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„Eine ganze Welt öffnet sich diesem Erstaunen, dieser Bewunderung, Erkenntnis, Liebe und wird vom Blick aufgesogen.“ (Jean Epstein)

The Prisoners of Corona Island

by Lucía Salas, Patrick Holzapfel

La vida útil meets Jugend ohne Film

Cine­ma doesn’t die easi­ly. It has been declared dead for ages and by now it must be one of the undead; a ghost haun­ting our dreams, night­ma­res, hopes and lives. In a time in which we are not allo­wed to go to cine­mas around the glo­be we deci­ded to start a litt­le dia­lo­gue about the films we see at home. We always belie­ve that cine­ma is neces­sa­ry and useful but even more so in the­se times of inse­cu­ri­ty and when a lot of our fri­ends face a strugg­le to sur­vi­ve within the world of cine­ma. Sin­ce cine­ma is always ali­ve when we talk and wri­te about it, dream and think about it, this is our con­tri­bu­ti­on to resur­rect what will never be lost.

Mon­day, March 23, 2020

Patrick: It seems quite obvious that films always react to the world around them. Recent­ly wat­ching films took a very abs­tract turn in my per­cep­ti­on but being forced to sit at home all day, I redis­co­ver­ed the life insi­de the frame, the tou­ch­es, the sen­sua­li­ty. Though I don’t neces­s­a­ri­ly think that wat­ching this or that film is an act of soli­da­ri­ty, I feel drawn to images of or from Ita­ly the­se days. I wat­ched Un petit monas­tère en Tos­ca­ne by Otar Ios­se­lia­ni. It’s a beau­tiful film por­tray­ing the life around a monas­tery. The workers, the mon­ks, the natu­re. Like often with Ios­se­lia­ni ever­y­thing holds tog­e­ther becau­se of music. The­re is a co-exis­tence of sacral music and folk songs. The peasant’s life is touch­ed by God and the believer’s life is touch­ed by the world we live in. Though it is a very hop­eful film it also made me sad. It’s also a film about ways of life being lost.

Tues­day, March 24, 2020

Lucía: It is true that films always react to the world around them, even the way the world tur­ned out to be after they appeared in it. So I have been most­ly inte­res­ted in see­ing what I can­not see, which is peo­p­le in places, now that space-tra­vel has beco­me almost as impos­si­ble as time tra­vel becau­se of the coro­na-sharks out­side. Your mon­ks and peasants took me to right across the bor­der from whe­re I am, to the French side of the Bas­que Coun­try, as I wat­ched Un petit monas­tère en Tos­ca­ne and then, right after, Iosseliani’s Eus­ka­di été 1982. France now seems a lot far­ther than 25 km away. In this one the crew goes around some small vil­la­ges of the regi­on recor­ding Bas­que par­ties and prac­ti­ces, as well as the infi­ni­te coun­try­si­de. For exam­p­le, in an ama­zing mon­ta­ge, an image of one woman shea­ring a sheep cuts to ano­ther woman, knit­ting. But I have a pie­ce of life insi­de and out the frame for you: almost at the end of the film many peo­p­le are on a stage for a town par­ty and in the midd­le of a batt­le sce­ne a litt­le trap door opens in the stage and they throw the defea­ted enemies the­re (out of the frame). That image cuts to a shot from below the stage, whe­re two actors recei­ve their fel­lows sur­roun­ded by pil­lows (back to the frame). It impres­ses me very much when, after having wat­ched some­thing for almost an hour, I rea­li­ze the­re is a second came­ra at work, which makes this cine­ma­tic magic trick pos­si­ble: to be both in the stage and in the back­stage while an action that will only take place once hap­pens. Or per­haps (I can only hope) it is fake, and they were all plot­ting against us, and not only the film­ma­kers (as usu­al) but the cha­rac­ters too. As both films were made for the small screen (alt­hough per­haps not as small as a small com­pu­ter), there’s still hope of being as clo­se to the film as you can. I am glad your mon­ks took me to France, as I hadn’t heard anyo­ne spea­king Eus­ke­ra sin­ce the qua­ran­ti­ne star­ted (the film is half in French, half in Eus­ke­ra). What I won­der is why on earth do your mon­ks pray in French in the midd­le of all that Tuscan wine?

“qua­ran­ti­ne in the bas­que country”

Wed­nes­day, March 25, 2020

Patrick: Isn’t it curious how cine­ma can occu­py places and geo­gra­phies? We are wri­ting about Tusca­ny or Bas­que Coun­try as if we could real­ly visit them, walk through their moun­ta­ins and hills, lie in their gras and sur­vi­ve their cruel his­to­ries. I recall Alain Badiou’s noti­on about how cine­ma is able to pos­sess a pie­ce of music, to even chan­ge it. I think, he descri­bes how he can’t lis­ten to Mahler’s 5th wit­hout thin­king of Venice (becau­se of Visconti’s Mor­te a Vene­zia) any­mo­re. Yet, I think this is also true for the place its­elf. Venice is not the same after having seen that film. In the­se attrac­ti­ve men­tal move­ments of an ima­gi­ned lifel­ong qua­ran­ti­ne, I won­der what would hap­pen to all tho­se places we know but can’t reach any­mo­re. Would they beco­me memo­ry? Would they be for­got­ten? Or would they beco­me cine­ma? Con­cer­ning your ques­ti­on about the lan­guage spo­ken in Un petit monas­tère en Tos­ca­ne, I read a bit about it. The monas­tery is the Abba­zia di San­t’An­ti­mo, it has a long histo­ry and has chan­ged sin­ce Ios­se­lia­ni film­ed the­re (may­be that’s why we didn’t get the film he pro­mi­ses at the end of this one) but at some point the French “cha­no­i­nes régu­liers de saint Augus­tin” moved the­re. They belong to the Pre­mons­tra­ten­si­ans and their task is to pray, sing songs and help the neigh­bor­ing peasants. In its­elf this can may­be be seen as a meta­phor for how cine­ma at its best might trans­form a land­scape. It brings an aes­the­tic or spi­ri­tu­al truth into what’s alre­a­dy the­re and tri­es to help tho­se who have to live. This brings me to two films I have seen inspi­red by your Bas­que ven­tures. Both are short films by Bas­que film­ma­ker Vic­tor Eri­ce, both were made as part of antho­lo­gy films. Alum­b­ra­mi­en­to and Vidros Part­idos. For now I only want to sta­te that I won’t accept that the­re is no cine­ma of even­tua­li­ty. As Eri­ce shows we can ima­gi­ne or fear wit­hout mani­pu­la­ting, the­re is an illu­si­on which is also a rea­li­ty. May­be that is a com­fort­ing thought, may­be it is a night­ma­re. Howe­ver, the land­scapes, buil­dings, ani­mals and peo­p­le Eri­ce films are trans­for­med, they beco­me a memo­ry and still, I feel, they have a capa­ci­ty of heal­ing (not only for the view­er but for tho­se invol­ved). So is a film­ma­ker a Premonstratensian?

a dog dre­a­ming (cap­tu­red by Vic­tor Erice)

Satur­day, March 28, 2000

Lucía: Sor­ry for the delay in my respon­se, my fri­end, I didn’t get coro­na­vi­rus but I sure got the coro­na blues. There’s a com­mon joke bet­ween the stu­dents from the film school here in which you are eit­her an obe­dient fol­lower of Otei­za or of Chil­li­da, but never both Bas­que sculp­tors (I know, we need bet­ter jokes around the­se parts). This also hap­pens often bet­ween cine­phi­les, and I always won­der if that’s the case with Vic­tor Eri­ce and Ivan Zulue­ta, as they both lived in San Sebas­tián and Madrid for so many years. I think they are both their own kind of Pre­mons­tra­ten­si­ans, only they might have dif­fe­rent defi­ni­ti­ons for what pray­ing, songs and hel­ping the neigh­bors is. My recup­er­a­ti­on from the coro­na-blues came stran­ge­ly from Zulue­ta, a film­ma­ker that I would have never cal­led a hea­ler befo­re, alt­hough I would have cal­led him an exor­cist. But I came across some of his short films, some of them as an ani­ma­tor and found foo­ta­ge film­ma­ker. In his film Aqua­ri­um he starts by ani­mat­ing the sky. Most pre­cis­e­ly, the clouds that float in it. It appears to be a Super 8mm sin­gle-frame ani­ma­ti­on, a time-lap­se of the clouds which allows you to per­cei­ve their move­ments, shapes and rela­ti­onship to the sun­light by making ever­y­thing go fas­ter. Curious how it usual­ly works the other way around: to real­ly per­cei­ve a move­ment it helps to slow it down and de-com­po­se it, like in Muy­bridge. But here, the pos­si­bi­li­ty of wat­ching ever­y­thing going fas­ter is what makes you see how all tho­se par­tic­les behave, and how time flies. They also look like an army of smo­ke slow­ly taking over Madrid (if only the­re was an anti-coro­na cloud). What a task, to stay still for so many hours, regu­lar­ly cap­tu­ring the clouds as they pass by in order to crea­te the illu­si­on of a new move­ment for them in the film strip. It seems like a per­fect task for the qua­ran­ti­ne. To ans­wer your thought around the rea­li­ty of illu­si­on, if it’s com­fort­ing or a night­ma­re, for now, I will go for com­fort­ing. All the ani­ma­tors of the world must be saner today than all the rest of us.

Spea­king of which, way down east, in Astu­ri­as, the­re is ano­ther monas­tery, Monas­te­rio de San­ta María de Val­de­diós. The­re are places that you want to visit for the first time only after wat­ching a film, and this is one. Ele­na Duque made a film last year cal­led Val­de­diós, about this par­ti­cu­lar place. It’s a three minu­te film that takes the spi­ri­tua­li­ty of the place and ani­ma­tes all over it, brin­ging the world and the stars lite­ral­ly to its door­step. Val­de­diós tou­ch­es on the explo­si­ve fee­ling that land­scape can crea­te within you and makes shapes and forms out of that, which, super­im­po­sed to the images of the place, crea­te a who­le new explo­si­on. I wat­ched this for the first time in a docu­men­ta­ry film fes­ti­val, after which a fri­end told me it could also be thought of as a docu­men­ta­ry about an ani­ma­tor, which made me like it even more. This has its own reality.

Look at this still from the film: Ima­gi­ne being able to take a pho­to­gra­phic image of a hor­se and have the tex­tu­re of the brush at the same time? It’s like having your cake and eating it too.

