­ons have been pre­sen­ted and we could read about how the cri­sis deman­ded cer­tain reac­tions is a far­ce as far as I am con­cer­ned. The ans­wer as to why this or that insti­tu­ti­on, fes­ti­val or cine­ma shows films seems only to be: becau­se if we don’t show films, we don’t exist. Shouldn’t it be the other way around? The reason for show­ing films online is in most cases not one of soli­da­ri­ty but one of a digi­tal mar­ket­place that was very rea­dy to be what it is now befo­re the­re was a pan­de­mic. I under­stand that this may come across rather cyni­cal as the­re are peo­p­le invol­ved and their well being depends on the­se things and I am not one to talk becau­se I also need a fes­ti­val to hap­pen in order to have enough money. It’s absurd and this is what I sta­te. Camus wro­te in his dia­ry that peo­p­le cry about and desi­re exact­ly what they are humi­lia­ted by. He calls it the gre­at mise­ry of humanity.

I think about Monteiro’s famous assess­ment that you are poorer if you don’t go to the cine­ma. I think this would be a start, to admit that we are poorer now ins­tead of indul­ging into all kinds of cine­phi­le eupho­ri­as, uto­pi­as, dys­to­pi­as and self-important mes­sa­ges. Films can be a plas­ter for our wounds the­se days, they can help us, they can make us richer while we are poorer. The rest is cine­ma as a slave and I find it dis­quie­ting­ly fun­ny that tho­se who put ever­y­thing online at the same time decla­re that now is a time to rethink some ide­as we have about life. I hope nobo­dy is belie­ving into online uto­pi­as any­mo­re while dis­cus­sing things on cor­po­ra­te chat rooms under govern­ment sur­veil­lan­ce. A good exam­p­le for the real kind of help and plas­ter art and cul­tu­re can offer is Krsto Papić’s Let Our Voices Be Heard, Too. It’s a litt­le tre­asu­re from For­mer Yugo­sla­via about pira­te radi­os in the coun­try­si­de. It shows the love and resis­tance that goes into sha­ring know­ledge and plea­su­re. Toward the end of the film we see how the equip­ment is con­fis­ca­ted by the aut­ho­ri­ties. The came­ra pans over cables and machi­nes and somehow the radio sud­den­ly seems to be a bomb. The­re is a dif­fe­rence bet­ween weeds and a bomb. I think I know which meta­phor for cine­ma Mon­tei­ro would have pre­fer­red. But I am only gues­sing, of course.

Sun­day, April 5, 2020

Lucia: The image of you, screa­ming in your online gar­den with a hoe, ope­ned this tab in my mind’s browser:

Young Witt­gen­stein, over­whel­med in Derek Jarman’s film. The fact that most things that exist around cine­ma (the film world) are the­re only to per­pe­tua­te them­sel­ves and have litt­le to do with cine­ma is no news to any of us. Per­haps the news is that this is not unavo­ida­ble as we used to belie­ve, as its per­ma­nence in the future may not be auto­ma­tic and may even not be at all. I dis­agree with one thing you say: I do think the­re is no bet­ter time to be onto­lo­gi­cal, at least for us, the non-essen­ti­al. What I gave up on are soli­ta­ry conclusions.

I am also over­whel­med, hoe in hand, in the cloud. But, spea­king of pira­tes, I am a film pira­te (and I suspect you are too). I recent­ly read a fel­low pira­te making a joke about how ever­yo­ne is down­loa­ding or strea­ming now the things we down­loa­ded ille­gal­ly ages ago. The cloud has been the­re for a while, but now it’s a litt­le more out the­re and in the weird shape of a man­da­te. Befo­re it was a secret cloud, a whispe­red cloud, a word-to-mouth cloud. So, in this incre­asing­ly pol­lu­ted vir­tu­al world, I keep to my fel­low pira­tes, now a litt­le more under the sun, and try to see what they are up to. What I mean is that, in order not to fol­low my cur­rent ever pre­sent urge to jump out the win­dow (which would achie­ve not­hing real­ly, I live on the first flo­or), I igno­re any­thing that is not orga­ni­zed around some form of thought or com­mu­ni­ty. I agree we are poorer now (in abso­lut­e­ly any pos­si­ble mea­ning) but the­re is still some move­ment out the­re. Film socie­ties and clubs are emer­ging in dif­fe­rent plat­forms, ways of coll­ec­ti­ve wat­ching and dis­cus­sing. It is abso­lut­e­ly not the same as coexis­ting in a real space, which is fun­da­men­tal, irre­placeable and what I desi­re the most. But from this, I gather that, con­tra­ry to what I belie­ved short­ly befo­re the pan­de­mic in my most apo­ca­lyp­tic cyni­cal moments, the need to be clo­se to films and to the peo­p­le who we want to dis­cuss them with, fri­ends and stran­gers, is still essential.

This is my way of than­king you for your radio pira­tes, Krsto Papić’s Let Our Voices Be Heard, Too which I had never heard of befo­re and made my qua­ran­ti­ne wort­hwhile. The note on which it ends, that the things you love can­not be des­troy­ed, is per­fect for today. This made me go back to two films around radi­os, Gian­fran­co Annichini’s Radio Belén and Sebas­ti­an Lingiardi’s Sip’ohi, el lugar del man­du­ré. Radio Belén is shot in a radio sta­ti­on from the neigh­bor­hood of Belén, Iqui­tos which they call the Venice of the Ama­zo­nas, as it is built over the water. Sip’ohi was shot in El Sau­z­a­li­to, a small city in the Argen­ti­ni­an nor­the­ast, Cha­co, and around a wichí radio sta­ti­on. The­se two films are built around the importance that the sta­ti­ons have for the com­mu­ni­ty, con­cen­t­ra­ting in the amount of detail with which they cover the needs of ever­y­day life (announ­cing and invi­ting to cele­bra­ti­ons, brin­ging news, nar­ra­ting sto­ries, enter­tai­ning) while they reflect on how the­se com­mu­ni­ca­ti­ons have a very short ran­ge, which keeps them insi­de the com­mu­ni­ty only. In Radio Belén, this short rage of the radio waves is con­tras­ted with the images taken from the place, which show the pre­ca­ri­ty of life around Belén and will tra­vel with the film. But in both of them the­re is also a thought or two around how, even if this short-ran­ge might seem like a men­ace to the per­ma­nence of the cul­tures they belong to, this opa­ci­ty could also work as pro­tec­tion. Against what? In Sip’ohi, two cha­rac­ters have a con­ver­sa­ti­on clo­se to the river about the oral natu­re of wichí cul­tu­re and the com­ple­xi­ty of sha­ring that out­side the com­mu­ni­ty, espe­ci­al­ly with the white popu­la­ti­on, by recor­ding, trans­la­ting or tran­scrib­ing. They ask them­sel­ves what is reco­gni­ti­on, for a cul­tu­re to be reco­gni­zed, and who are the sub­jects on both sides of this reco­gni­ti­on. Their pro­blem so far has been that peo­p­le had come, taken the infor­ma­ti­on and never retur­ned, lea­ving them with not­hing. The film was released in 2011, a moment in which, at least in the Spa­nish-spea­king world, hybri­di­ty was start­ing to sett­le as the key world in thin­king about docu­men­ta­ry film prac­ti­ce. The film’s ans­wer to its time, and the character’s pre­di­ca­ment, was that the true poli­ti­cal agen­cy of this hybri­di­ty was not only in loo­king insi­de the con­ven­ti­ons of cine­ma and the self to dif­um­i­na­te or re-wri­te them but also in thin­king with others ins­tead of about others. And that this coll­ec­ti­ve thin­king (with peo­p­le, places and times) would crea­te a form of its own.

I don’t have films that would be only available to me and not you right now, but I have a memo­ry, which is simi­lar. I grew up in a small city which is loca­ted in a spar­se­ly popu­la­ted ter­ri­to­ry in which a lot of peo­p­le live far from a town or any other place whe­re you can find peo­p­le. So every evening the local radio sta­ti­ons would have some­thing cal­led “Men­sa­je al pobla­dor rural” (mes­sa­ge to the rural peo­p­le) which would broad­cast mes­sa­ges. They were usual­ly about tra­vels, crops and shea­ring sea­sons. I can’t count how many times I heard as a child that someone would arri­ve at the sta­ti­on on Tues­day at 9 am and won­de­red if, when Tues­day came, the­re would be someone to pick them up from the station.

I saw a few more films by Papić after your pira­tes. I send you the­se images from Halo Mün­chen, shot in Zago­ra. It says at the begin­ning of the film that the area was always known as the land of the rocks and the poor and that many peo­p­le lea­ve from the­re. In this sce­ne, ever­yo­ne gathers around the mail­man to get their cor­re­spon­dence, let­ters from all over the world. From one fri­end in a lock­down very far from home, to another:

Mon­day, April 6, 2020

Patrick: “Along with mur­der, pira­cy is one of mankind’s oldest prac­ti­ces.“. This is one of the first sen­ten­ces said by Bud Spen­cer in Erman­no Olmi’s wild Can­tan­do die­tro i para­ven­ti. I couldn’t resist put­ting it here, though in no way I think of mur­der when I think of pira­cy. Yet, both can be acts of love.