Sun­day, March 29, 2020

Patrick: Your descrip­ti­ons and thoughts brought forth in me a desi­re to see clouds. Out­side I can see a lot of them. I ima­gi­ne them loo­king at us. They seem fri­end­ly and indif­fe­rent. They won’t bring rain but they still block the light of the sun like Dio­ge­nes did with Alex­an­der the Gre­at. They are wiser than us. Alle­gedly we have more time the­se days. Some peo­p­le I know tre­at this situa­ti­on as if it was a medi­ta­ti­on. I am not one of them. The clouds haven’t chan­ged. Neither has the way I look at them. I think about James Benning’s Ten Ski­es and FAROCKI in which clouds are the prot­ago­nists. I feel too clo­se to real clouds, real ski­es to real­ly under­stand the merit of the­se films that remind us what it can mean to look. We exch­an­ged some thoughts about the neces­si­ty to tra­vel the world with cine­ma and though I am cer­tain that cine­ma is also a school of see­ing, I remain doubtful as to whe­ther this appli­es for see­ing films at home. I think, If I under­stand Ten Ski­es, it is in a cine­ma in which I am more or less ent­rap­ped in the dark and which might allow, after a busy day, to final­ly brea­the, see, get clo­ser to rea­li­ty. Or, as you put it, to see how time flies. At home the­re is no need for it. I see the real clouds moving through the win­dow behind my screen. Espe­ci­al­ly digi­tal clouds (and I am not sure if I can trust Ben­ning here?) have their way of remin­ding me what a lie cine­ma can be. May­be it is the time for lies and illu­si­ons? (I have to remem­ber that my dreams of riding on a cloud always end with rain.)

I also thought of Drif­ting Clouds by Aki Kau­ris­mä­ki and Floa­ting Clouds by Mikio Naru­se. In the for­mer (which I con­sider the most heart­warm­ing film by this lover of peo­p­le) the­re is a sen­se of rea­ching for the clouds when you’ve sunk so deep that you almost can’t see them any­mo­re and in the lat­ter the­re is a sen­se of of rea­ching for the clouds we once have known. Both films are melan­cho­lic to the bone and beau­tiful. Yet, both films also por­tray defea­ted socie­ties and peo­p­le. Which emo­ti­ons can sur­vi­ve a war, a finan­cial col­lap­se, a loss of life? Is the­re a space for the touch, a kiss, a ges­tu­re of love? Of cour­se the­re is, you just have to deci­de whe­ther it’s an illu­si­on or rea­li­ty. Do you feel that in see­ing films at home, time moves differently?

Mon­day, March 30, 2020

Lucía: We alle­gedly have more time, but time flies more than ever. Whe­re did all my days go? Films also, they end quite soo­ner than befo­re now from home, but they seem to be taking much more space. I think this is what they call dis­trac­tion. But to ans­wer your ques­ti­on, it may depend on the con­di­ti­ons for wat­ching you have at home. I don’t have a TV or a pro­jec­tor whe­re I am, so I watch films on my com­pu­ter, and as time and space are indi­vi­si­ble, so is the per­cep­ti­on of time and the per­cep­ti­on of space (I’m gues­sing here). So, in my small screen, smal­ler than mys­elf, the­re is always less immersi­on, in both the space and the time of the film. Some­ti­mes I try hard to tweak my per­cep­ti­on to get lost (phy­si­cal­ly) in the sounds and images a litt­le, and it works. Ever­y­thing is smal­ler of cour­se, but what would be the word for what hap­pens to time? Is it more disper­sed? What I would give for a screen big­ger than mys­elf (and for pro­blems that are the exact opposite).

I was loo­king at some ski­es too, from insi­de two cars. In The United Sta­tes of Ame­ri­ca Bet­te Gor­don and James Ben­ning dri­ve from New York to Los Ange­les with a came­ra atta­ched to the back of their car (in the insi­de) in a way in which we can see them and the road ahead. In Lett­re à mon ami Pol Cebé, Michel Des­rois, José They and Antoine Bon­fan­ti tra­vel from Paris to Lil­le and back as mem­bers of the group Med­ved­ki­ne to pre­sent the film Clas­se de lut­te. Gor­don and Ben­ning appear to be silent, but they talk through the frag­ments they choo­se, both in image and in sound. The radio is always play­ing, songs and news, and we learn that the Viet­nam war was about to end as they crossed the untouch­ed ter­ri­to­ry of the losing side. Radio is almost gone, but TV is still here, still in the news and games busi­ness. Des­rois, They and Bon­fan­ti do talk, bet­ween them, to the fri­end who this let­ter is for, Pol Cèbe, and to ever­yo­ne here at the house. They ask at the begin­ning why is taking film to the lab so expen­si­ve? And their ans­wer is becau­se film is a class instru­ment, as cine­ma is such a powerful tool. And joyful­ly (for them, for Pol Cèbe and for us) they take a good amount of film (color film stock!) and they wri­te and cap­tu­re com­ra­de­rie all over the road. If time is money, then money should buy time, and it often seems that way. I won­der how we can con­ti­nue to try and break that cycle now that we alle­gedly have more time, no space, no money, and we can’t get in the car with com­ra­des and think or have such a con­ver­sa­ti­on. I won­der this also becau­se in The United Sta­tes of Ame­ri­ca there’s a song that plays many times, as it is or was usu­al on the radio. It’s Min­nie Riperton’s Loving You, a song I hadn’t heard in pro­ba­b­ly ten years, and I can’t help but think that this is how the new deca­de star­ted. In the song she says And every day of my life is fil­led with lovin› you and, cor­ny as it sounds and is, I am glad that we love cine­ma, as every day can be fil­led with some­thing and some tools we have.

Spea­king of time and ski­es, I lea­ve you a few from João César Monteiro’s Bran­ca de Neve.

Wed­nes­day, April 1, 2020

Patrick: The beau­tiful clouds you sent make me think of three things at the same time: pubic hair, Robert Wal­ser and John Wayne’s hips.

João César Mon­tei­ro has to be a com­pa­n­ion the­se days. He always is. I remem­ber rea­ding the inter­view he con­duc­ted with hims­elf and how he talks about his film Sophia de Mel­lo Breyner And­re­sen being a pro­of for the impos­si­bi­li­ty of film­ing poet­ry. In a poem of Sophia she talks about how vola­ti­le images are. She says that we are stan­ding naked in front of living things and she asks whe­ther any pre­sence can satis­fy the eter­nal urge within us. Tho­se sen­ten­ces have always rever­be­ra­ted in my heart. Loo­king at Monteiro’s clouds, it came to my mind we are not only loo­king at the clouds, we are also wat­ching in the cloud. All the­se films that are now gro­wing from the digi­tal dark­ness like weeds, all tho­se offers, all the­se films that can be down­loa­ded, strea­med. I have to run through my online gar­den with a hoe and scream: “Stop! Stop! I can’t see any­thing. I only see a big cloud!” I doubt the­se are the vola­ti­le images Sophia wro­te about. This is an infla­ti­on, a sen­se­l­ess fire­work in which sup­p­ly exceeds demand by a cou­ple of life­spans. Who the hell is going to watch all tho­se films? Is this the urge of cine­ma (cul­tu­re) in times of its non-exis­tence? Is it the pur­po­se of cine­ma to be the­re for us or is it, as they make belie­ve ever­y­whe­re, that we are the­re for cine­ma if we con­ti­nue see­ing films (which films?) on this or that plat­form? I am not refer­ring to the films we search for, I am refer­ring to the ones we can­not hide from. Some­ti­mes I won­der, whe­ther we shouldn’t all just dream about the films we can’t see now. For exam­p­le, I think I’d love it if you wro­te to me about a film I have no chan­ce of see­ing at all in the near future. The cine­ma (cul­tu­ral) world is under thre­at (has been as long as I remem­ber) and I can under­stand cer­tain reac­tions and ide­as. It’s a strugg­le for sur­vi­val, in this is cer­tain­ly no time for onto­lo­gi­cal deba­tes. Yet, the sheer speed in which after a cou­ple of days solu­ti­ons have been pre­sen­ted and we could read about how the cri­sis deman­ded cer­tain reac­tions is a far­ce as far as I am con­cer­ned. The ans­wer as to why this or that insti­tu­ti­on, fes­ti­val or cine­ma shows films seems only to be: becau­se if we don’t show films, we don’t exist. Shouldn’t it be the other way around? The reason for show­ing films online is in most cases not one of soli­da­ri­ty but one of a digi­tal mar­ket­place that was very rea­dy to be what it is now befo­re the­re was a pan­de­mic. I under­stand that this may come across rather cyni­cal as the­re are peo­p­le invol­ved and their well being depends on the­se things and I am not one to talk becau­se I also need a fes­ti­val to hap­pen in order to have enough money. It’s absurd and this is what I sta­te. Camus wro­te in his dia­ry that peo­p­le cry about and desi­re exact­ly what they are humi­lia­ted by. He calls it the gre­at mise­ry of humanity.

I think about Monteiro’s famous assess­ment that you are poorer if you don’t go to the cine­ma. I think this would be a start, to admit that we are poorer now ins­tead of indul­ging into all kinds of cine­phi­le eupho­ri­as, uto­pi­as, dys­to­pi­as and self-important mes­sa­ges. Films can be a plas­ter for our wounds the­se days, they can help us, they can make us richer while we are poorer. The rest is cine­ma as a slave and I find it dis­quie­ting­ly fun­ny that tho­se who put ever­y­thing online at the same time decla­re that now is a time to rethink some ide­as we have about life. I hope nobo­dy is belie­ving into online uto­pi­as any­mo­re while dis­cus­sing things on cor­po­ra­te chat rooms under govern­ment sur­veil­lan­ce. A good exam­p­le for the real kind of help and plas­ter art and cul­tu­re can offer is Krsto Papić’s Let Our Voices Be Heard, Too. It’s a litt­le tre­asu­re from For­mer Yugo­sla­via about pira­te radi­os in the coun­try­si­de. It shows the love and resis­tance that goes into sha­ring know­ledge and plea­su­re. Toward the end of the film we see how the equip­ment is con­fis­ca­ted by the aut­ho­ri­ties. The came­ra pans over cables and machi­nes and somehow the radio sud­den­ly seems to be a bomb. The­re is a dif­fe­rence bet­ween weeds and a bomb. I think I know which meta­phor for cine­ma Mon­tei­ro would have pre­fer­red. But I am only gues­sing, of course.

Sun­day, April 5, 2020

Lucia: The image of you, screa­ming in your online gar­den with a hoe, ope­ned this tab in my mind’s browser:

Young Witt­gen­stein, over­whel­med in Derek Jarman’s film. The fact that most things that exist around cine­ma (the film world) are the­re only to per­pe­tua­te them­sel­ves and have litt­le to do with cine­ma is no news to any of us. Per­haps the news is that this is not unavo­ida­ble as we used to belie­ve, as its per­ma­nence in the future may not be auto­ma­tic and may even not be at all. I dis­agree with one thing you say: I do think the­re is no bet­ter time to be onto­lo­gi­cal, at least for us, the non-essen­ti­al. What I gave up on are soli­ta­ry conclusions.