I am not sure if it is cus­to­ma­ry for pira­tes to send let­ters. Yet, I sym­pa­thise with the pira­te who shares such beau­tiful memo­ries as well as with all tho­se pira­tes who share their boo­ty. Somehow, my life as a pira­te has always been on dry land. Robert Lou­is Stevenson’s Tre­asu­re Island is may­be the most important book of my life, it was given to me on the Cana­ry Islands and I read it seven times in a row. What sticks most with me is not its sen­se of adven­ture, it is the lon­ging for it. I remem­ber loving the begin­ning so much, I lived with Jim Haw­kins at the inn, I obser­ved all tho­se crea­tures of the sea coming and going like ebb and flow. I stay­ed in my room, heard their voices and laugh­ter tur­ning into desi­re and expec­ta­ti­on. Ima­gi­ning being a pira­te, dre­a­ming about buried gold and rea­ding maps has always been clo­ser to me than actual­ly set­ting sail. Some­ti­mes I won­der whe­ther this makes me a fool or coward but then I think it takes a lot of cou­ra­ge to dream. We shouldn’t for­get that in the Ara­bic lan­guage Riḥ­la refers to a jour­ney as well as the writ­ten account of it. It’s may­be a more soli­ta­ry occu­pa­ti­on but dreams can be shared, too. The end­less epi­so­des at ano­ther inn of lite­ra­tu­re, in Don Qui­xo­te, are ano­ther mile­stone in my coming to rea­li­se that some­ti­mes the sto­ry is the life and vice ver­sa. I won­der if tho­se pri­soners on Coro­na Island, tho­se who are for­t­u­na­te enough to be healt­hy and to be able to move on the island, all meet at the local inn. They drink and share their sto­ries and fears, hopes and enthu­si­asms. But then, I know that it is not allo­wed to go into an inn. Let’s take it as meta­phor and think about Mau­rice Tourneur’s Tre­asu­re Island, a lost film, one of tho­se we can only dream about.

So, I was brow­sing through all the pira­tes I know in cine­ma, from Anne of the Indies to Jac­ques Rivet­te, Paul Hen­reid in Frank Borzage’s The Spa­nish Main to Ani­ta Mor­gan in Hen­ry King’s Hell Har­bor. It’s a lost gen­re, buried deep under­ground by Walt Dis­ney. May­be some­day a group of fearless adven­tu­r­ers will find a map, arri­ve at a distant island and dig it out.

Then I came across some­bo­dy who could be cal­led a pira­te (who would defeat a who­le arma­da of pira­tes though) and who sure­ly backs my noti­ons of Riḥ­la: Der Baron von Münch­hau­sen. I wat­ched Karel Zeman’s stun­ning film Baron Prá­šil, a other­world­ly ode to fan­ta­sy, a roman­tic tale about the clo­sen­ess of adven­tures and love, Geor­ges Méliès and the Lumiè­re Brot­hers, the moon and the earth. As we wro­te about clouds I couldn’t help fee­ling that this is ano­ther film about loo­king up. Be it the moon, the clouds, some God, a radio signal, all that seems important and sin­ce you insis­ted on the onto­lo­gi­cal ques­ti­ons, I have to refer to Jean-Luc Godard’s idea of cine­ma as some­thing which you look up to whe­re­as tele­vi­si­on (and lap­tops) are things you look down at. Whe­re do you look at when you are lis­tening to the radio?

Here I send you two images from Karel Zeman’s work with ani­ma­ti­on and dreams:

Thurs­day, April 9, 2020

Lucía: Good ques­ti­on. My grand­mo­ther lis­ten­ed to the radio all day as she work­ed in her sewing, my grand­fa­ther lis­ten­ed to it in the car while dri­ving all around town, and I lis­ten to it while I do any mecha­ni­cal task (less and less in my line of work, if I ever work again), knit or cook. So I guess when you lis­ten to the radio you look at your hands and wha­te­ver is kee­ping them busy. Or out the win­dow. It would be nice to have a coro­na island radio sta­ti­on whe­re we all could hear the same things at the same time. The other day someone inter­view­ed Godard and strea­med it on Insta­gram, and I couldn’t pay atten­ti­on to any­thing but the comm­ents from the peo­p­le that were tuning in (around 4000 peo­p­le). Some of them were fri­ends and we even said hi. The­re were three types of social media posts after it: posts on how hand­so­me Godard loo­ked, posts of peo­p­le show­ing that they them­sel­ves were in the strea­ming when their names show­ed up on the screen, and peo­p­le who found fri­ends and cap­tu­red their flee­ting comments.

A few weeks ago, when you could go places, the­re was a scree­ning of Micha­el Pilz’s last film in Rot­ter­dam. The film is cal­led With Love – Volu­me One 1987–1996 and it is com­po­sed of foo­ta­ge from his per­so­nal archi­ve, being the per­so­nal his fri­ends and loved ones tal­king and going places. He said after the scree­ning that he found that he could not always pay atten­ti­on to what peo­p­le were say­ing when facing foo­ta­ge like that, as he kept most­ly loo­king at the faces and the way they move. I felt reli­e­ved, as this hap­pens to me often with the final result of fee­ling stu­pid, and it hap­pen­ed during the Godard strea­ming, when if I could take my eyes out of the comm­ents and con­stant stream of litt­le hearts (unbles­sed) I could only con­cen­tra­te on his move­ments, espe­ci­al­ly that giant cigar. The inter­view­er didn’t have a cigar, he had one of tho­se masks that are the new gold.

I miss loo­king up to see a film ter­ri­bly. Some days ago Tsai Ming-Liang’s Rizi was available online, one of the last films I loo­ked up to watch, as I saw it in a huge thea­ter with pro­ba­b­ly more than a thousand peo­p­le. I was very clo­se to the screen loo­king up and having a ter­ri­fic time while a lady brea­thed, deep­ly asleep, and peo­p­le coug­hed every once in a while wit­hout fee­ling like mur­de­rers. You could look at a giant pro­jec­tion of the bodies of two men tou­ch­ing, can you ima­gi­ne? As the inter­net shows, you don’t need space to be alo­ne, but you do need space to be tog­e­ther. The lon­gest part of the film is a sex work sce­ne inclu­ding a mas­sa­ge. In such a screen you could feel the pres­sing of the mus­cles as if the­re were your own, feel the time as it was your own, your life fuga­cious­ly trans­for­med by the rela­ti­onship bet­ween the lives of the­se two cha­rac­ters. That’s what days could be like. Going back to an old ques­ti­on, I do think now that time moves dif­fer­ent­ly when you watch a film on a com­pu­ter. It is also not the same to fall asleep in a thea­ter than at home, wat­ching films in bed, whe­re you are sup­po­sed to sleep already.

But the­se I wat­ched in the past and not in cap­ti­vi­ty, so one from the island: spea­king of dreams, I have been rea­ding Jer­ry Lewis’ bio­gra­phy and films. His fri­end­ship with Dean Mar­tin con­so­li­da­ted also in a hotel room, a late night of four fri­ends goo­fing around until day­break. A fri­end­ship based ob craf­ting amu­se­ment tog­e­ther. In their film debut, years later, they plair their (later) usu­al part of a cou­ple made out of two fri­ends who have built their sur­vi­val tog­e­ther, living in the same room, working the same jobs and try­ing to make it tog­e­ther as the hand­so­me man and the mon­key. Their first musi­cal num­ber in My fri­end Irma hap­pens in a fan­cy restau­rant whe­re they are eating with their mana­ger, his girl­fri­end Irma and her fri­end and room­ma­te. Soon they rea­li­ze that the deal is that they have to sing for their food, so Mar­tin sings a song and then Lewis comes along, pre­ten­ding to inter­rupt and asking for ano­ther song. Lewis says ever­y­thing wrong, even the decli­na­ti­on of the phra­ses, to the point to which Mar­tin inqui­res if he’s asking him or tel­ling him some­thing, to which Lewis ans­wers: I am won­de­ring. Neither asking nor tel­ling, not­hing fixed, all in move­ment. Final­ly, Mar­tin asks Lewis to be his human instru­ment as he sings the Don­key Sere­na­de. While Mar­tin goes hand­so­me­ly into the song, Lewis is frea­k­ed out from the effort of making tho­se sounds with his mouth, pret­ty much like when you have to beat egg whites until stiff but you don’t have an elec­tric mixer. It ends on an ama­zin­gly sus­tained note. Mon­keys and don­keys, the per­fect cure for the corona-blues:

Btw, the song they sing is a ver­si­on of this one.

Satur­day, April 11, 2020

Patrick: As far back as I remem­ber, Jer­ry Lewis has always been a cure. The­re is some­thing deep­ly satis­fy­ing and con­so­ling about his screen pre­sence. It’s even bey­ond the puri­ty of laugh­ter its­elf. I think it has to do with his por­tra­yals of “weak­ne­ss” and “strength”. He always mana­ges to show that neither of tho­se attri­bu­tes real­ly exists. Weak­ne­s­ses can turn into strengths and strengths are ridi­cu­lous and may lead into cata­stro­phes. The moment he shows that strength does not real­ly exist, he gives us a poli­ti­cal cure and once he turns to weak­ne­ss he gives us a spi­ri­tu­al cure. The best thing, as you rightful­ly poin­ted out, is that he cures while he is dancing, sin­ging, jum­ping, screa­ming, rol­ling on the flo­or. It’s music and music has a heal­ing effect in itself.

I deci­ded for an over­do­se of this spe­ci­fic cure and spend a night wat­ching That’s My Boy, Visit to a Small Pla­net, The Bell­boy, Three on a Couch and his appearance in Jer­ry Seinfeld’s Come­di­ans in Cars Get­ting Cof­fee. Sin­ce I am still drug­ged, I can only share two observations.

a: In Visit to a Small Pla­net his cha­rac­ter (Kre­ton) gives a com­ple­te­ly new mea­ning to the moon and all this busi­ness of loo­king up (to it). He says that the moon was the last stop for gas befo­re mars.

b: After a cou­ple of hours with tho­se films the­re are only two solu­ti­ons. Eit­her you go com­ple­te­ly cra­zy (if you iden­ti­fy with what is going on, one may call this a super­fi­ci­al vie­w­ing expe­ri­ence) or you go com­ple­te­ly sane (if you look for the details, app­re­cia­te the work, obser­ve the vir­tuo­se ana­to­my of each gag). I have yet to deci­de whe­re I am hea­ding but my fee­ling is that I might just get ins­a­nely sane or at least, dis­or­der­ly orderly.

I won­der, does cine­ma in the­se days also inspi­re you to live? To me, cine­ma means most when it tea­ches me about how to be, how to act as a per­son in the world out­side of cinema.

I wan­ted to share this image of one of the grea­test let­ter wri­ters I know of: D.H. Law­rence. In one of his let­ters he wri­tes: “It isn’t the sce­n­ery one lives by, but the free­dom of moving about alo­ne.” Aldous Hux­ley wro­te a gre­at essay on Law­rence in which he deals with the con­flict bet­ween a soli­ta­ry life as an artist and the need for social and bodi­ly cont­act. It made me think about a lot of things. For exam­p­le, about the plea­su­re and need of wri­ting let­ters and sha­ring our soli­ta­ry expe­ri­en­ces. After all, as Law­rence also wro­te in one of his let­ters, the art of wri­ting was also a cure, a cure for the wri­ter and (may­be) the reader. 

Mon­day, April 13, 2020

Lucía: you remin­ded me of an anec­do­te from Jer­ry Lewis’ auto­bio­gra­phy. Things with Dean Mar­tin are not going well, he can’t get out of unwan­ted con­tracts and he just had his first of many car­diac arrests, so he deci­des to call a psych­ia­trist fri­end. He goes into the office, very fan­cy and man­ly, and tells the guy what’s wrong, to which the guy says that he sees the­re might be a con­flict in Jer­ry start­ing ana­ly­sis. The­re is a dan­ger that the pain may lea­ve and the­r­e­fo­re the­re wouldn’t be any reason for Jer­ry to be fun­ny any­mo­re. Just enough to never ever laugh again while wat­ching Crack­ing-up. Or else, to laugh a litt­le more hys­te­ri­cal­ly. By the way, how was Come­di­ans in Cars Get­ting Cof­fee? I always wan­ted to watch his epi­so­de, but the nor­ma­li­zed dis­play of wealth that all its adver­ti­sing had made me run the other way. It’s sil­ly, we all know the­se peo­p­le are filt­hy rich, but there’s some­thing about the unfun­ny way in which they seem to hand­le that trans­pa­ren­cy that repul­ses me.

I go to cine­ma to learn how to live much more than I would dare to admit. I some­ti­mes fear that one day I will see a film and rea­li­ze I have been wal­king fun­ny my who­le life. My favo­ri­te make-up advice (and the only one I have) I got from Nan­cy Allen in Bri­an de Palma’s Blow Out. When I wat­ched Hiroatsu Suzuki’s film Ter­ra, I thought that if we all knew how natu­ral coal was made we wouldn’t use so much of it. Today I wat­ched Ogawa’s A Japa­ne­se Vil­la­ge, and as I was wat­ching the­se peo­p­le figu­re out why the crops were going so bad, I had the same fee­ling with rice, and as I saw a spee­dy image of how rise blooms ‑it takes it 45 minu­tes to open- I thought I should sprout some legu­mes in order to see some­thing grow next to me, as in Spain all recrea­ti­on out­side is still for­bidden. So I asked a few fri­ends whe­ther they would like to grow sprouts in their homes and then share pic­tures of their growth with each other. One of them said yes and imme­dia­te­ly roas­ted me with a vimeo link. The film is cal­led Lea e il gomi­tolo (Lea and the ball), star­ring the Ita­li­an come­di­an Lea Giunchi. It’s from 1913. Lea’s par­ents are tel­ling her that she shouldn’t read but knit, and they sit her down to work. But as soon as they are gone she loses her yarn and tra­s­hes the who­le house loo­king for it. The ball, of cour­se, was han­ging from the back of her skirt the who­le time. My fri­end sent it as a respon­se to the tyran­ny of the dome­stic we are living right now (us, who were not too tied to it befo­re, as other women were befo­re coro­na) and also as a via­ble pos­si­bi­li­ty. We are try­ing to stay sane by crea­ting tem­po­ra­ry ways of life which can pro­du­ce some sen­se of joy within the con­di­ti­ons of the con­fi­ne­ment, taking time to bake obses­si­ve­ly, knit, reor­ga­ni­ze the home or make things grow on len­tils. But there’s also Lea’s way, just trash ever­y­thing and sit down to read among your ruins.

An ambi­tious cross­over bet­ween Oga­wa and Lea: there’s a sce­ne in Den­nis the Men­ace in which peo­p­le are gathe­red to watch the blos­so­ming of a for­ty-year old orchid that will only do so once, that night. Mean­while, Dani­el rea­li­zes there’s a burglar in the house and runs out­side to tell ever­yo­ne. He starts screa­ming in the exact moment in which the orchid opens up, and when peo­p­le final­ly turn their heads towards the flower, it has alre­a­dy withe­red. Like the ope­ning poem of Joan Didion’s The year of magi­cal thinking:

Life chan­ges fast.

Life chan­ges in the instant.

You sit down to din­ner and life as you know it ends.

The ques­ti­on of self-pity.

Films also help with grief, and we are grie­ving our future lives as much as our past ones. What about the ques­ti­on of self-pity?

Fri­day, April 17, 2020

Patrick: now you left me with the dif­fi­cult task of having to dwell on two topics that pro­vo­ke an oce­an of thoughts: first­ly, you asked about a dis­play of wealth and second­ly, you were con­cer­ned with the ques­ti­on of self-pity. The crux of the mat­ter is that both topics seem to cross, to be rela­ted. I wat­ched a cou­ple of epi­so­des of Come­di­ans in Cars Get­ting Cof­fee. To be honest, despi­te having heard about it here and the­re, I didn’t real­ly know what’s it all about. I also don’t know what Sein­feld is all about and to be honest, none of that did chan­ge after wat­ching tho­se epi­so­des. Nevert­hel­ess, I got the cer­tain fee­ling that it’s not for me to “get it”. It’s about some­thing else and this some­thing else is a pro­vo­ca­ti­on. It’s very clo­se to cer­tain hip-hop artists but ins­tead of pro­mo­ting an esca­pist or sexist approach to poli­ti­cal sexua­li­ty, here the­re is this meta­phor of cars, a cer­tain eli­tism and a very fake way of imi­ta­ting fri­end­ship and even the fee­ling of come­di­ans being one big fami­ly. It’s still fun­ny in the way that it can be fun­ny to hear a good joke by your tax coll­ec­tor. It’s a test for your indi­vi­du­al amount of empa­thy neces­sa­ry to laugh. Acci­den­tal­ly this is also a docu­men­ta­ry about the lack of per­so­na­li­ty and reflec­tion neces­sa­ry “to make it”. It mir­rors Mal­colm McDowell’s capi­ta­li­stic ven­tures in Lind­say Anderson’s alle­go­ri­cal odys­sey O Lucky Man!. Just be lucky and smi­le. You look at all tho­se smooth sur­faces, this sas­sy slick­ness and with excep­ti­on of the very old guests of the show (they don’t care any­mo­re), you can feel the tre­men­dous pres­su­re of someone having to be fun­ny, while being escor­ted in a car that cos­ts more than almost all sala­ries of tho­se com­bi­ned who are sup­po­sed to laugh about it.

But then, from Chap­lin on the­re has always been a con­flict bet­ween laugh­ter and wealth. While Chap­lin as one of the richest men pro­mo­ted an idea of pover­ty, tho­se peo­p­le in their unaf­forda­ble cars and Hol­ly­wood man­si­ons, give the impres­si­on of being like you and me. They talk as if they had the same pro­blems and I don’t mean tho­se that money can’t sol­ve. It’s intri­guing. Could this be you and me? Film peo­p­le at home wri­ting emails? As to Jer­ry Lewis, he was rich and fun­ny. As you said, he was not always fun­ny. May­be it’s also a luxu­ry to be fun­ny in a way that seems to tran­s­cend the class you live in? Today it beco­mes clea­rer than ever that “home” means not the same for ever­y­bo­dy. If I look at the homes of foot­ball play­ers sen­ding vide­os from their so-cal­led qua­ran­ti­ne (not even fun­ny), I get the fee­ling that they are not even living on the same pla­net. But what about the ques­ti­on of self-pity?

I can only say that for me the pro­blem of that spe­ci­fic ques­ti­on is that it is alre­a­dy con­cei­ved as an ans­wer. Some­ti­mes though self-pity is a reason to laugh. Isn’t Jer­ry Lewis’ The Nut­ty Pro­fes­sor a gre­at film about self-pity? Isn’t a lot of gre­at come­dy about sta­tes of self-refe­ren­tia­li­ty that we as an audi­ence can see from the out­side and the­r­e­fo­re eit­her laugh or cry about it?

For a lec­tu­re in self-com­pas­si­on I also recom­mend rea­ding the dia­ries of Tho­mas Mann. As a wri­ter he never fails to show how clo­se iso­la­ti­on, sick­ness and self-refe­ren­tia­li­ty are. Bor­ges once wro­te that gre­at wri­ting is often about get­ting clo­ser and clo­ser to a cha­rac­ter. Every step in a sto­ry is only the­re for us to get clo­ser. I won­der whe­ther get­ting clo­ser auto­ma­ti­cal­ly means get­ting clo­ser to self-refe­ren­tia­li­ty. May­be, if I wri­te or talk or make a film about mys­elf, I am bound to pity mys­elf. Other­wi­se you wouldn’t see my vul­nerabi­li­ties, my inso­lence, my weak­ne­s­ses. The poor wretch that I am! Tho­se poor fel­lows in their cars get­ting cof­fee? Alt­hough I love so many books writ­ten in the first per­son and/​or deal­ing with an “I”, I have to say that in cine­ma it’s quite the oppo­si­te. I think in cine­ma the­re is a chan­ce of tru­ly loo­king at the other. It’s just dif­fi­cult. A beau­tiful exam­p­le for a cine­ma of self-pity that is also deci­dedly a cine­ma about the other is Peter Nestler’s Am Siel. “To look at the litt­le trick­le that I am.”, speaks the voice of the sluice. Robert Wolf­gang Schnell speaks with the voice of the sluice, it’s the voice of the other, the voice of what socie­ty igno­res. In a cou­ple of minu­tes Nest­ler pro­po­ses a dif­fe­rent way to look at the world, not through your own eyes but through tho­se of the other. It’s beau­tiful and sad.