I am also over­whel­med, hoe in hand, in the cloud. But, spea­king of pira­tes, I am a film pira­te (and I suspect you are too). I recent­ly read a fel­low pira­te making a joke about how ever­yo­ne is down­loa­ding or strea­ming now the things we down­loa­ded ille­gal­ly ages ago. The cloud has been the­re for a while, but now it’s a litt­le more out the­re and in the weird shape of a man­da­te. Befo­re it was a secret cloud, a whispe­red cloud, a word-to-mouth cloud. So, in this incre­asing­ly pol­lu­ted vir­tu­al world, I keep to my fel­low pira­tes, now a litt­le more under the sun, and try to see what they are up to. What I mean is that, in order not to fol­low my cur­rent ever pre­sent urge to jump out the win­dow (which would achie­ve not­hing real­ly, I live on the first flo­or), I igno­re any­thing that is not orga­ni­zed around some form of thought or com­mu­ni­ty. I agree we are poorer now (in abso­lut­e­ly any pos­si­ble mea­ning) but the­re is still some move­ment out the­re. Film socie­ties and clubs are emer­ging in dif­fe­rent plat­forms, ways of coll­ec­ti­ve wat­ching and dis­cus­sing. It is abso­lut­e­ly not the same as coexis­ting in a real space, which is fun­da­men­tal, irre­placeable and what I desi­re the most. But from this, I gather that, con­tra­ry to what I belie­ved short­ly befo­re the pan­de­mic in my most apo­ca­lyp­tic cyni­cal moments, the need to be clo­se to films and to the peo­p­le who we want to dis­cuss them with, fri­ends and stran­gers, is still essential.

This is my way of than­king you for your radio pira­tes, Krsto Papić’s Let Our Voices Be Heard, Too which I had never heard of befo­re and made my qua­ran­ti­ne wort­hwhile. The note on which it ends, that the things you love can­not be des­troy­ed, is per­fect for today. This made me go back to two films around radi­os, Gian­fran­co Annichini’s Radio Belén and Sebas­ti­an Lingiardi’s Sip’ohi, el lugar del man­du­ré. Radio Belén is shot in a radio sta­ti­on from the neigh­bor­hood of Belén, Iqui­tos which they call the Venice of the Ama­zo­nas, as it is built over the water. Sip’ohi was shot in El Sau­z­a­li­to, a small city in the Argen­ti­ni­an nor­the­ast, Cha­co, and around a wichí radio sta­ti­on. The­se two films are built around the importance that the sta­ti­ons have for the com­mu­ni­ty, con­cen­t­ra­ting in the amount of detail with which they cover the needs of ever­y­day life (announ­cing and invi­ting to cele­bra­ti­ons, brin­ging news, nar­ra­ting sto­ries, enter­tai­ning) while they reflect on how the­se com­mu­ni­ca­ti­ons have a very short ran­ge, which keeps them insi­de the com­mu­ni­ty only. In Radio Belén, this short rage of the radio waves is con­tras­ted with the images taken from the place, which show the pre­ca­ri­ty of life around Belén and will tra­vel with the film. But in both of them the­re is also a thought or two around how, even if this short-ran­ge might seem like a men­ace to the per­ma­nence of the cul­tures they belong to, this opa­ci­ty could also work as pro­tec­tion. Against what? In Sip’ohi, two cha­rac­ters have a con­ver­sa­ti­on clo­se to the river about the oral natu­re of wichí cul­tu­re and the com­ple­xi­ty of sha­ring that out­side the com­mu­ni­ty, espe­ci­al­ly with the white popu­la­ti­on, by recor­ding, trans­la­ting or tran­scrib­ing. They ask them­sel­ves what is reco­gni­ti­on, for a cul­tu­re to be reco­gni­zed, and who are the sub­jects on both sides of this reco­gni­ti­on. Their pro­blem so far has been that peo­p­le had come, taken the infor­ma­ti­on and never retur­ned, lea­ving them with not­hing. The film was released in 2011, a moment in which, at least in the Spa­nish-spea­king world, hybri­di­ty was start­ing to sett­le as the key world in thin­king about docu­men­ta­ry film prac­ti­ce. The film’s ans­wer to its time, and the character’s pre­di­ca­ment, was that the true poli­ti­cal agen­cy of this hybri­di­ty was not only in loo­king insi­de the con­ven­ti­ons of cine­ma and the self to dif­um­i­na­te or re-wri­te them but also in thin­king with others ins­tead of about others. And that this coll­ec­ti­ve thin­king (with peo­p­le, places and times) would crea­te a form of its own.

I don’t have films that would be only available to me and not you right now, but I have a memo­ry, which is simi­lar. I grew up in a small city which is loca­ted in a spar­se­ly popu­la­ted ter­ri­to­ry in which a lot of peo­p­le live far from a town or any other place whe­re you can find peo­p­le. So every evening the local radio sta­ti­ons would have some­thing cal­led “Men­sa­je al pobla­dor rural” (mes­sa­ge to the rural peo­p­le) which would broad­cast mes­sa­ges. They were usual­ly about tra­vels, crops and shea­ring sea­sons. I can’t count how many times I heard as a child that someone would arri­ve at the sta­ti­on on Tues­day at 9 am and won­de­red if, when Tues­day came, the­re would be someone to pick them up from the station.

I saw a few more films by Papić after your pira­tes. I send you the­se images from Halo Mün­chen, shot in Zago­ra. It says at the begin­ning of the film that the area was always known as the land of the rocks and the poor and that many peo­p­le lea­ve from the­re. In this sce­ne, ever­yo­ne gathers around the mail­man to get their cor­re­spon­dence, let­ters from all over the world. From one fri­end in a lock­down very far from home, to another:

Mon­day, April 6, 2020

Patrick: “Along with mur­der, pira­cy is one of mankind’s oldest prac­ti­ces.“. This is one of the first sen­ten­ces said by Bud Spen­cer in Erman­no Olmi’s wild Can­tan­do die­tro i para­ven­ti. I couldn’t resist put­ting it here, though in no way I think of mur­der when I think of pira­cy. Yet, both can be acts of love.

I am not sure if it is cus­to­ma­ry for pira­tes to send let­ters. Yet, I sym­pa­thise with the pira­te who shares such beau­tiful memo­ries as well as with all tho­se pira­tes who share their boo­ty. Somehow, my life as a pira­te has always been on dry land. Robert Lou­is Stevenson’s Tre­asu­re Island is may­be the most important book of my life, it was given to me on the Cana­ry Islands and I read it seven times in a row. What sticks most with me is not its sen­se of adven­ture, it is the lon­ging for it. I remem­ber loving the begin­ning so much, I lived with Jim Haw­kins at the inn, I obser­ved all tho­se crea­tures of the sea coming and going like ebb and flow. I stay­ed in my room, heard their voices and laugh­ter tur­ning into desi­re and expec­ta­ti­on. Ima­gi­ning being a pira­te, dre­a­ming about buried gold and rea­ding maps has always been clo­ser to me than actual­ly set­ting sail. Some­ti­mes I won­der whe­ther this makes me a fool or coward but then I think it takes a lot of cou­ra­ge to dream. We shouldn’t for­get that in the Ara­bic lan­guage Riḥ­la refers to a jour­ney as well as the writ­ten account of it. It’s may­be a more soli­ta­ry occu­pa­ti­on but dreams can be shared, too. The end­less epi­so­des at ano­ther inn of lite­ra­tu­re, in Don Qui­xo­te, are ano­ther mile­stone in my coming to rea­li­se that some­ti­mes the sto­ry is the life and vice ver­sa. I won­der if tho­se pri­soners on Coro­na Island, tho­se who are for­t­u­na­te enough to be healt­hy and to be able to move on the island, all meet at the local inn. They drink and share their sto­ries and fears, hopes and enthu­si­asms. But then, I know that it is not allo­wed to go into an inn. Let’s take it as meta­phor and think about Mau­rice Tourneur’s Tre­asu­re Island, a lost film, one of tho­se we can only dream about.

So, I was brow­sing through all the pira­tes I know in cine­ma, from Anne of the Indies to Jac­ques Rivet­te, Paul Hen­reid in Frank Borzage’s The Spa­nish Main to Ani­ta Mor­gan in Hen­ry King’s Hell Har­bor. It’s a lost gen­re, buried deep under­ground by Walt Dis­ney. May­be some­day a group of fearless adven­tu­r­ers will find a map, arri­ve at a distant island and dig it out.

Then I came across some­bo­dy who could be cal­led a pira­te (who would defeat a who­le arma­da of pira­tes though) and who sure­ly backs my noti­ons of Riḥ­la: Der Baron von Münch­hau­sen. I wat­ched Karel Zeman’s stun­ning film Baron Prá­šil, a other­world­ly ode to fan­ta­sy, a roman­tic tale about the clo­sen­ess of adven­tures and love, Geor­ges Méliès and the Lumiè­re Brot­hers, the moon and the earth. As we wro­te about clouds I couldn’t help fee­ling that this is ano­ther film about loo­king up. Be it the moon, the clouds, some God, a radio signal, all that seems important and sin­ce you insis­ted on the onto­lo­gi­cal ques­ti­ons, I have to refer to Jean-Luc Godard’s idea of cine­ma as some­thing which you look up to whe­re­as tele­vi­si­on (and lap­tops) are things you look down at. Whe­re do you look at when you are lis­tening to the radio?

Here I send you two images from Karel Zeman’s work with ani­ma­ti­on and dreams:

Thurs­day, April 9, 2020

Lucía: Good ques­ti­on. My grand­mo­ther lis­ten­ed to the radio all day as she work­ed in her sewing, my grand­fa­ther lis­ten­ed to it in the car while dri­ving all around town, and I lis­ten to it while I do any mecha­ni­cal task (less and less in my line of work, if I ever work again), knit or cook. So I guess when you lis­ten to the radio you look at your hands and wha­te­ver is kee­ping them busy. Or out the win­dow. It would be nice to have a coro­na island radio sta­ti­on whe­re we all could hear the same things at the same time. The other day someone inter­view­ed Godard and strea­med it on Insta­gram, and I couldn’t pay atten­ti­on to any­thing but the comm­ents from the peo­p­le that were tuning in (around 4000 peo­p­le). Some of them were fri­ends and we even said hi. The­re were three types of social media posts after it: posts on how hand­so­me Godard loo­ked, posts of peo­p­le show­ing that they them­sel­ves were in the strea­ming when their names show­ed up on the screen, and peo­p­le who found fri­ends and cap­tu­red their flee­ting comments.

A few weeks ago, when you could go places, the­re was a scree­ning of Micha­el Pilz’s last film in Rot­ter­dam. The film is cal­led With Love – Volu­me One 1987–1996 and it is com­po­sed of foo­ta­ge from his per­so­nal archi­ve, being the per­so­nal his fri­ends and loved ones tal­king and going places. He said after the scree­ning that he found that he could not always pay atten­ti­on to what peo­p­le were say­ing when facing foo­ta­ge like that, as he kept most­ly loo­king at the faces and the way they move. I felt reli­e­ved, as this hap­pens to me often with the final result of fee­ling stu­pid, and it hap­pen­ed during the Godard strea­ming, when if I could take my eyes out of the comm­ents and con­stant stream of litt­le hearts (unbles­sed) I could only con­cen­tra­te on his move­ments, espe­ci­al­ly that giant cigar. The inter­view­er didn’t have a cigar, he had one of tho­se masks that are the new gold.