Mon­day, April 20, 2020

Lucía: You won­der whe­ther get­ting clo­ser auto­ma­ti­cal­ly means get­ting clo­ser to self-refe­ren­tia­li­ty. I have a pho­to album for this lock­down situa­ti­on made of images that mir­ror how this who­le coro­na thing feels like. This is the latest, from The Fami­ly Jewels:

In the intro­duc­tion of a coll­ec­tion of her essays under the title Sen­ses of the Sub­ject, Judith But­ler wri­tes: …”I do not always encum­ber the first per­son with sca­re quo­tes*, but I am let­ting you know that when I say “I», I mean you, too, and all tho­se who come to use the pro­no­un or to speak in a lan­guage that inflects the first per­son in a dif­fe­rent way.” A quo­te that I read for the first time for a class cal­led The Aes­the­tics of Poli­tics. What the quo­te descri­bes is defi­ni­te­ly a esthe­tics of poli­tics by use of the pro­no­un I. Some peo­p­le say I in a way that is clo­se to we, but not as assum­ing, and some peo­p­le just mean “me”. There’s a sto­ry by Lucía Ber­lin cal­led “Point of View” in which she asks the rea­der to ima­gi­ne a sto­ry by Chek­hov in the first per­son. We would feel embar­ras­sed, she says, becau­se we are all pret­ty inse­cu­re. And then she tells us about this woman she’s wri­ting about, and tri­es to wri­te a pre­sen­ta­ti­on of the cha­rac­ter in the first per­son, which sounds pret­ty bleak. It actual­ly sounds like some­thing we say in Spa­nish to which the­re is no direct trans­la­ti­on, ver­güen­za aje­na. It’s like being embar­ras­sed on behalf of someone else, only that say­ing “on behalf” sounds much more poli­te than the cruel­ty behind the term ver­güen­za aje­na. Ber­lin con­ti­nues to say that in the sto­ry not­hing hap­pens, but she wants to wri­te ever­y­thing with such detail that you won’t help but to feel for the woman, with some pas­sa­ges in which she nar­ra­tes Hen­ri­et­ta, now always in the third per­son. This inven­ted woman has habits, a job, a house, things she doesn’t own and wants, some of which are things that Ber­lin has, does or has seen. At the end of the sto­ry Hen­ri­et­ta hears a car approa­ching the pho­ne booth out­side her house and leans against the win­dows to lis­ten to the music coming from this car. The sto­ry ends with the­se lines: “In the steam of the glass I wri­te a word. What? My Name? A man’s name? Hen­ri­et­ta? Love? Wha­te­ver it is I era­se it quick­ly befo­re anyo­ne can see.”

Bet­ween But­ler and Ber­lin the­re has been a chan­ge of para­digm regar­ding the use of “I” in wri­ting and film­ma­king for sure, which chan­ged fic­tion a lot. Still, some­ti­mes an “I» here or the­re can give you goo­se­bumps. Or, the­re are many ways of being naked, and it is all a ques­ti­on of craft. In the aes­the­tics of poli­tics sen­se of this mat­ter, it’s like Judge Priest-Will Rogers says: The first thing I lear­ned in poli­tics is when to say ain’t.

Spea­king of Will Rogers and going back to the dis­play of wealth (and health, which com­mands this domic­i­lia­ry con­fi­ne­ment), one sce­ne from John Ford’s Doc­tor Bull: the doc­tor goes to see an ill teen­ager ser­vant, Mamie. It is the mor­ning, and he’s been up all night deli­ve­ring a baby. While the doc­tor is in the room, Mamie’s rich employ­ers walk in with food for the peo­p­le at the house. The doc­tor lea­ves Mamie’s room, as she has died, and after a while the rich ask him why wasn’t he the­re the night befo­re, as he might have been able to save her. But he doesn’t think so, as 30% of the peo­p­le die of this ill­ness and you need to have the strength, as pro­ba­b­ly the rich employ­ers would but their employees did not. As they lea­ve, offen­ded by his comm­ents, they ask for his bill to be sent to them to take care of it, after all, she work­ed for them. The doc­tor ans­wers: yes, she work­ed for you, the­re can’t be any doubt of that. I won­der if the food pres­ents are like the lock­downs, they will help, but for some­thing not to be dead­ly you need to be pro­per­ly fed from the day you were born, among other things, and we are all grown up. A poli­ce car just stop­ped in our cor­ner. The poli­ce went out­side, play­ed a children’s song, danced to it, screa­med a few things with their spea­k­ers (I didn’t under­stand, it was in Eus­ke­ra) and dro­ve away. Rage and ver­güen­za ajena.

*What a fun­ny name for them, sca­re quo­tes. Ah, English.

Tues­day, April 21, 2020

Patrick:

Accor­ding to one of your poems, your most per­fect love was your love for the mir­ror. Who do you see in it?

The other that I am. (The truth is that I’ve got a cer­tain fear of mir­rors.) Occa­sio­nal­ly we come tog­e­ther. Almost always when I write.

This is from an inter­view with Ale­jan­dra Pizarnik.

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no idea what she was say­ing! . . till she began try­ing to … delude hers­elf … it was not hers at all … not her voice at all … and no doubt would have … vital she should … was on the point … after long efforts … when sud­den­ly she felt … gra­du­al­ly she felt … her lips moving … ima­gi­ne! . . her lips moving!

This is from Samu­el Beckett’s “Not I“.

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It was on the moral side, and in my own per­son, that I lear­ned to reco­g­ni­se the tho­rough and pri­mi­ti­ve dua­li­ty of man; I saw that, of the two natures that con­ten­ded in the field of my con­scious­ness, even if I could right­ly be said to be eit­her, it was only becau­se I was radi­cal­ly both; and from an ear­ly date, even befo­re the cour­se of my sci­en­ti­fic dis­co­veries had begun to sug­gest the most naked pos­si­bi­li­ty of such a mira­cle, I had lear­ned to dwell with plea­su­re, as a bel­oved day-dream, on the thought of the sepa­ra­ti­on of the­se elements.

This is from Robert Lou­is Stevenson’s “Stran­ge Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde“

I think I have to defend the first per­son as a per­son you know bet­ter than me. Sin­ce I am not wri­ting in my mother ton­gue (a lan­guage in which the use of first per­son, for exam­p­le in film cri­ti­cism, is a sort of taboo), my first per­son here (and else­whe­re; ever­y­whe­re to be pre­cise) is like a dis­tor­ted mir­ror, a coll­ec­tion of ide­as which I loo­se bet­ween my mir­ror and my bad use of lan­guage. So my first per­son is nobo­dy I know, it’s just an impos­si­bi­li­ty (as if the­re weren’t alre­a­dy enough impos­si­bi­li­ties). Still, I deci­ded that it has to be a me that defends the first per­son today. I am neither a scho­lar nor a his­to­ri­an of lan­guage, we (which is also ano­ther way to say I) can say that I am a user, for user seems to be a com­mon word that can be appli­ed to almost any­thing, a word that means not­hing wit­hout asking the ques­ti­on: what do you use? Thank you for asking, I use the I. Why do you use the I? I think it is becau­se I want to make sure it’s nobo­dy else and also becau­se I want to be able to make mista­kes, be uncer­tain, be weak. I can’t ask you or us or them to be wrong, to be me, to be lost bet­ween a mir­ror and a bad use of lan­guage. But I is not me eit­her. It’s not even my point-of-view. I is some­bo­dy (I pre­fer I to be a some­bo­dy ins­tead of a some­thing) sit­ting in-bet­ween, in the midd­le, buil­ding a bridge. Let’s call I a trans­la­tor. A trans­la­tor for what I couldn’t say or wri­te mys­elf. Like every trans­la­tor I has to work very hard to get it right. I might make mista­kes, I might con­sult a dic­tion­a­ry and then move on free­ly, find words that are an appro­xi­ma­ti­on (for appro­xi­ma­ti­ons are, if I am not mista­ken, what Ale­jan­dra Pizar­nik defi­ned her poet­ry as.) I is never real­ly the­re I just wants to be, I tri­es to exist, I is an appro­xi­ma­ti­on to life, to be ali­ve, to be mys­elf. In the best case I am pos­si­ble for a sen­tence or two and then it is you or them or nobo­dy who gets goosebumps.

If I am not mys­elf, I am happy.

The ope­ning sequence of Ruben Mamoulian’s Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde is a per­fect trans­la­ti­on of this impos­si­bi­li­ty into the medi­um of film. The came­ra takes the point-of-view of Dr. Jekyll (who as we/​I know is not the most sta­ble human being when it comes to be a first per­son only) as he walks through his house, meets his but­ler and heads to uni­ver­si­ty. In a decisi­ve moment he looks into a mir­ror (not yet dis­tor­ted) in which we see the face of Fre­de­ric March, stran­ge­ly dis­pla­ced, as if it wasn’t real­ly him, a distant face, a face that belongs to the I of the came­ra as well as the eye to the camera/​the other. It’s in the­se first moments of the film that the who­le sto­ry, the fasci­na­ting hor­ror and beau­ty of being a first per­son is reve­a­led in all its complexity.

Satur­day, April 25, 2020

Lucia: If I am not mys­elf I am hap­py. So am I, my fri­end. What a drag it is to be trap­ped insi­de ones­elf at times! Ple­nty of that in this lock­down. All day, from the moment the sun rises ‑when­ever that means for each one of us- we are doo­med. On the bad days, I dread day­break. On one of tho­se days, a song by Rafa­el Ber­rio comes floa­ting from my partner’s com­pu­ter. The name of the song is Ama­n­ece, which is not sun­ri­se but some­thing like the sun rises, and it starts: The sun rises, ¿what for? My mind ans­wers: for not­hing, abso­lut­e­ly nothing.

But when­ever I hear the word Ama­n­ece my mind automá­ti­cal­ly com­ple­tes: y ya está con los ojos abier­tos. In Eng­lish, some­thing like: the sun rises /​and his eyes are alre­a­dy open. The begin­ning of each sec­tion of Juan José Saer’s The Regal Lemon Tree. Tho­se words, the image of them as they are arran­ged on the page, so many times, and the pau­se bet­ween them, is the image of rest­less­ness and grief:

Ama­n­ece

Y ya está con los ojos abiertos

The wai­ting, not­hing to wait for. Wai­ting for the dawn. ¿What for? But the song moves for­ward, after asking the ques­ti­on many times: a beau­tiful first ques­ti­on of the day. It had never occur­red to me to call that ques­ti­on beau­tiful. And the song con­ti­nues here and the­re: I don’t know why the sun rises /​the sun rises. I guess what is beau­tiful in the ques­ti­on is that you don’t know, it just hap­pens. And if you don’t ask, it also happens.

In remin­ded me of a sce­ne in Ted Fendt’s Clas­si­cal Peri­od, whe­re a fri­end with insom­nia goes for a walk befo­re she is able to go to sleep and runs into a fri­end who woke up ear­ly, as the day breaks. The sun is not out yet, so the light is very dim and the street lights are still on. The day is no more than a pos­si­bi­li­ty at that hour. Also, the ope­ning of Jean-Clau­de Biette’s Le Cham­pi­gnon de Car­pa­thes, dawn on the first day after Cher­no­byl, of which Jean-Clau­de Gui­guet wro­te: when the sky and the earth get con­fu­sed with one ano­ther, whe­re the first color cloud stret­ches. Yet ano­ther possibility.

This week’s pro­gram at Kino Slang is built from a film cal­led Le mon­de com­me in ne vais pas by Jean-Luc Godard and Cela s’appelle l’aurore, by Luis Buñuel. It’s Cal­led The Dawn:

«The film is a remar­kab­le adapt­a­ti­on by Buñuel of a fine novel by Emma­u­el Roblès, who took the title from the last line of Jean Giraudoux’s play Electre:

NARSÈS: What is it cal­led when the sun rises, like today, and ever­y­thing has been ran­sa­cked, ever­y­thing is devas­ta­ted, but you can still brea­the the air, and ever­y­thing is lost, the city is bur­ning, and inno­cent peo­p­le are kil­ling each other, but the guil­ty are in their death throes in some cor­ner of the daybreak?

ELECTRE: Ask the beggar, he knows.

BEGGAR: It has a very beau­tiful name, Nar­sès. It’s cal­led the dawn. »

Like today or every day during this thing, we see a new day start. The des­truc­tion and the ter­ror are the­re. The mar­kets are cras­hing, the day is still a pos­si­bi­li­ty. Like in the last shot of the film, whe­re is still dark but you can sen­se the light could be about to enter. Solidarity.

Rafa­el Ber­rio pas­sed away a few weeks ago, he lived in the town whe­re we live but I didn’t know him. I have the win­dows open and play the album whe­re that song came from, cal­led Dia­ri­os. Per­haps one of the neigh­bors knew him, even was a fri­end of his. Tomor­row the sun will rise once again, I hope.

Tues­day, April 28, 2020

Image from Sun­ri­se: A Song of Two Humans by F.W. Murnau.

It came to my mind as you were wri­ting about sun­ri­ses. I always see the night when thin­king about that film. I see dark­ness, shadows moon­light. So my idea is that the sun­ri­se comes after the film, it’s some­thing to wait for, to fight for, to belie­ve in. I made a litt­le list of how films could be titled fol­lo­wing this stra­tegy of giving a name for what comes after the film:

Life (Vam­pyr; Carl Theo­dor Dreyer)

Peace (Van Gogh; Mau­rice Pialat)

More Sand (Greed; Erich von Stroheim)

Silence (Mou­ch­et­te; Robert Bresson)

Silence is what we may­be should be able to hear after every gre­at work of art.

Our fri­end Andy, who pre­sen­ted this gre­at pro­gram with Godard and Buñuel, recent­ly remark­ed via social media that Franz Kaf­ka didn’t wri­te a sin­gle ent­ry in his dia­ry during the year 1918 when the Spa­nish Flu haun­ted Euro­pe and Kaf­ka who picked it up in Octo­ber. Ano­ther form of silence? Nevert­hel­ess Kaf­ka wro­te let­ters, for exam­p­le to his sis­ter Ott­la. While being too exhaus­ted to lea­ve his room in his parent’s home he wit­nessed the crea­ti­on of the inde­pen­dent repu­blic of Cze­chos­lo­va­kia (du to the col­lap­se of the Habs­burg Empire). Rei­ner Stach, a bio­grapher of Kaf­ka notes how stran­ge it must have felt to get sick as a citi­zen of the Habs­burg empire and to wake up as a citi­zen of demo­cra­tic Cze­chos­lo­va­kia. Sud­den­ly he was cal­led Fran­tišek Kaf­ka. He also com­po­sed his The Zür­au Apho­risms in the begin­ning of 1918 while he was living with his sis­ter in Zür­au (he spent the­re 8 months after being dia­gno­sed with tuber­cu­lo­sis). It’s a book I like a lot:

The­re is a desti­na­ti­on but no way the­re; what we refer to as way is hesi­ta­ti­on.

The crows like to insist a sin­gle crow is enough to des­troy hea­ven. This is incon­test­a­b­ly true, but it says not­hing about hea­ven, becau­se hea­ven is just ano­ther way of say­ing: the impos­si­bi­li­ty of crows.

A man was astoun­ded by the ease of the path of eter­ni­ty; it was becau­se he took it down- hill, at a run.

You can with­draw from the suf­fe­rings of the world-that pos­si­bi­li­ty is open to you and accords with your natu­re-but per­haps that with­dra­wal is the only suf­fe­ring you might be able to avoid.

What comes after? It’s a ques­ti­on stron­gly rela­ting to the cur­rent situa­ti­on, of cour­se, but it is also a ques­ti­on rela­ting to fic­tion and cine­ma. What comes after this shot? What comes after this page? It’s a ques­ti­on we have to be curious about. A film I saw recent­ly was made by ano­ther Fran­tišek, Fran­tišek Vlá­čil. I saw one of his first works, the stun­ning Holu­bice. It tells a sort-of fairy tale about a white car­ri­er pige­on going astray on its way from Bel­gi­um to an island in the Bal­tic Sea. This white dove is a meta­phor as well as a car­ri­er of mes­sa­ges as well as a living being some­thing ever­y­bo­dy waits for. It comes next. What does it stand for, what does it bring, how does it feel? It comes ashore in Pra­gue at a housing com­plex in which an artist and a young boy who, after an acci­dent pre­fers to sit in a wheel­chair alt­hough is he able to walk, live. They boy shoots the pige­on with an air­gun. It is bad­ly hurt but not dead. The film shows the dif­fi­cult part towards reco­very and the end­less­ness of wai­ting for a return. Neither the ani­mal nor its mul­ti­ple mea­nings belong to anyo­ne becau­se belon­ging is just ano­ther way of say­ing: the impos­si­bi­li­ty of doves. Or, to give this film ano­ther title: free­dom.

Tues­day, May 5, 2020

Lucía: Belon­ging and free­dom, ¿remem­ber that? I am now almost ful­ly con­vin­ced that none of the new vir­tu­al acti­vi­ties that are here to replace life are suc­cee­ding. I refu­se to enga­ge with all of them. The­re is no free­dom online. I am not sure if free­dom is the oppo­si­te of belon­ging, as part of this new loss of free­dom comes from the impos­si­bi­li­ty of belon­ging. But that’s belon­ging in a dif­fe­rent sen­se: belon­ging as a sen­se of com­mu­ni­ty, not owner­ship. A few days ago I stumb­led across a book by Vivi­an Gor­nick which I didn’t know, The Romance of Ame­ri­can Com­mu­nism. The books starts like this: Befo­re I knew that I was Jewish or a girl I knew I was a mem­ber of the working class. It was May the 1st, and this is a quo­te that belongs to the Inter­na­tio­nal Workers’ Day.

I won­der often about belon­ging when I face the fact of natio­nal cine­mas. I used to belong to a coun­try, Argen­ti­na, and I still belong to it as I am a citi­zen. So my cine­ma is Argen­ti­ni­an cine­ma, even if most cine­phi­les belie­ve that we belong to huma­ni­ty through a sup­ple­men­ta­ry coun­try cal­led cine­ma. But legal­ly and idio­syn­cra­ti­cal­ly I belong to Argen­ti­na and its films, and even with phy­si­cal distance this is ine­s­ca­pa­ble. Late­ly I rewat­ched the Epi­so­de 3 of Maria­no Lli­nas’ La Flor, which is among other things the mate­ria­liza­ti­on of Bor­ges’ idea that we should not fear and we should think our patrim­o­ny is the uni­ver­se. In the second part of La Flor the prot­ago­nists are a group of spies who are in Argen­ti­na as a for­eign coun­try. It is set in the 80s (more late than ear­ly) and they all speak in french with one ano­ther (dub­bed, they are all Argen­ti­ni­an actres­ses, the group of four actres­ses that chan­ges roles almost com­ple­te­ly throug­hout the film). They end up the­re, a remo­te South Ame­ri­can coun­try, for a final mis­si­on. They car­ry with them a hos­ta­ge, a Swe­dish sci­en­tist who has no idea whe­re he is, and he tri­es to guess based on land­scape, eth­ni­ci­ty and infra­struc­tu­re. He gues­ses wrong many times until the night comes and the sky reve­als the loca­ti­on: he is in the south, the far south. The stars were the same, but back­wards. Back­wards, as his stars are the ones he can see from home. Until he finds a con­stel­la­ti­on that only we have, the sou­thern cross. He sees it the­re for the first time. The stars look sus­pi­cious­ly bright, just as they look in Hugo Santiago’s El cie­lo del cen­tau­ro. My part­ner had the idea that what hap­pens to the sci­en­tist in front of the stars is the exact oppo­si­te of what hap­pens to James Dean’s cha­rac­ter in Rebel wit­hout a cau­se. I won­der if this has some­thing to do with living loo­king at the out­side or at the insi­de. The chap­ter opens with a quo­te from Ner­val: The Uni­ver­se is in the night. And it is, as most of the epi­so­de hap­pens in one night of memo­ries. The­re is infi­ni­te time for memo­ries in the night, memo­ries or sto­ries. That time is invi­si­ble from the out­side, and the film mate­ria­li­zes it by cal­ling it the uni­ver­se. The ope­ra­ti­on from which this beco­mes the uni­ver­se is by nar­ra­ting: the thought and memo­ries beco­me a voice over spo­ken by the Lli­nas’, Maria­no and Veronica.