I miss loo­king up to see a film ter­ri­bly. Some days ago Tsai Ming-Liang’s Rizi was available online, one of the last films I loo­ked up to watch, as I saw it in a huge thea­ter with pro­ba­b­ly more than a thousand peo­p­le. I was very clo­se to the screen loo­king up and having a ter­ri­fic time while a lady brea­thed, deep­ly asleep, and peo­p­le coug­hed every once in a while wit­hout fee­ling like mur­de­rers. You could look at a giant pro­jec­tion of the bodies of two men tou­ch­ing, can you ima­gi­ne? As the inter­net shows, you don’t need space to be alo­ne, but you do need space to be tog­e­ther. The lon­gest part of the film is a sex work sce­ne inclu­ding a mas­sa­ge. In such a screen you could feel the pres­sing of the mus­cles as if the­re were your own, feel the time as it was your own, your life fuga­cious­ly trans­for­med by the rela­ti­onship bet­ween the lives of the­se two cha­rac­ters. That’s what days could be like. Going back to an old ques­ti­on, I do think now that time moves dif­fer­ent­ly when you watch a film on a com­pu­ter. It is also not the same to fall asleep in a thea­ter than at home, wat­ching films in bed, whe­re you are sup­po­sed to sleep already.

But the­se I wat­ched in the past and not in cap­ti­vi­ty, so one from the island: spea­king of dreams, I have been rea­ding Jer­ry Lewis’ bio­gra­phy and films. His fri­end­ship with Dean Mar­tin con­so­li­da­ted also in a hotel room, a late night of four fri­ends goo­fing around until day­break. A fri­end­ship based ob craf­ting amu­se­ment tog­e­ther. In their film debut, years later, they plair their (later) usu­al part of a cou­ple made out of two fri­ends who have built their sur­vi­val tog­e­ther, living in the same room, working the same jobs and try­ing to make it tog­e­ther as the hand­so­me man and the mon­key. Their first musi­cal num­ber in My fri­end Irma hap­pens in a fan­cy restau­rant whe­re they are eating with their mana­ger, his girl­fri­end Irma and her fri­end and room­ma­te. Soon they rea­li­ze that the deal is that they have to sing for their food, so Mar­tin sings a song and then Lewis comes along, pre­ten­ding to inter­rupt and asking for ano­ther song. Lewis says ever­y­thing wrong, even the decli­na­ti­on of the phra­ses, to the point to which Mar­tin inqui­res if he’s asking him or tel­ling him some­thing, to which Lewis ans­wers: I am won­de­ring. Neither asking nor tel­ling, not­hing fixed, all in move­ment. Final­ly, Mar­tin asks Lewis to be his human instru­ment as he sings the Don­key Sere­na­de. While Mar­tin goes hand­so­me­ly into the song, Lewis is frea­k­ed out from the effort of making tho­se sounds with his mouth, pret­ty much like when you have to beat egg whites until stiff but you don’t have an elec­tric mixer. It ends on an ama­zin­gly sus­tained note. Mon­keys and don­keys, the per­fect cure for the corona-blues:

Btw, the song they sing is a ver­si­on of this one.

Satur­day, April 11, 2020

Patrick: As far back as I remem­ber, Jer­ry Lewis has always been a cure. The­re is some­thing deep­ly satis­fy­ing and con­so­ling about his screen pre­sence. It’s even bey­ond the puri­ty of laugh­ter its­elf. I think it has to do with his por­tra­yals of “weak­ne­ss” and “strength”. He always mana­ges to show that neither of tho­se attri­bu­tes real­ly exists. Weak­ne­s­ses can turn into strengths and strengths are ridi­cu­lous and may lead into cata­stro­phes. The moment he shows that strength does not real­ly exist, he gives us a poli­ti­cal cure and once he turns to weak­ne­ss he gives us a spi­ri­tu­al cure. The best thing, as you rightful­ly poin­ted out, is that he cures while he is dancing, sin­ging, jum­ping, screa­ming, rol­ling on the flo­or. It’s music and music has a heal­ing effect in itself.

I deci­ded for an over­do­se of this spe­ci­fic cure and spend a night wat­ching That’s My Boy, Visit to a Small Pla­net, The Bell­boy, Three on a Couch and his appearance in Jer­ry Seinfeld’s Come­di­ans in Cars Get­ting Cof­fee. Sin­ce I am still drug­ged, I can only share two observations.

a: In Visit to a Small Pla­net his cha­rac­ter (Kre­ton) gives a com­ple­te­ly new mea­ning to the moon and all this busi­ness of loo­king up (to it). He says that the moon was the last stop for gas befo­re mars.

b: After a cou­ple of hours with tho­se films the­re are only two solu­ti­ons. Eit­her you go com­ple­te­ly cra­zy (if you iden­ti­fy with what is going on, one may call this a super­fi­ci­al vie­w­ing expe­ri­ence) or you go com­ple­te­ly sane (if you look for the details, app­re­cia­te the work, obser­ve the vir­tuo­se ana­to­my of each gag). I have yet to deci­de whe­re I am hea­ding but my fee­ling is that I might just get ins­a­nely sane or at least, dis­or­der­ly orderly.

I won­der, does cine­ma in the­se days also inspi­re you to live? To me, cine­ma means most when it tea­ches me about how to be, how to act as a per­son in the world out­side of cinema.

I wan­ted to share this image of one of the grea­test let­ter wri­ters I know of: D.H. Law­rence. In one of his let­ters he wri­tes: “It isn’t the sce­n­ery one lives by, but the free­dom of moving about alo­ne.” Aldous Hux­ley wro­te a gre­at essay on Law­rence in which he deals with the con­flict bet­ween a soli­ta­ry life as an artist and the need for social and bodi­ly cont­act. It made me think about a lot of things. For exam­p­le, about the plea­su­re and need of wri­ting let­ters and sha­ring our soli­ta­ry expe­ri­en­ces. After all, as Law­rence also wro­te in one of his let­ters, the art of wri­ting was also a cure, a cure for the wri­ter and (may­be) the reader. 

Mon­day, April 13, 2020

Lucía: you remin­ded me of an anec­do­te from Jer­ry Lewis’ auto­bio­gra­phy. Things with Dean Mar­tin are not going well, he can’t get out of unwan­ted con­tracts and he just had his first of many car­diac arrests, so he deci­des to call a psych­ia­trist fri­end. He goes into the office, very fan­cy and man­ly, and tells the guy what’s wrong, to which the guy says that he sees the­re might be a con­flict in Jer­ry start­ing ana­ly­sis. The­re is a dan­ger that the pain may lea­ve and the­r­e­fo­re the­re wouldn’t be any reason for Jer­ry to be fun­ny any­mo­re. Just enough to never ever laugh again while wat­ching Crack­ing-up. Or else, to laugh a litt­le more hys­te­ri­cal­ly. By the way, how was Come­di­ans in Cars Get­ting Cof­fee? I always wan­ted to watch his epi­so­de, but the nor­ma­li­zed dis­play of wealth that all its adver­ti­sing had made me run the other way. It’s sil­ly, we all know the­se peo­p­le are filt­hy rich, but there’s some­thing about the unfun­ny way in which they seem to hand­le that trans­pa­ren­cy that repul­ses me.

I go to cine­ma to learn how to live much more than I would dare to admit. I some­ti­mes fear that one day I will see a film and rea­li­ze I have been wal­king fun­ny my who­le life. My favo­ri­te make-up advice (and the only one I have) I got from Nan­cy Allen in Bri­an de Palma’s Blow Out. When I wat­ched Hiroatsu Suzuki’s film Ter­ra, I thought that if we all knew how natu­ral coal was made we wouldn’t use so much of it. Today I wat­ched Ogawa’s A Japa­ne­se Vil­la­ge, and as I was wat­ching the­se peo­p­le figu­re out why the crops were going so bad, I had the same fee­ling with rice, and as I saw a spee­dy image of how rise blooms ‑it takes it 45 minu­tes to open- I thought I should sprout some legu­mes in order to see some­thing grow next to me, as in Spain all recrea­ti­on out­side is still for­bidden. So I asked a few fri­ends whe­ther they would like to grow sprouts in their homes and then share pic­tures of their growth with each other. One of them said yes and imme­dia­te­ly roas­ted me with a vimeo link. The film is cal­led Lea e il gomi­tolo (Lea and the ball), star­ring the Ita­li­an come­di­an Lea Giunchi. It’s from 1913. Lea’s par­ents are tel­ling her that she shouldn’t read but knit, and they sit her down to work. But as soon as they are gone she loses her yarn and tra­s­hes the who­le house loo­king for it. The ball, of cour­se, was han­ging from the back of her skirt the who­le time. My fri­end sent it as a respon­se to the tyran­ny of the dome­stic we are living right now (us, who were not too tied to it befo­re, as other women were befo­re coro­na) and also as a via­ble pos­si­bi­li­ty. We are try­ing to stay sane by crea­ting tem­po­ra­ry ways of life which can pro­du­ce some sen­se of joy within the con­di­ti­ons of the con­fi­ne­ment, taking time to bake obses­si­ve­ly, knit, reor­ga­ni­ze the home or make things grow on len­tils. But there’s also Lea’s way, just trash ever­y­thing and sit down to read among your ruins.

An ambi­tious cross­over bet­ween Oga­wa and Lea: there’s a sce­ne in Den­nis the Men­ace in which peo­p­le are gathe­red to watch the blos­so­ming of a for­ty-year old orchid that will only do so once, that night. Mean­while, Dani­el rea­li­zes there’s a burglar in the house and runs out­side to tell ever­yo­ne. He starts screa­ming in the exact moment in which the orchid opens up, and when peo­p­le final­ly turn their heads towards the flower, it has alre­a­dy withe­red. Like the ope­ning poem of Joan Didion’s The year of magi­cal thinking:

Life chan­ges fast.

Life chan­ges in the instant.

You sit down to din­ner and life as you know it ends.

The ques­ti­on of self-pity.

Films also help with grief, and we are grie­ving our future lives as much as our past ones. What about the ques­ti­on of self-pity?

Fri­day, April 17, 2020

Patrick: now you left me with the dif­fi­cult task of having to dwell on two topics that pro­vo­ke an oce­an of thoughts: first­ly, you asked about a dis­play of wealth and second­ly, you were con­cer­ned with the ques­ti­on of self-pity. The crux of the mat­ter is that both topics seem to cross, to be rela­ted. I wat­ched a cou­ple of epi­so­des of Come­di­ans in Cars Get­ting Cof­fee. To be honest, despi­te having heard about it here and the­re, I didn’t real­ly know what’s it all about. I also don’t know what Sein­feld is all about and to be honest, none of that did chan­ge after wat­ching tho­se epi­so­des. Nevert­hel­ess, I got the cer­tain fee­ling that it’s not for me to “get it”. It’s about some­thing else and this some­thing else is a pro­vo­ca­ti­on. It’s very clo­se to cer­tain hip-hop artists but ins­tead of pro­mo­ting an esca­pist or sexist approach to poli­ti­cal sexua­li­ty, here the­re is this meta­phor of cars, a cer­tain eli­tism and a very fake way of imi­ta­ting fri­end­ship and even the fee­ling of come­di­ans being one big fami­ly. It’s still fun­ny in the way that it can be fun­ny to hear a good joke by your tax coll­ec­tor. It’s a test for your indi­vi­du­al amount of empa­thy neces­sa­ry to laugh. Acci­den­tal­ly this is also a docu­men­ta­ry about the lack of per­so­na­li­ty and reflec­tion neces­sa­ry “to make it”. It mir­rors Mal­colm McDowell’s capi­ta­li­stic ven­tures in Lind­say Anderson’s alle­go­ri­cal odys­sey O Lucky Man!. Just be lucky and smi­le. You look at all tho­se smooth sur­faces, this sas­sy slick­ness and with excep­ti­on of the very old guests of the show (they don’t care any­mo­re), you can feel the tre­men­dous pres­su­re of someone having to be fun­ny, while being escor­ted in a car that cos­ts more than almost all sala­ries of tho­se com­bi­ned who are sup­po­sed to laugh about it.