After wat­ching this epi­so­de it was the time to go out­side, as in Spain we can lea­ve the house four hours in the ear­ly day and three bet­ween sun­set and night. I went to the beach next to my house with every other living soul here bet­ween the ages of 14 and 69, and I wal­ked by the sea as it was get­ting dark. As the night­fall came, I found the colors unfa­mi­li­ar. I won­de­red if this was an effect of con­fi­ne­ment, as I haven’t been in the pre­sence of dusk by the sea for two months. Was it an abnor­mal sun­set? Was this the way it always was when the sky was clear? The shades of color went from oran­ge to blue, and it chan­ged by the minu­te. Some of them exis­ted in the sky and others were reflec­ted, the reflec­tions had infi­ni­te­ly more colors than the sky, as that depen­ded on move­ment. The waves moved, and so did the reflec­tion in the wet sand as I was moving through it. I tur­ned my head and I saw that all the win­dows were doing the same, all facing dif­fe­rent direc­tions and crea­ting dif­fe­rent lights and colors, a sun­set facing the sun­set. Even the ever-pre­sent mist was reflec­ting the light, making ever­y­thing a litt­le more green. I could also ima­gi­ne the river, behind the rocks near­by, reflec­ting, and its rocks, shi­ny and cover­ed with moss, revi­ta­li­zed moss from the lack of life around it. The dogs now car­ry lights in their col­lars (I don’t know if they did befo­re), which are also reflec­ted by ever­y­thing. All of this was new. But I had seen the sun set­ting in the oce­an the day before.

I don’t remem­ber if La Flor has this quo­te by Rim­baud, I have the fee­ling it does: La vraie vie est ail­leurs. True life is else­whe­re. I think this quo­te is fake, and the real one is La vrai vie est absen­te. Truel life is absent. I left the beach as the poli­ce came down to make them­sel­ves visi­ble, the dai­ly remin­der that free­dom is not there.

Fri­day, May 8, 2020

Patrick: I thought about what it might mean to lea­ve a house. First of all, as we can for exam­p­le see in many Japa­ne­se films, not ever­y­bo­dy is allo­wed or expec­ted to lea­ve a house. The­re are tho­se that wait at home, that work at home. In Japa­ne­se films (and not only in them) it’s most­ly women.

Some­ti­mes it’s also child­ren. I think in Ame­ri­can Eng­lish one says “to be groun­ded“. In Ger­man we use the same word as for a pri­soner who has to stay at home, house arrest.

At other times peo­p­le have to lea­ve their house. Recent­ly, I rewat­ched Robert Aldrich’s Ulzana’s Raid and the film has a cou­ple of sce­nes in which peo­p­le have to deci­de whe­ther they lea­ve their house or not. First, it is a ques­ti­on of pre­cau­ti­on. Should we stay and face the storm or should we escape? It’s the men who stay in this case and it is the men who die. In one sce­ne a man is trap­ped in his own house. The atta­ckers come clo­ser and clo­ser, climb on his roof, burn ever­y­thing. Sud­den­ly they dis­ap­pear. Ever­y­thing is quiet. Are they gone? The man insi­de looks out­side. He knows it could be a trap. If he lea­ves the house they could wait for him out­side. He still goes…

In one of the many beau­tiful sequen­ces in Mau­rice Pialat’s La mai­son des bois we can see how peo­p­le had to move out of their homes during World War I. They pack ever­y­thing on woo­den carts, drag their ani­mals along behind them and try to igno­re the sound of bombs in the distance. After a while they are allo­wed to return, to go home. The series is con­cer­ned a lot with the act of lea­ving a house. It’s also about moving out, moving on. It shows that whoe­ver stays insi­de is left alo­ne. It’s most­ly the par­ents, tho­se who built the house, that do not leave.

How can you lea­ve a house? I always thought Chap­lin has some genui­ne ways of lea­ving hou­ses. He might fall or just jump out of a win­dow, for exam­p­le. May­be you remem­ber the ope­ning minu­tes of The Gold Rush as stron­gly as I do. The­re is a sequence which is hea­vi­ly con­cer­ned with the need of not lea­ving the house. Out­side are dan­gers and the­re is a bliz­zard. What Chap­lin shows here among other things is that it can be very fun­ny if you try to stay insi­de. The­re has been some lite­ra­tu­re, some theat­re and some films (Buñuel again) con­cer­ned with the idea of not being able to lea­ve a house. Yet, when it comes to try­ing to stay insi­de, Chap­lin is at the same time the most sur­re­al and real.

We learn a lot about lea­ving a house when we look at peo­p­le who don’t lea­ve a house, I think. In many films of Chan­tal Aker­man peo­p­le (or hers­elf) are not lea­ving hou­ses. When I see her work I some­ti­mes won­der what is out­side. In her No Home Movie she films a sort of night­ma­re when she wakes up and runs to the bal­c­o­ny to look out­side. She doesn’t lea­ve, she just looks. What would it mean to lea­ve? I also think some peo­p­le never lea­ve a house. It’s like a snail shell which in Ger­man we call a snail house. What does it mean to never lea­ve a house?

The­se ide­as of por­ta­ble homes, hou­ses on wheels, they are hor­ri­ble, aren’t they? They are like tou­rism. They remind me of peo­p­le tra­vel­ling around the world always sear­ching for food they know. Eit­her you want a life on the road or you stay at home.

Lea­ving a house opens the pos­si­bi­li­ty of a return. A return to whe­re we belong? I am incli­ned to deny but then I remem­ber a poem by Paul Celan:

Mit wech­seln­dem Schlüssel

schließt du das Haus auf, darin

der Schnee des Ver­schwie­ge­nen treibt.

Je nach dem Blut, das dir quillt

aus Aug oder Mund oder Ohr,

wech­selt dein Schlüssel.

Wech­selt dein Schlüs­sel, wech­selt das Wort,

das trei­ben darf mit den Flocken.

Je nach dem Wind, der dich fortstößt,

ballt um das Wort sich der Schnee.

-

(With a chan­ging key,

you unlock the house where

the snow of what’s silen­ced drifts.

Just like the blood that bursts from

Your eye or mouth or ear,

so your key changes.

Chan­ging your key chan­ges the word

That may drift with flakes.

Just like the wind that rebuffs you,

Clen­ched round your word is the snow.)

-

Sun­day, May 10, 2020

Lucía: As a woman I was rai­sed to lea­ve the house as much as pos­si­ble both by my mother and my grand­mo­ther. So as we are now allo­wed to lea­ve the house at a cer­tain time, I have left it every day. But as if this was unwi­se to do, it star­ted rai­ning only during the hours we were allo­wed out­side. It stop­ped rai­ning at 10 am, the mor­ning cur­few, and star­ted rai­ning again at 8 pm, the start of the evening exer­cise hours. Are the adults groun­ded by the clouds? The child­ren can go out­side, as it never rains during the hours they are allo­wed to be, the hours in-bet­ween. So natu­ral­ly I hate child­ren right now, out of pure envy, but the images of tho­se two boys you sent (they are the boys from Good Mor­ning, right?) has sof­ten­ed me a litt­le. Who else can you share a good fart joke with? Ozu and his children.

There’s that other Ozu child, strip­ped from a home until taken by a half-good-hear­ted lady who takes him home and then can’t stand him (he is quite annoy­ing) in Record of a Tene­ment Gen­tle­man. There’s a sce­ne in which the poor boy, scared and clue­l­ess, has to take his mat­tress out­side becau­se he wet the bed. As he stands out­side next to the stained pie­ce of cloth, humi­lia­ted, he sees the furious lady and starts fan­ning the thing as hard as he can. One col­la­te­ral dama­ge pro­du­ced by the lock­down that I hadn’t thought about yet, all the small humi­lia­ti­ons child­ren have to go through in order to grow up, which they usual­ly try to hide from their par­ents as much as pos­si­ble. Now, with the who­le fami­ly secluded tog­e­ther, this must be impos­si­ble. I can­not ima­gi­ne how hor­ri­fy­ing it must be to have your first peri­od with your who­le fami­ly in the house, all day, every day, no place for secrets to keep to yourself.

It is ter­ri­fy­ing, not being able to lea­ve the house, but I get it when peo­p­le don’t want to lea­ve. This is quite dif­fe­rent. I have been haun­ted by Ozu’s Late Spring the­se past few weeks. A woman who refu­ses to lea­ve her father in order to be mar­ried. This is 1949, so she has a few points. Why lea­ve the house to go to some­thing unknown, if the unknown could be hor­ri­fic? Why grow up at all, once all the child­hood humi­lia­ti­ons are done with? Why acqui­re the ones from adult­hood? Nori­ko (Setsuko Hara) is quite hap­py when she lea­ves the house, becau­se she will always come back soon. The­re can be beau­tiful bike rides with hand­so­me fri­ends, and end­less slee­po­vers with chat­ty cou­sins, but the house and the father will stay whe­re they are. In the film, once mar­ria­ge comes as an ine­vi­ta­ble pos­si­bi­li­ty, even the out­side beco­mes a nightmare.

While this who­le virus hap­pen­ed I lear­ned that one of the most beau­tiful thea­ters in Los Ánge­les, the Bing Thea­ter at LACMA, was final­ly demo­lished, as part of a pro­ject to rede­sign the who­le muse­um. The last scree­ning held the­re took place on June 27th of last year. The film was Ozu’s An Autumn After­noon. Unli­ke Nori­ko, Michiko’s fear is that she will not be able to lea­ve the house, as the men around her have been slop­py towards the mar­ria­ge busi­ness, per­haps too much on their own bene­fit. It was a sad event, as the thea­ter one of the most beau­tiful I have seen, espe­ci­al­ly when full (which still hap­pen­ed often if they were show­ing a 35mm print) with its 600 seats, magni­fi­cent red curtain, woo­den walls and seig­nio­ri­al rest­rooms, with a room for nose-pow­de­ring and other maje­s­tic acti­vi­ties. Also, one of the few places you could see a movie wit­hout having to pay a for­tu­ne. Peo­p­le stood the­re a long time taking pic­tures of the thea­ter in which they had found a part­ner for their cine­phi­lia. After the scree­ning a fri­end and I went to a fami­li­ar bar near­by, to have a few drinks as if, after the wed­ding, the daugh­ters would also go to a bar to say good­bye to that rela­ti­onship which will never be the same, as they don’t share the same home anymore.

One last Ozu memo­ry for the day: once I went to a Ben­shi show. One of the films they were show­ing was Ozu’s Drag­net Girl. I don’t know if the annoy­ing qua­li­ty of the show was his­to­ri­cal­ly accu­ra­te, but under the con­stant screa­ming I could see that Drag­net Girl was a gangs­ter film very dif­fe­rent from the usu­al pre-code/p­re-noir, the Ame­ri­can ones. At the end of the film, while cha­sed by the poli­ce, the girl (Kin­uyo Tana­ka) shoots her lover in order to make him slower for her and the poli­ce to catch them. A few years in jail would be bet­ter than a life run­ning away, she says. As of tomor­row, the Spa­nish bas­que coun­try is going into stage 1 of the post-lock­down plan. We’ll see if she was right. But in the mean­ti­me, it’s still pou­ring rain.

Tues­day, May 19, 2020

Patrick: It’s true that the images of child­ren I sent you are from Ozu’s Good Mor­ning. I’ve always had a dif­fi­cult rela­ti­on to the art of the fart joke. The sounds pro­vo­ked by who­o­pee cushions or naugh­ty mouths have dis­tur­bed me as a child. The­se fake fart sounds made me ner­vous. May­be this has to do with my obser­va­ti­on that the art of bla­ming, who­se fart was caus­ing smells insi­de class rooms, would never stop…and I was right sin­ce still ever­yo­ne is bla­ming ever­y­bo­dy for farts that he or she did or didn’t com­mit. It’s just such a tri­cky thing, a fart. One can hear or smell it but never see it (except for some dan­ge­rous expe­ri­ments). On the other hand, the art of far­ting is a rich and healt­hy one and we should not have fal­se morals and a red chee­ked catho­lic upbrin­ging (the one with a lot of shame invol­ved) stand in our way.

As the lock­down has ended whe­re I am (whe­re am I?) not­hing chan­ges. A few years in chail are still bet­ter than a life run­ning away. It’s just that a life in jail might not be bet­ter than a few years of run­ning away. So, inspi­red by your beau­tiful screen­shot of Late Spring’s bicy­cles, I took my bike and tried to cycle up a moun­tain (sin­ce the coun­try I hap­pen to be in has no sea). It’s a moun­tain which is not made for bikes. But sin­ce it was my goal to ride my bike on a cloud (just like the ones we were wri­ting about) I had to take it up. My inten­ti­on was clear: cumu­lus ins­tead of coro­na. At first it went pret­ty well. l cycled on steep roads through a forest. The­re was still a lot of wild gar­lic which cau­sed a rather curious sen­sa­ti­on in my nose and move­ments in my body that brought me in clo­se pro­xi­mi­ties with the art of the fart. After­wards I cycled across a beau­tiful green mea­dow on which some cows (rather hun­gry I must say) digested the first grass of spring. I must say that the­se cows didn’t give a fly­ing fuck con­cer­ning social distancing. They were con­stant­ly bas­hing their faces with their ner­vous tails, full of flies, some were cuddling. I love cows. Then came ano­ther steep forest and a pas­sa­ge through some pine trees. It was hor­ri­ble to go the­re with a bike, the thor­ny trees were (sor­ry for that) a pine in the ass. Some­ti­mes I had to car­ry my bike over some rock or abyss but sin­ce I des­cend from the fami­ly of a bike sel­ler, I know how to car­ry bikes (more so than riding them actual­ly). In Ozu’s films the­re are all the­se bicy­cles. Peo­p­le move so casual­ly with them. They are beau­tiful. If you see peo­p­le on bicy­cles out­side of cities nowa­days, many seem to think that they have to wear spe­cial and rather ridi­cu­lous clo­thes. Some look like the bike could sud­den­ly catch fire or the wind might bring dead­ly nails with it. Well, may­be they are not more stu­pid than me who thought he can ride on the clouds. I had a beau­tiful time riding on the moun­tain crest. The­re still was some snow but also a lot of rare flowers and even a bird which sings like an alarm sys­tem cal­led goat­su­cker spit on my head. It’s cal­led like that becau­se Pli­ny the Elder, in a stran­ge pha­se of his life pos­si­bly (who can bla­me him?), thought that this bird actual­ly drinks the milk of goats. I love goats.

Arri­ving at the top I had to accept that the clouds were still too distant. I sat the­re and only took one pic­tu­re docu­men­ting my longing.

I won­der if the clouds will always be the­re. We will pro­ba­b­ly always fart and dream about a bet­ter life. In bet­ween, if we are lucky, we watch a cloud, if we are not, we catch a cold.

Tues­day, June 2, 2020

Lucia: If you say cows, I think of Luc Moul­let.

The lock­down is almost over here too. Soon sta­te lines will open and, in July, the bor­ders. Alt­hough back home the bor­ders will remain clo­sed for a long time. But like the farts, the­re is still a mecha­nics of bla­ming around. We are sup­po­sed to use tho­se masks, but not ever­yo­ne does, and not all the time. Every day I see faces that show eit­her pri­de, guilt or accu­sa­ti­on. Except in the cafés. The­re we are all free (for some time).

I thought the con­flic­ti­ve rela­ti­onship with clouds was coming to an end, but I got both lucky and unlu­cky at the same time. We are allo­wed out­side as the sum­mer approa­ches, mea­ning only fri­end­ly, cal­ming clouds if any. But, I am moving to a base­ment, which means no imme­dia­te access to them. So, as if I were cur­sed, I will always need the movies. It will be like living insi­de Bran­ca de Neve. Sounds, dark­ness, and some inter­vals of light.

I always thought “yes, 500 pounds and a room of one’s own is all you real­ly need”. But today I found out that 500 pounds a year in 1928 are the equi­va­lent of around 32.000 pounds a year now, so you might as well say a mil­li­on. Impos­si­ble. And, which room? In James L. Brooks› How Do You Know? rooms speak very loud­ly. Ree­se Withers­poon is Lisa, a soft­ball play­er who just lost her spot in the natio­nal team and the­r­e­fo­re her inco­me. In the midd­le of a total life cri­sis she meets a pro­fes­sio­nal base­ball play­er, Mat­ty (Owen Wilson),and an exe­cu­ti­ve, Geor­ge (Paul Rudd, what is an exe­cu­ti­ve any­way?). Lisa and Mat­ty have almost the same pro­fes­si­on in which they are both top ath­le­tes, but Lisa lives in a stu­dio apart­ment some­whe­re not in Man­hat­tan and Mat­ty lives in the same buil­ding Geor­ge lives (at least during his exe­cu­ti­ve years), a giant apart­ment buil­ding with a door­man in park ave­nue, or any other almos-abs­tract-but-actual­ly-real loca­ti­on that in the movies is meant to say: mil­lionaire. When Geor­ge is accu­sed of fraud and loses all his assets, he moves to a smal­ler apart­ment, far from his pre­vious home, which is still twice as big as Lisa’s. I think if you wan­ted to make some­thing clea­rer, you wouldn’t find a bet­ter way than that. Espe­ci­al­ly now, with the new nor­mal and its sacri­fices approa­ching, just to pic­tu­re what down­gra­ding means for dif­fe­rent peo­p­le. Whe­re do you even go from nowhe­re? I will never know that.

I have to admit that even in the worst situa­tions, the­re is some­thing good about moving into a new place. Each place car­ri­es a new life with it, which reo­ri­ent your own. In Sara Ahmed’s book on ori­en­ta­ti­on, Que­er Phe­no­me­no­lo­gy, she talks about the joy of re-aran­ging your things, stret­ching yours­elf in every cor­ner, inha­bi­ting a space for the first time, even with the dis­com­fort it brings. The­re is some odd joy to the resis­tance the new space has, its rules are not your rules, its shapes are not your shapes. I guess the joy comes when the both of you come to a truce. The fact that apart­ments have a life of their own makes me think of Renaud Leg­rand and Pierre Leon’s Guil­laume et les sor­tilè­ges, a film made enti­re­ly in an apart­ment in which a young man is haun­ted and amu­sed by appa­ri­ti­ons. The film has a sub-title: une feriée civi­le. A civil fairy tale? If the­re was a civil fairy tale to be done now, it would have to look like Guil­laume, all the life that you can fit bet­ween a few walls. Even some musi­cal numbers:

I lived some­whe­re with no clouds once. In Los Ánge­les the sun shi­nes bright almost every day. And that is the roug­hest place I know.

Sun­day, June 7, 2020

Patrick: This ques­ti­on of insi­de or out­side seems not only to haunt us but also the world. It’s ever­y­whe­re. Just take a ran­dom look at the news in the last week. Peo­p­le are out in the streets fight­ing for jus­ti­ce in the US and in many other count­ries. The­re are still war­nings, urges to keep a distance, to pos­si­bly stay insi­de. Yet, some­thing has to go (out) and the­r­e­fo­re someone has to go (out). Then, in Sibe­ria a fuel tank fil­led with 20,000 ton­nes of die­sel oil lea­k­ed into a river. It’s one of the big­gest envi­ron­men­tal cata­stro­phes in histo­ry (which didn’t stop the main part of Aus­tri­an news being only con­cer­ned with Germany’s tem­po­ra­ry reduc­tion of VAT). In both cases the­re is an illu­si­on held up by peo­p­le in power. They base cer­tain decis­i­ons on the idea that we can and should keep cer­tain things insi­de. We can’t and we never could. May­be the movies are, as you say, some­thing we need in order to be able to stay insi­de. They move us over the thres­hold wit­hout us actual­ly going the­re. We don’t have to go.