But then, from Chap­lin on the­re has always been a con­flict bet­ween laugh­ter and wealth. While Chap­lin as one of the richest men pro­mo­ted an idea of pover­ty, tho­se peo­p­le in their unaf­forda­ble cars and Hol­ly­wood man­si­ons, give the impres­si­on of being like you and me. They talk as if they had the same pro­blems and I don’t mean tho­se that money can’t sol­ve. It’s intri­guing. Could this be you and me? Film peo­p­le at home wri­ting emails? As to Jer­ry Lewis, he was rich and fun­ny. As you said, he was not always fun­ny. May­be it’s also a luxu­ry to be fun­ny in a way that seems to tran­s­cend the class you live in? Today it beco­mes clea­rer than ever that “home” means not the same for ever­y­bo­dy. If I look at the homes of foot­ball play­ers sen­ding vide­os from their so-cal­led qua­ran­ti­ne (not even fun­ny), I get the fee­ling that they are not even living on the same pla­net. But what about the ques­ti­on of self-pity?

I can only say that for me the pro­blem of that spe­ci­fic ques­ti­on is that it is alre­a­dy con­cei­ved as an ans­wer. Some­ti­mes though self-pity is a reason to laugh. Isn’t Jer­ry Lewis’ The Nut­ty Pro­fes­sor a gre­at film about self-pity? Isn’t a lot of gre­at come­dy about sta­tes of self-refe­ren­tia­li­ty that we as an audi­ence can see from the out­side and the­r­e­fo­re eit­her laugh or cry about it?

For a lec­tu­re in self-com­pas­si­on I also recom­mend rea­ding the dia­ries of Tho­mas Mann. As a wri­ter he never fails to show how clo­se iso­la­ti­on, sick­ness and self-refe­ren­tia­li­ty are. Bor­ges once wro­te that gre­at wri­ting is often about get­ting clo­ser and clo­ser to a cha­rac­ter. Every step in a sto­ry is only the­re for us to get clo­ser. I won­der whe­ther get­ting clo­ser auto­ma­ti­cal­ly means get­ting clo­ser to self-refe­ren­tia­li­ty. May­be, if I wri­te or talk or make a film about mys­elf, I am bound to pity mys­elf. Other­wi­se you wouldn’t see my vul­nerabi­li­ties, my inso­lence, my weak­ne­s­ses. The poor wretch that I am! Tho­se poor fel­lows in their cars get­ting cof­fee? Alt­hough I love so many books writ­ten in the first per­son and/​or deal­ing with an “I”, I have to say that in cine­ma it’s quite the oppo­si­te. I think in cine­ma the­re is a chan­ce of tru­ly loo­king at the other. It’s just dif­fi­cult. A beau­tiful exam­p­le for a cine­ma of self-pity that is also deci­dedly a cine­ma about the other is Peter Nestler’s Am Siel. “To look at the litt­le trick­le that I am.”, speaks the voice of the sluice. Robert Wolf­gang Schnell speaks with the voice of the sluice, it’s the voice of the other, the voice of what socie­ty igno­res. In a cou­ple of minu­tes Nest­ler pro­po­ses a dif­fe­rent way to look at the world, not through your own eyes but through tho­se of the other. It’s beau­tiful and sad.

Mon­day, April 20, 2020

Lucía: You won­der whe­ther get­ting clo­ser auto­ma­ti­cal­ly means get­ting clo­ser to self-refe­ren­tia­li­ty. I have a pho­to album for this lock­down situa­ti­on made of images that mir­ror how this who­le coro­na thing feels like. This is the latest, from The Fami­ly Jewels:

In the intro­duc­tion of a coll­ec­tion of her essays under the title Sen­ses of the Sub­ject, Judith But­ler wri­tes: …”I do not always encum­ber the first per­son with sca­re quo­tes*, but I am let­ting you know that when I say “I», I mean you, too, and all tho­se who come to use the pro­no­un or to speak in a lan­guage that inflects the first per­son in a dif­fe­rent way.” A quo­te that I read for the first time for a class cal­led The Aes­the­tics of Poli­tics. What the quo­te descri­bes is defi­ni­te­ly a esthe­tics of poli­tics by use of the pro­no­un I. Some peo­p­le say I in a way that is clo­se to we, but not as assum­ing, and some peo­p­le just mean “me”. There’s a sto­ry by Lucía Ber­lin cal­led “Point of View” in which she asks the rea­der to ima­gi­ne a sto­ry by Chek­hov in the first per­son. We would feel embar­ras­sed, she says, becau­se we are all pret­ty inse­cu­re. And then she tells us about this woman she’s wri­ting about, and tri­es to wri­te a pre­sen­ta­ti­on of the cha­rac­ter in the first per­son, which sounds pret­ty bleak. It actual­ly sounds like some­thing we say in Spa­nish to which the­re is no direct trans­la­ti­on, ver­güen­za aje­na. It’s like being embar­ras­sed on behalf of someone else, only that say­ing “on behalf” sounds much more poli­te than the cruel­ty behind the term ver­güen­za aje­na. Ber­lin con­ti­nues to say that in the sto­ry not­hing hap­pens, but she wants to wri­te ever­y­thing with such detail that you won’t help but to feel for the woman, with some pas­sa­ges in which she nar­ra­tes Hen­ri­et­ta, now always in the third per­son. This inven­ted woman has habits, a job, a house, things she doesn’t own and wants, some of which are things that Ber­lin has, does or has seen. At the end of the sto­ry Hen­ri­et­ta hears a car approa­ching the pho­ne booth out­side her house and leans against the win­dows to lis­ten to the music coming from this car. The sto­ry ends with the­se lines: “In the steam of the glass I wri­te a word. What? My Name? A man’s name? Hen­ri­et­ta? Love? Wha­te­ver it is I era­se it quick­ly befo­re anyo­ne can see.”

Bet­ween But­ler and Ber­lin the­re has been a chan­ge of para­digm regar­ding the use of “I” in wri­ting and film­ma­king for sure, which chan­ged fic­tion a lot. Still, some­ti­mes an “I» here or the­re can give you goo­se­bumps. Or, the­re are many ways of being naked, and it is all a ques­ti­on of craft. In the aes­the­tics of poli­tics sen­se of this mat­ter, it’s like Judge Priest-Will Rogers says: The first thing I lear­ned in poli­tics is when to say ain’t.

Spea­king of Will Rogers and going back to the dis­play of wealth (and health, which com­mands this domic­i­lia­ry con­fi­ne­ment), one sce­ne from John Ford’s Doc­tor Bull: the doc­tor goes to see an ill teen­ager ser­vant, Mamie. It is the mor­ning, and he’s been up all night deli­ve­ring a baby. While the doc­tor is in the room, Mamie’s rich employ­ers walk in with food for the peo­p­le at the house. The doc­tor lea­ves Mamie’s room, as she has died, and after a while the rich ask him why wasn’t he the­re the night befo­re, as he might have been able to save her. But he doesn’t think so, as 30% of the peo­p­le die of this ill­ness and you need to have the strength, as pro­ba­b­ly the rich employ­ers would but their employees did not. As they lea­ve, offen­ded by his comm­ents, they ask for his bill to be sent to them to take care of it, after all, she work­ed for them. The doc­tor ans­wers: yes, she work­ed for you, the­re can’t be any doubt of that. I won­der if the food pres­ents are like the lock­downs, they will help, but for some­thing not to be dead­ly you need to be pro­per­ly fed from the day you were born, among other things, and we are all grown up. A poli­ce car just stop­ped in our cor­ner. The poli­ce went out­side, play­ed a children’s song, danced to it, screa­med a few things with their spea­k­ers (I didn’t under­stand, it was in Eus­ke­ra) and dro­ve away. Rage and ver­güen­za ajena.

*What a fun­ny name for them, sca­re quo­tes. Ah, English.

Tues­day, April 21, 2020

Patrick:

Accor­ding to one of your poems, your most per­fect love was your love for the mir­ror. Who do you see in it?

The other that I am. (The truth is that I’ve got a cer­tain fear of mir­rors.) Occa­sio­nal­ly we come tog­e­ther. Almost always when I write.

This is from an inter­view with Ale­jan­dra Pizarnik.

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no idea what she was say­ing! . . till she began try­ing to … delude hers­elf … it was not hers at all … not her voice at all … and no doubt would have … vital she should … was on the point … after long efforts … when sud­den­ly she felt … gra­du­al­ly she felt … her lips moving … ima­gi­ne! . . her lips moving!

This is from Samu­el Beckett’s “Not I“.

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It was on the moral side, and in my own per­son, that I lear­ned to reco­g­ni­se the tho­rough and pri­mi­ti­ve dua­li­ty of man; I saw that, of the two natures that con­ten­ded in the field of my con­scious­ness, even if I could right­ly be said to be eit­her, it was only becau­se I was radi­cal­ly both; and from an ear­ly date, even befo­re the cour­se of my sci­en­ti­fic dis­co­veries had begun to sug­gest the most naked pos­si­bi­li­ty of such a mira­cle, I had lear­ned to dwell with plea­su­re, as a bel­oved day-dream, on the thought of the sepa­ra­ti­on of the­se elements.

This is from Robert Lou­is Stevenson’s “Stran­ge Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde“

I think I have to defend the first per­son as a per­son you know bet­ter than me. Sin­ce I am not wri­ting in my mother ton­gue (a lan­guage in which the use of first per­son, for exam­p­le in film cri­ti­cism, is a sort of taboo), my first per­son here (and else­whe­re; ever­y­whe­re to be pre­cise) is like a dis­tor­ted mir­ror, a coll­ec­tion of ide­as which I loo­se bet­ween my mir­ror and my bad use of lan­guage. So my first per­son is nobo­dy I know, it’s just an impos­si­bi­li­ty (as if the­re weren’t alre­a­dy enough impos­si­bi­li­ties). Still, I deci­ded that it has to be a me that defends the first per­son today. I am neither a scho­lar nor a his­to­ri­an of lan­guage, we (which is also ano­ther way to say I) can say that I am a user, for user seems to be a com­mon word that can be appli­ed to almost any­thing, a word that means not­hing wit­hout asking the ques­ti­on: what do you use? Thank you for asking, I use the I. Why do you use the I? I think it is becau­se I want to make sure it’s nobo­dy else and also becau­se I want to be able to make mista­kes, be uncer­tain, be weak. I can’t ask you or us or them to be wrong, to be me, to be lost bet­ween a mir­ror and a bad use of lan­guage. But I is not me eit­her. It’s not even my point-of-view. I is some­bo­dy (I pre­fer I to be a some­bo­dy ins­tead of a some­thing) sit­ting in-bet­ween, in the midd­le, buil­ding a bridge. Let’s call I a trans­la­tor. A trans­la­tor for what I couldn’t say or wri­te mys­elf. Like every trans­la­tor I has to work very hard to get it right. I might make mista­kes, I might con­sult a dic­tion­a­ry and then move on free­ly, find words that are an appro­xi­ma­ti­on (for appro­xi­ma­ti­ons are, if I am not mista­ken, what Ale­jan­dra Pizar­nik defi­ned her poet­ry as.) I is never real­ly the­re I just wants to be, I tri­es to exist, I is an appro­xi­ma­ti­on to life, to be ali­ve, to be mys­elf. In the best case I am pos­si­ble for a sen­tence or two and then it is you or them or nobo­dy who gets goosebumps.

If I am not mys­elf, I am happy.

The ope­ning sequence of Ruben Mamoulian’s Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde is a per­fect trans­la­ti­on of this impos­si­bi­li­ty into the medi­um of film. The came­ra takes the point-of-view of Dr. Jekyll (who as we/​I know is not the most sta­ble human being when it comes to be a first per­son only) as he walks through his house, meets his but­ler and heads to uni­ver­si­ty. In a decisi­ve moment he looks into a mir­ror (not yet dis­tor­ted) in which we see the face of Fre­de­ric March, stran­ge­ly dis­pla­ced, as if it wasn’t real­ly him, a distant face, a face that belongs to the I of the came­ra as well as the eye to the camera/​the other. It’s in the­se first moments of the film that the who­le sto­ry, the fasci­na­ting hor­ror and beau­ty of being a first per­son is reve­a­led in all its complexity.

Satur­day, April 25, 2020

Lucia: If I am not mys­elf I am hap­py. So am I, my fri­end. What a drag it is to be trap­ped insi­de ones­elf at times! Ple­nty of that in this lock­down. All day, from the moment the sun rises ‑when­ever that means for each one of us- we are doo­med. On the bad days, I dread day­break. On one of tho­se days, a song by Rafa­el Ber­rio comes floa­ting from my partner’s com­pu­ter. The name of the song is Ama­n­ece, which is not sun­ri­se but some­thing like the sun rises, and it starts: The sun rises, ¿what for? My mind ans­wers: for not­hing, abso­lut­e­ly nothing.

But when­ever I hear the word Ama­n­ece my mind automá­ti­cal­ly com­ple­tes: y ya está con los ojos abier­tos. In Eng­lish, some­thing like: the sun rises /​and his eyes are alre­a­dy open. The begin­ning of each sec­tion of Juan José Saer’s The Regal Lemon Tree. Tho­se words, the image of them as they are arran­ged on the page, so many times, and the pau­se bet­ween them, is the image of rest­less­ness and grief:

Ama­n­ece

Y ya está con los ojos abiertos

The wai­ting, not­hing to wait for. Wai­ting for the dawn. ¿What for? But the song moves for­ward, after asking the ques­ti­on many times: a beau­tiful first ques­ti­on of the day. It had never occur­red to me to call that ques­ti­on beau­tiful. And the song con­ti­nues here and the­re: I don’t know why the sun rises /​the sun rises. I guess what is beau­tiful in the ques­ti­on is that you don’t know, it just hap­pens. And if you don’t ask, it also happens.

In remin­ded me of a sce­ne in Ted Fendt’s Clas­si­cal Peri­od, whe­re a fri­end with insom­nia goes for a walk befo­re she is able to go to sleep and runs into a fri­end who woke up ear­ly, as the day breaks. The sun is not out yet, so the light is very dim and the street lights are still on. The day is no more than a pos­si­bi­li­ty at that hour. Also, the ope­ning of Jean-Clau­de Biette’s Le Cham­pi­gnon de Car­pa­thes, dawn on the first day after Cher­no­byl, of which Jean-Clau­de Gui­guet wro­te: when the sky and the earth get con­fu­sed with one ano­ther, whe­re the first color cloud stret­ches. Yet ano­ther possibility.

This week’s pro­gram at Kino Slang is built from a film cal­led Le mon­de com­me in ne vais pas by Jean-Luc Godard and Cela s’appelle l’aurore, by Luis Buñuel. It’s Cal­led The Dawn:

«The film is a remar­kab­le adapt­a­ti­on by Buñuel of a fine novel by Emma­u­el Roblès, who took the title from the last line of Jean Giraudoux’s play Electre:

NARSÈS: What is it cal­led when the sun rises, like today, and ever­y­thing has been ran­sa­cked, ever­y­thing is devas­ta­ted, but you can still brea­the the air, and ever­y­thing is lost, the city is bur­ning, and inno­cent peo­p­le are kil­ling each other, but the guil­ty are in their death throes in some cor­ner of the daybreak?

ELECTRE: Ask the beggar, he knows.

BEGGAR: It has a very beau­tiful name, Nar­sès. It’s cal­led the dawn. »

Like today or every day during this thing, we see a new day start. The des­truc­tion and the ter­ror are the­re. The mar­kets are cras­hing, the day is still a pos­si­bi­li­ty. Like in the last shot of the film, whe­re is still dark but you can sen­se the light could be about to enter. Solidarity.

Rafa­el Ber­rio pas­sed away a few weeks ago, he lived in the town whe­re we live but I didn’t know him. I have the win­dows open and play the album whe­re that song came from, cal­led Dia­ri­os. Per­haps one of the neigh­bors knew him, even was a fri­end of his. Tomor­row the sun will rise once again, I hope.

Tues­day, April 28, 2020

Image from Sun­ri­se: A Song of Two Humans by F.W. Murnau.

It came to my mind as you were wri­ting about sun­ri­ses. I always see the night when thin­king about that film. I see dark­ness, shadows moon­light. So my idea is that the sun­ri­se comes after the film, it’s some­thing to wait for, to fight for, to belie­ve in. I made a litt­le list of how films could be titled fol­lo­wing this stra­tegy of giving a name for what comes after the film:

Life (Vam­pyr; Carl Theo­dor Dreyer)

Peace (Van Gogh; Mau­rice Pialat)

More Sand (Greed; Erich von Stroheim)

Silence (Mou­ch­et­te; Robert Bresson)

Silence is what we may­be should be able to hear after every gre­at work of art.

Our fri­end Andy, who pre­sen­ted this gre­at pro­gram with Godard and Buñuel, recent­ly remark­ed via social media that Franz Kaf­ka didn’t wri­te a sin­gle ent­ry in his dia­ry during the year 1918 when the Spa­nish Flu haun­ted Euro­pe and Kaf­ka who picked it up in Octo­ber. Ano­ther form of silence? Nevert­hel­ess Kaf­ka wro­te let­ters, for exam­p­le to his sis­ter Ott­la. While being too exhaus­ted to lea­ve his room in his parent’s home he wit­nessed the crea­ti­on of the inde­pen­dent repu­blic of Cze­chos­lo­va­kia (du to the col­lap­se of the Habs­burg Empire). Rei­ner Stach, a bio­grapher of Kaf­ka notes how stran­ge it must have felt to get sick as a citi­zen of the Habs­burg empire and to wake up as a citi­zen of demo­cra­tic Cze­chos­lo­va­kia. Sud­den­ly he was cal­led Fran­tišek Kaf­ka. He also com­po­sed his The Zür­au Apho­risms in the begin­ning of 1918 while he was living with his sis­ter in Zür­au (he spent the­re 8 months after being dia­gno­sed with tuber­cu­lo­sis). It’s a book I like a lot:

The­re is a desti­na­ti­on but no way the­re; what we refer to as way is hesi­ta­ti­on.

The crows like to insist a sin­gle crow is enough to des­troy hea­ven. This is incon­test­a­b­ly true, but it says not­hing about hea­ven, becau­se hea­ven is just ano­ther way of say­ing: the impos­si­bi­li­ty of crows.

A man was astoun­ded by the ease of the path of eter­ni­ty; it was becau­se he took it down- hill, at a run.

You can with­draw from the suf­fe­rings of the world-that pos­si­bi­li­ty is open to you and accords with your natu­re-but per­haps that with­dra­wal is the only suf­fe­ring you might be able to avoid.

What comes after? It’s a ques­ti­on stron­gly rela­ting to the cur­rent situa­ti­on, of cour­se, but it is also a ques­ti­on rela­ting to fic­tion and cine­ma. What comes after this shot? What comes after this page? It’s a ques­ti­on we have to be curious about. A film I saw recent­ly was made by ano­ther Fran­tišek, Fran­tišek Vlá­čil. I saw one of his first works, the stun­ning Holu­bice. It tells a sort-of fairy tale about a white car­ri­er pige­on going astray on its way from Bel­gi­um to an island in the Bal­tic Sea. This white dove is a meta­phor as well as a car­ri­er of mes­sa­ges as well as a living being some­thing ever­y­bo­dy waits for. It comes next. What does it stand for, what does it bring, how does it feel? It comes ashore in Pra­gue at a housing com­plex in which an artist and a young boy who, after an acci­dent pre­fers to sit in a wheel­chair alt­hough is he able to walk, live. They boy shoots the pige­on with an air­gun. It is bad­ly hurt but not dead. The film shows the dif­fi­cult part towards reco­very and the end­less­ness of wai­ting for a return. Neither the ani­mal nor its mul­ti­ple mea­nings belong to anyo­ne becau­se belon­ging is just ano­ther way of say­ing: the impos­si­bi­li­ty of doves. Or, to give this film ano­ther title: free­dom.

Tues­day, May 5, 2020

Lucía: Belon­ging and free­dom, ¿remem­ber that? I am now almost ful­ly con­vin­ced that none of the new vir­tu­al acti­vi­ties that are here to replace life are suc­cee­ding. I refu­se to enga­ge with all of them. The­re is no free­dom online. I am not sure if free­dom is the oppo­si­te of belon­ging, as part of this new loss of free­dom comes from the impos­si­bi­li­ty of belon­ging. But that’s belon­ging in a dif­fe­rent sen­se: belon­ging as a sen­se of com­mu­ni­ty, not owner­ship. A few days ago I stumb­led across a book by Vivi­an Gor­nick which I didn’t know, The Romance of Ame­ri­can Com­mu­nism. The books starts like this: Befo­re I knew that I was Jewish or a girl I knew I was a mem­ber of the working class. It was May the 1st, and this is a quo­te that belongs to the Inter­na­tio­nal Workers’ Day.