A fri­end of mine recent­ly wro­te with Wal­ter Ben­ja­min in his mind: “Cine­ma tea­ches us to learn to love our unfree­dom, it gives us the illu­si­on that we are in con­trol of our ali­en­ati­on by being a vol­un­t­a­ry acti­vi­ty we par­ti­ci­pa­te in during our free time.” He loves cine­ma by the way. To me, the time of being insi­de tea­ches me a lot about being unfree. I look at pro­tests against racism on ultra-capi­ta­list plat­forms with slo­gans and logos crea­ted by the richest com­pa­nies. A sys­tem that crea­tes ine­qua­li­ty fight­ing for equa­li­ty? I look at insti­tu­ti­ons more than ever using cul­tu­ral enligh­ten­ment as a pre­text for making money. I look at a world forced to slow down in which emer­gen­cy solu­ti­ons are prai­sed as inno­va­tions and expe­ri­ence is repla­ced by con­ve­ni­ence. I admit to be bored. I should be angry or a litt­le bit sad or resistant. I am bored becau­se I miss the joy or at least the pos­si­bi­li­ty of coming to a truce, as you wri­te, with the big­ger place we are in. When I look at con­tem­po­ra­ry cine­mas I see a lot of film­ma­kers try­ing to nar­cis­si­ti­cal­ly suc­ceed in the world we are living in. They are not crea­ting a space whe­re we could go, only a litt­le niche for them to feel bet­ter. It can be nice, it can be stu­pid, it doesn’t real­ly mat­ter. I guess the same is true for many care­ers, many life decisions.

So, we are all buil­ding our litt­le niches until we have to live under­ground, wit­hout light becau­se the­re are so many niches that the­re is no space left. It’s in the­se dark places that cine­ma can real­ly mat­ter, I think. Yet, the ques­ti­on remains, what kind of cine­ma will lead us out of the dark­ness? It’s a big ques­ti­ons, a ques­ti­ons for cynics to tear apart, for roman­ti­cs to del­ve into, for me to lea­ve unans­we­red in the hope to read your thoughts on it soon. As for me, I begin to under­stand that stay­ing insi­de would also mean to react to what’s right in front of me, for exam­p­le your let­ters, ins­tead of thin­king about a world I don’t understand.

Fri­day, June 19, 2020

Lucía: The­re is no truce. We have been bur­ned 100 times too many and still, we for­get every time. Or worse, we secret­ly, uncon­scious­ly wait for the pre­ca­rious equi­li­bri­um we call a truce to be back, always deva­lued. Some­ti­mes we wake up and remem­ber cops are bas­tards and land­lords are cri­mi­nals. Then, back again. When I think of the idea of coming back I always remem­ber the ending of Lost in Ame­ri­ca, the bit­te­rest, begging to be taken back. A film so sunk in the mud will take you out of the dark­ness the right way any time. The pessimist’s faith.

Thom Ander­sen can ans­wer your ques­ti­on in his Why I Did Not Beco­me a Film Cri­tic:

«We don’t need more mas­ter­pie­ces. We need work that is useful and work that is mode­st. We need work that ack­now­led­ges what we know but don’t belie­ve. We need true and valid images in which we can reco­gni­ze the world and its beau­ty; images that teach us about our­sel­ves and our world. Not just an image, but an image that is just, to para­phra­se Godard. Such work exists, and it demands of us who wri­te about cine­ma our atten­ti­on and our uny­iel­ding support”.

As you say, ever­y­thing seems so inte­gra­ted, the pro­test­ing in ultra-capi­ta­lists plat­forms, the inde­pen­dent and the depen­dent. I agree with Ander­sen, such work exists. We may have a bro­ken hoe, so the con­tem­po­ra­ry looks like a gar­den full of nar­cis­si­stic weeds. To fix the hoe is our job, as it is what is in front of us and the­r­e­fo­re what we can abso­lut­e­ly react to. But I do think we need all kinds of work, some­ti­mes unu­seful and unmo­de­st too, as we need to iden­ti­fy enemies, and also peo­p­le of other faiths. The har­dest is not to cover your burns with the vit­amin A of what’s not gre­at but good enough.

I saw a film not with sharks but clo­se, alli­ga­tors. Crawl is the name of the game. In it a father and a daugh­ter are trap­ped in a base­ment as a pack of alli­ga­tors are try­ing to devour them during a hur­ri­ca­ne. The film resem­bles the pre­sent uncan­ni­ly: the flood inten­si­fies by the minu­te and as the water rises, the ene­my ‑alli­ga­tors- get more powerful, as they are only half as dead­ly out of the water. The water ori­ents them, makes them fas­ter, able to see and hear, which is the oppo­si­te for humans. The par­ti­cu­la­ri­ty (which is what brings the dura­ti­on) is that the woman is a swim­mer, almost amphi­bio­us, so she is able to be a wort­hy opponent.

The­re is ano­ther trend, one that asks what if you are not able? I saw The King of Sta­ten Island the other day, about unable mil­len­ni­als. This one is unable to deal with life in gene­ral, and with his father death and image in par­ti­cu­lar. One of the reasons for this is that his men­tal health is a dis­as­ter, in the cli­ni­cal sen­se. But in the film what is appar­ent­ly nee­ded is that he has to grow up (he is in fact also a com­ple­te idi­ot), and this means spe­ci­fi­cal­ly being able to adjust to what things are. The rea­liza­ti­on of this is sup­po­sed to bring us reli­ef. I won­der who feels the reli­ef in such a night­ma­re. Both films end with still waters, one so inten­tio­nal­ly (the King) and one as you need to brea­the a litt­le (the alli­ga­tors) after such a storm. I like the alli­ga­tors bet­ter, but I won­der if such a mir­ror, so exact, is ano­ther fal­se threshold.

We share half a defect: not cyni­cal enough to be pro­tec­ted, roman­tic enough to be an easy tar­get. I lis­ten to Doris Day: Qué será, será. And I won­der exact­ly how numb or weak truces are. But I also won­der if, as in The Man Who Knew Too Much we could play dumb, dis­tract and buy a litt­le of the time we need to think. The future’s not ours to see, que será, será.

By the way, I ente­red a cine­ma yes­ter­day, for the first time sin­ce March 7th.

Sun­day, June 19, 2020

Patrick: Such work exists, no ques­ti­on. What I read from your obser­va­tions, your thoughts on the neces­si­ty of wri­ting about cine­ma reminds me of a pos­si­ble histo­ry of this medi­um that is an invol­un­t­a­ry histo­ry. Cine­ma is often dis­cus­sed as a suc­ces­si­on of ide­as, inven­ti­ons even. Ever­y­thing seems to be so deli­be­ra­te, the plots, the sub­plots, the cas­ting. Yet, as Hen­ri Lefeb­v­re has poin­ted out in his dis­cus­sions of Mar­xism, one of our main issues is that peo­p­le get over­whel­med by the con­se­quen­ces of their actions, con­se­quen­ces they didn’t fore­see. The same can be said for films, I think. I remem­ber this stu­pid anec­do­te of Ste­ven Spiel­berg as a child making his model rail­way crash and then dis­co­ve­ring that he needs to film it becau­se other­wi­se he can only see it one time. Here, an idea of cine­ma is at place, that claims to be able to tame the con­se­quen­ces through a came­ra or in other words: the con­se­quen­ces of an action don’t mat­ter if we film it. Quite the oppo­si­te is true, of cour­se, as we can see from recent events. So this trend you wri­te about, the things/​films that are not gre­at but good enough, also comes from a mis­con­cep­ti­on of cine­ma, one that looks down on its sub­jects, an arti­fi­ci­al cine­ma that thinks that it crea­tes images ins­tead of loo­king at the world. Cine­ma is a toy in this per­cep­ti­on, a tech­no­lo­gy, some­thing to play around with time and space and movement.

I feel, we have moved past a moment of balan­ce bet­ween image and rea­li­ty long ago. I wat­ched Spike Lee’s Da 5 Bloods the other day and I feel that it’s a film which only cares about images. He wants to cor­rect the images we know by employ­ing dif­fe­rent images or else put­ting dif­fe­rent ele­ments and peo­p­le into old images. The­re is not­hing real, it’s like a video game clai­ming to have a truer sen­se of histo­ry. In the end it only adds images that are born from images, not from the world. Yes, I know that he shows us some images that are dis­graceful­ly absent from most of main­stream cine­ma but in the end, his film is a media cri­tique, not a fic­tion con­cer­ned with the world. It’s a super­fi­ci­al media cri­tique that wants to beco­me pop cul­tu­re. Yet, when Ander­sen wri­tes: “We need true and valid images in which we can reco­gni­ze the world and its beau­ty; images that teach us about our­sel­ves and our world.”, I still feel it’s pos­si­ble and we both know works that achie­ve it. It might appear a bit sta­le but it’s quite obvious to me that in a world con­sis­ting of so many images, we do not see the world in cine­ma. The peo­p­le actual­ly being in the world, tho­se that are able to touch things, to work with things sel­dom­ly own a came­ra. And if they do, a came­ra only appears as ano­ther some­thing put bet­ween me and the world. It used to be a bridge but now it is just one of hundreds of devices, an emp­ty machi­ne that helps us to sli­ce pie­ces of the world out of it; pie­ces of a world that is alre­a­dy frag­men­ted, vir­tu­al, cut through.

So may­be one pos­si­ble escape is to not be able to. I have been rea­ding a lot of Guy Debord recent­ly as the Aus­tri­an Film Muse­um has published a book with his texts. The­re are seve­ral pas­sa­ges in which he thinks about the pos­si­bi­li­ties of not making an image, not making a film. Cine­ma needs dis­tur­ban­ces more than ever. I think, we now live in a time whe­re cine­ma needs a recon­ci­lia­ti­on with rea­li­ty. May­be we should bury the came­ras, plant some flowers insi­de the pro­jec­tors, put the screens into the rain, give the hard-dri­ves to octo­pu­ses, so they can build a gar­den. We have to touch, see, lis­ten first, then make a film. In this regard, it real­ly might be good to play dumb becau­se we can­not know ever­y­thing. I think today, she or he who tri­es to live with as few images as pos­si­ble is very strong, very intel­li­gent. The­re is the mode­s­ty Thom Ander­sen wri­tes about, the mode­s­ty of accep­ting that the world is more than sho­t/­re­ver­se-shot, more than we will ever know and defi­ni­te­ly more than what we can express in images. In my opi­ni­on, the pro­mi­se of cine­ma lives in the world, not in the movies. We need film­ma­kers that do under­stand that. In Shakespeare’s words: “Life is a tale told by an idi­ot, full of sound and fury, signi­fy­ing nothing.”.

to be continued…