I won­der often about belon­ging when I face the fact of natio­nal cine­mas. I used to belong to a coun­try, Argen­ti­na, and I still belong to it as I am a citi­zen. So my cine­ma is Argen­ti­ni­an cine­ma, even if most cine­phi­les belie­ve that we belong to huma­ni­ty through a sup­ple­men­ta­ry coun­try cal­led cine­ma. But legal­ly and idio­syn­cra­ti­cal­ly I belong to Argen­ti­na and its films, and even with phy­si­cal distance this is ine­s­ca­pa­ble. Late­ly I rewat­ched the Epi­so­de 3 of Maria­no Lli­nas’ La Flor, which is among other things the mate­ria­liza­ti­on of Bor­ges’ idea that we should not fear and we should think our patrim­o­ny is the uni­ver­se. In the second part of La Flor the prot­ago­nists are a group of spies who are in Argen­ti­na as a for­eign coun­try. It is set in the 80s (more late than ear­ly) and they all speak in french with one ano­ther (dub­bed, they are all Argen­ti­ni­an actres­ses, the group of four actres­ses that chan­ges roles almost com­ple­te­ly throug­hout the film). They end up the­re, a remo­te South Ame­ri­can coun­try, for a final mis­si­on. They car­ry with them a hos­ta­ge, a Swe­dish sci­en­tist who has no idea whe­re he is, and he tri­es to guess based on land­scape, eth­ni­ci­ty and infra­struc­tu­re. He gues­ses wrong many times until the night comes and the sky reve­als the loca­ti­on: he is in the south, the far south. The stars were the same, but back­wards. Back­wards, as his stars are the ones he can see from home. Until he finds a con­stel­la­ti­on that only we have, the sou­thern cross. He sees it the­re for the first time. The stars look sus­pi­cious­ly bright, just as they look in Hugo Santiago’s El cie­lo del cen­tau­ro. My part­ner had the idea that what hap­pens to the sci­en­tist in front of the stars is the exact oppo­si­te of what hap­pens to James Dean’s cha­rac­ter in Rebel wit­hout a cau­se. I won­der if this has some­thing to do with living loo­king at the out­side or at the insi­de. The chap­ter opens with a quo­te from Ner­val: The Uni­ver­se is in the night. And it is, as most of the epi­so­de hap­pens in one night of memo­ries. The­re is infi­ni­te time for memo­ries in the night, memo­ries or sto­ries. That time is invi­si­ble from the out­side, and the film mate­ria­li­zes it by cal­ling it the uni­ver­se. The ope­ra­ti­on from which this beco­mes the uni­ver­se is by nar­ra­ting: the thought and memo­ries beco­me a voice over spo­ken by the Lli­nas’, Maria­no and Veronica.

After wat­ching this epi­so­de it was the time to go out­side, as in Spain we can lea­ve the house four hours in the ear­ly day and three bet­ween sun­set and night. I went to the beach next to my house with every other living soul here bet­ween the ages of 14 and 69, and I wal­ked by the sea as it was get­ting dark. As the night­fall came, I found the colors unfa­mi­li­ar. I won­de­red if this was an effect of con­fi­ne­ment, as I haven’t been in the pre­sence of dusk by the sea for two months. Was it an abnor­mal sun­set? Was this the way it always was when the sky was clear? The shades of color went from oran­ge to blue, and it chan­ged by the minu­te. Some of them exis­ted in the sky and others were reflec­ted, the reflec­tions had infi­ni­te­ly more colors than the sky, as that depen­ded on move­ment. The waves moved, and so did the reflec­tion in the wet sand as I was moving through it. I tur­ned my head and I saw that all the win­dows were doing the same, all facing dif­fe­rent direc­tions and crea­ting dif­fe­rent lights and colors, a sun­set facing the sun­set. Even the ever-pre­sent mist was reflec­ting the light, making ever­y­thing a litt­le more green. I could also ima­gi­ne the river, behind the rocks near­by, reflec­ting, and its rocks, shi­ny and cover­ed with moss, revi­ta­li­zed moss from the lack of life around it. The dogs now car­ry lights in their col­lars (I don’t know if they did befo­re), which are also reflec­ted by ever­y­thing. All of this was new. But I had seen the sun set­ting in the oce­an the day before.

I don’t remem­ber if La Flor has this quo­te by Rim­baud, I have the fee­ling it does: La vraie vie est ail­leurs. True life is else­whe­re. I think this quo­te is fake, and the real one is La vrai vie est absen­te. Truel life is absent. I left the beach as the poli­ce came down to make them­sel­ves visi­ble, the dai­ly remin­der that free­dom is not there.

Fri­day, May 8, 2020

Patrick: I thought about what it might mean to lea­ve a house. First of all, as we can for exam­p­le see in many Japa­ne­se films, not ever­y­bo­dy is allo­wed or expec­ted to lea­ve a house. The­re are tho­se that wait at home, that work at home. In Japa­ne­se films (and not only in them) it’s most­ly women.

Some­ti­mes it’s also child­ren. I think in Ame­ri­can Eng­lish one says “to be groun­ded“. In Ger­man we use the same word as for a pri­soner who has to stay at home, house arrest.

At other times peo­p­le have to lea­ve their house. Recent­ly, I rewat­ched Robert Aldrich’s Ulzana’s Raid and the film has a cou­ple of sce­nes in which peo­p­le have to deci­de whe­ther they lea­ve their house or not. First, it is a ques­ti­on of pre­cau­ti­on. Should we stay and face the storm or should we escape? It’s the men who stay in this case and it is the men who die. In one sce­ne a man is trap­ped in his own house. The atta­ckers come clo­ser and clo­ser, climb on his roof, burn ever­y­thing. Sud­den­ly they dis­ap­pear. Ever­y­thing is quiet. Are they gone? The man insi­de looks out­side. He knows it could be a trap. If he lea­ves the house they could wait for him out­side. He still goes…

In one of the many beau­tiful sequen­ces in Mau­rice Pialat’s La mai­son des bois we can see how peo­p­le had to move out of their homes during World War I. They pack ever­y­thing on woo­den carts, drag their ani­mals along behind them and try to igno­re the sound of bombs in the distance. After a while they are allo­wed to return, to go home. The series is con­cer­ned a lot with the act of lea­ving a house. It’s also about moving out, moving on. It shows that whoe­ver stays insi­de is left alo­ne. It’s most­ly the par­ents, tho­se who built the house, that do not leave.

How can you lea­ve a house? I always thought Chap­lin has some genui­ne ways of lea­ving hou­ses. He might fall or just jump out of a win­dow, for exam­p­le. May­be you remem­ber the ope­ning minu­tes of The Gold Rush as stron­gly as I do. The­re is a sequence which is hea­vi­ly con­cer­ned with the need of not lea­ving the house. Out­side are dan­gers and the­re is a bliz­zard. What Chap­lin shows here among other things is that it can be very fun­ny if you try to stay insi­de. The­re has been some lite­ra­tu­re, some theat­re and some films (Buñuel again) con­cer­ned with the idea of not being able to lea­ve a house. Yet, when it comes to try­ing to stay insi­de, Chap­lin is at the same time the most sur­re­al and real.

We learn a lot about lea­ving a house when we look at peo­p­le who don’t lea­ve a house, I think. In many films of Chan­tal Aker­man peo­p­le (or hers­elf) are not lea­ving hou­ses. When I see her work I some­ti­mes won­der what is out­side. In her No Home Movie she films a sort of night­ma­re when she wakes up and runs to the bal­c­o­ny to look out­side. She doesn’t lea­ve, she just looks. What would it mean to lea­ve? I also think some peo­p­le never lea­ve a house. It’s like a snail shell which in Ger­man we call a snail house. What does it mean to never lea­ve a house?

The­se ide­as of por­ta­ble homes, hou­ses on wheels, they are hor­ri­ble, aren’t they? They are like tou­rism. They remind me of peo­p­le tra­vel­ling around the world always sear­ching for food they know. Eit­her you want a life on the road or you stay at home.

Lea­ving a house opens the pos­si­bi­li­ty of a return. A return to whe­re we belong? I am incli­ned to deny but then I remem­ber a poem by Paul Celan:

Mit wech­seln­dem Schlüssel

schließt du das Haus auf, darin

der Schnee des Ver­schwie­ge­nen treibt.

Je nach dem Blut, das dir quillt

aus Aug oder Mund oder Ohr,

wech­selt dein Schlüssel.

Wech­selt dein Schlüs­sel, wech­selt das Wort,

das trei­ben darf mit den Flocken.

Je nach dem Wind, der dich fortstößt,

ballt um das Wort sich der Schnee.

-

(With a chan­ging key,

you unlock the house where

the snow of what’s silen­ced drifts.

Just like the blood that bursts from

Your eye or mouth or ear,

so your key changes.

Chan­ging your key chan­ges the word

That may drift with flakes.

Just like the wind that rebuffs you,

Clen­ched round your word is the snow.)

-

Sun­day, May 10, 2020

Lucía: As a woman I was rai­sed to lea­ve the house as much as pos­si­ble both by my mother and my grand­mo­ther. So as we are now allo­wed to lea­ve the house at a cer­tain time, I have left it every day. But as if this was unwi­se to do, it star­ted rai­ning only during the hours we were allo­wed out­side. It stop­ped rai­ning at 10 am, the mor­ning cur­few, and star­ted rai­ning again at 8 pm, the start of the evening exer­cise hours. Are the adults groun­ded by the clouds? The child­ren can go out­side, as it never rains during the hours they are allo­wed to be, the hours in-bet­ween. So natu­ral­ly I hate child­ren right now, out of pure envy, but the images of tho­se two boys you sent (they are the boys from Good Mor­ning, right?) has sof­ten­ed me a litt­le. Who else can you share a good fart joke with? Ozu and his children.

There’s that other Ozu child, strip­ped from a home until taken by a half-good-hear­ted lady who takes him home and then can’t stand him (he is quite annoy­ing) in Record of a Tene­ment Gen­tle­man. There’s a sce­ne in which the poor boy, scared and clue­l­ess, has to take his mat­tress out­side becau­se he wet the bed. As he stands out­side next to the stained pie­ce of cloth, humi­lia­ted, he sees the furious lady and starts fan­ning the thing as hard as he can. One col­la­te­ral dama­ge pro­du­ced by the lock­down that I hadn’t thought about yet, all the small humi­lia­ti­ons child­ren have to go through in order to grow up, which they usual­ly try to hide from their par­ents as much as pos­si­ble. Now, with the who­le fami­ly secluded tog­e­ther, this must be impos­si­ble. I can­not ima­gi­ne how hor­ri­fy­ing it must be to have your first peri­od with your who­le fami­ly in the house, all day, every day, no place for secrets to keep to yourself.

It is ter­ri­fy­ing, not being able to lea­ve the house, but I get it when peo­p­le don’t want to lea­ve. This is quite dif­fe­rent. I have been haun­ted by Ozu’s Late Spring the­se past few weeks. A woman who refu­ses to lea­ve her father in order to be mar­ried. This is 1949, so she has a few points. Why lea­ve the house to go to some­thing unknown, if the unknown could be hor­ri­fic? Why grow up at all, once all the child­hood humi­lia­ti­ons are done with? Why acqui­re the ones from adult­hood? Nori­ko (Setsuko Hara) is quite hap­py when she lea­ves the house, becau­se she will always come back soon. The­re can be beau­tiful bike rides with hand­so­me fri­ends, and end­less slee­po­vers with chat­ty cou­sins, but the house and the father will stay whe­re they are. In the film, once mar­ria­ge comes as an ine­vi­ta­ble pos­si­bi­li­ty, even the out­side beco­mes a nightmare.

While this who­le virus hap­pen­ed I lear­ned that one of the most beau­tiful thea­ters in Los Ánge­les, the Bing Thea­ter at LACMA, was final­ly demo­lished, as part of a pro­ject to rede­sign the who­le muse­um. The last scree­ning held the­re took place on June 27th of last year. The film was Ozu’s An Autumn After­noon. Unli­ke Nori­ko, Michiko’s fear is that she will not be able to lea­ve the house, as the men around her have been slop­py towards the mar­ria­ge busi­ness, per­haps too much on their own bene­fit. It was a sad event, as the thea­ter one of the most beau­tiful I have seen, espe­ci­al­ly when full (which still hap­pen­ed often if they were show­ing a 35mm print) with its 600 seats, magni­fi­cent red curtain, woo­den walls and seig­nio­ri­al rest­rooms, with a room for nose-pow­de­ring and other maje­s­tic acti­vi­ties. Also, one of the few places you could see a movie wit­hout having to pay a for­tu­ne. Peo­p­le stood the­re a long time taking pic­tures of the thea­ter in which they had found a part­ner for their cine­phi­lia. After the scree­ning a fri­end and I went to a fami­li­ar bar near­by, to have a few drinks as if, after the wed­ding, the daugh­ters would also go to a bar to say good­bye to that rela­ti­onship which will never be the same, as they don’t share the same home anymore.

One last Ozu memo­ry for the day: once I went to a Ben­shi show. One of the films they were show­ing was Ozu’s Drag­net Girl. I don’t know if the annoy­ing qua­li­ty of the show was his­to­ri­cal­ly accu­ra­te, but under the con­stant screa­ming I could see that Drag­net Girl was a gangs­ter film very dif­fe­rent from the usu­al pre-code/p­re-noir, the Ame­ri­can ones. At the end of the film, while cha­sed by the poli­ce, the girl (Kin­uyo Tana­ka) shoots her lover in order to make him slower for her and the poli­ce to catch them. A few years in jail would be bet­ter than a life run­ning away, she says. As of tomor­row, the Spa­nish bas­que coun­try is going into stage 1 of the post-lock­down plan. We’ll see if she was right. But in the mean­ti­me, it’s still pou­ring rain.

Tues­day, May 19, 2020

Patrick: It’s true that the images of child­ren I sent you are from Ozu’s Good Mor­ning. I’ve always had a dif­fi­cult rela­ti­on to the art of the fart joke. The sounds pro­vo­ked by who­o­pee cushions or naugh­ty mouths have dis­tur­bed me as a child. The­se fake fart sounds made me ner­vous. May­be this has to do with my obser­va­ti­on that the art of bla­ming, who­se fart was caus­ing smells insi­de class rooms, would never stop…and I was right sin­ce still ever­yo­ne is bla­ming ever­y­bo­dy for farts that he or she did or didn’t com­mit. It’s just such a tri­cky thing, a fart. One can hear or smell it but never see it (except for some dan­ge­rous expe­ri­ments). On the other hand, the art of far­ting is a rich and healt­hy one and we should not have fal­se morals and a red chee­ked catho­lic upbrin­ging (the one with a lot of shame invol­ved) stand in our way.

As the lock­down has ended whe­re I am (whe­re am I?) not­hing chan­ges. A few years in chail are still bet­ter than a life run­ning away. It’s just that a life in jail might not be bet­ter than a few years of run­ning away. So, inspi­red by your beau­tiful screen­shot of Late Spring’s bicy­cles, I took my bike and tried to cycle up a moun­tain (sin­ce the coun­try I hap­pen to be in has no sea). It’s a moun­tain which is not made for bikes. But sin­ce it was my goal to ride my bike on a cloud (just like the ones we were wri­ting about) I had to take it up. My inten­ti­on was clear: cumu­lus ins­tead of coro­na. At first it went pret­ty well. l cycled on steep roads through a forest. The­re was still a lot of wild gar­lic which cau­sed a rather curious sen­sa­ti­on in my nose and move­ments in my body that brought me in clo­se pro­xi­mi­ties with the art of the fart. After­wards I cycled across a beau­tiful green mea­dow on which some cows (rather hun­gry I must say) digested the first grass of spring. I must say that the­se cows didn’t give a fly­ing fuck con­cer­ning social distancing. They were con­stant­ly bas­hing their faces with their ner­vous tails, full of flies, some were cuddling. I love cows. Then came ano­ther steep forest and a pas­sa­ge through some pine trees. It was hor­ri­ble to go the­re with a bike, the thor­ny trees were (sor­ry for that) a pine in the ass. Some­ti­mes I had to car­ry my bike over some rock or abyss but sin­ce I des­cend from the fami­ly of a bike sel­ler, I know how to car­ry bikes (more so than riding them actual­ly). In Ozu’s films the­re are all the­se bicy­cles. Peo­p­le move so casual­ly with them. They are beau­tiful. If you see peo­p­le on bicy­cles out­side of cities nowa­days, many seem to think that they have to wear spe­cial and rather ridi­cu­lous clo­thes. Some look like the bike could sud­den­ly catch fire or the wind might bring dead­ly nails with it. Well, may­be they are not more stu­pid than me who thought he can ride on the clouds. I had a beau­tiful time riding on the moun­tain crest. The­re still was some snow but also a lot of rare flowers and even a bird which sings like an alarm sys­tem cal­led goat­su­cker spit on my head. It’s cal­led like that becau­se Pli­ny the Elder, in a stran­ge pha­se of his life pos­si­bly (who can bla­me him?), thought that this bird actual­ly drinks the milk of goats. I love goats.

Arri­ving at the top I had to accept that the clouds were still too distant. I sat the­re and only took one pic­tu­re docu­men­ting my longing.

I won­der if the clouds will always be the­re. We will pro­ba­b­ly always fart and dream about a bet­ter life. In bet­ween, if we are lucky, we watch a cloud, if we are not, we catch a cold.

Tues­day, June 2, 2020

Lucia: If you say cows, I think of Luc Moul­let.

The lock­down is almost over here too. Soon sta­te lines will open and, in July, the bor­ders. Alt­hough back home the bor­ders will remain clo­sed for a long time. But like the farts, the­re is still a mecha­nics of bla­ming around. We are sup­po­sed to use tho­se masks, but not ever­yo­ne does, and not all the time. Every day I see faces that show eit­her pri­de, guilt or accu­sa­ti­on. Except in the cafés. The­re we are all free (for some time).

I thought the con­flic­ti­ve rela­ti­onship with clouds was coming to an end, but I got both lucky and unlu­cky at the same time. We are allo­wed out­side as the sum­mer approa­ches, mea­ning only fri­end­ly, cal­ming clouds if any. But, I am moving to a base­ment, which means no imme­dia­te access to them. So, as if I were cur­sed, I will always need the movies. It will be like living insi­de Bran­ca de Neve. Sounds, dark­ness, and some inter­vals of light.

I always thought “yes, 500 pounds and a room of one’s own is all you real­ly need”. But today I found out that 500 pounds a year in 1928 are the equi­va­lent of around 32.000 pounds a year now, so you might as well say a mil­li­on. Impos­si­ble. And, which room? In James L. Brooks› How Do You Know? rooms speak very loud­ly. Ree­se Withers­poon is Lisa, a soft­ball play­er who just lost her spot in the natio­nal team and the­r­e­fo­re her inco­me. In the midd­le of a total life cri­sis she meets a pro­fes­sio­nal base­ball play­er, Mat­ty (Owen Wilson),and an exe­cu­ti­ve, Geor­ge (Paul Rudd, what is an exe­cu­ti­ve any­way?). Lisa and Mat­ty have almost the same pro­fes­si­on in which they are both top ath­le­tes, but Lisa lives in a stu­dio apart­ment some­whe­re not in Man­hat­tan and Mat­ty lives in the same buil­ding Geor­ge lives (at least during his exe­cu­ti­ve years), a giant apart­ment buil­ding with a door­man in park ave­nue, or any other almos-abs­tract-but-actual­ly-real loca­ti­on that in the movies is meant to say: mil­lionaire. When Geor­ge is accu­sed of fraud and loses all his assets, he moves to a smal­ler apart­ment, far from his pre­vious home, which is still twice as big as Lisa’s. I think if you wan­ted to make some­thing clea­rer, you wouldn’t find a bet­ter way than that. Espe­ci­al­ly now, with the new nor­mal and its sacri­fices approa­ching, just to pic­tu­re what down­gra­ding means for dif­fe­rent peo­p­le. Whe­re do you even go from nowhe­re? I will never know that.

I have to admit that even in the worst situa­tions, the­re is some­thing good about moving into a new place. Each place car­ri­es a new life with it, which reo­ri­ent your own. In Sara Ahmed’s book on ori­en­ta­ti­on, Que­er Phe­no­me­no­lo­gy, she talks about the joy of re-aran­ging your things, stret­ching yours­elf in every cor­ner, inha­bi­ting a space for the first time, even with the dis­com­fort it brings. The­re is some odd joy to the resis­tance the new space has, its rules are not your rules, its shapes are not your shapes. I guess the joy comes when the both of you come to a truce. The fact that apart­ments have a life of their own makes me think of Renaud Leg­rand and Pierre Leon’s Guil­laume et les sor­tilè­ges, a film made enti­re­ly in an apart­ment in which a young man is haun­ted and amu­sed by appa­ri­ti­ons. The film has a sub-title: une feriée civi­le. A civil fairy tale? If the­re was a civil fairy tale to be done now, it would have to look like Guil­laume, all the life that you can fit bet­ween a few walls. Even some musi­cal numbers:

I lived some­whe­re with no clouds once. In Los Ánge­les the sun shi­nes bright almost every day. And that is the roug­hest place I know.

Sun­day, June 7, 2020

Patrick: This ques­ti­on of insi­de or out­side seems not only to haunt us but also the world. It’s ever­y­whe­re. Just take a ran­dom look at the news in the last week. Peo­p­le are out in the streets fight­ing for jus­ti­ce in the US and in many other count­ries. The­re are still war­nings, urges to keep a distance, to pos­si­bly stay insi­de. Yet, some­thing has to go (out) and the­r­e­fo­re someone has to go (out). Then, in Sibe­ria a fuel tank fil­led with 20,000 ton­nes of die­sel oil lea­k­ed into a river. It’s one of the big­gest envi­ron­men­tal cata­stro­phes in histo­ry (which didn’t stop the main part of Aus­tri­an news being only con­cer­ned with Germany’s tem­po­ra­ry reduc­tion of VAT). In both cases the­re is an illu­si­on held up by peo­p­le in power. They base cer­tain decis­i­ons on the idea that we can and should keep cer­tain things insi­de. We can’t and we never could. May­be the movies are, as you say, some­thing we need in order to be able to stay insi­de. They move us over the thres­hold wit­hout us actual­ly going the­re. We don’t have to go.

A fri­end of mine recent­ly wro­te with Wal­ter Ben­ja­min in his mind: “Cine­ma tea­ches us to learn to love our unfree­dom, it gives us the illu­si­on that we are in con­trol of our ali­en­ati­on by being a vol­un­t­a­ry acti­vi­ty we par­ti­ci­pa­te in during our free time.” He loves cine­ma by the way. To me, the time of being insi­de tea­ches me a lot about being unfree. I look at pro­tests against racism on ultra-capi­ta­list plat­forms with slo­gans and logos crea­ted by the richest com­pa­nies. A sys­tem that crea­tes ine­qua­li­ty fight­ing for equa­li­ty? I look at insti­tu­ti­ons more than ever using cul­tu­ral enligh­ten­ment as a pre­text for making money. I look at a world forced to slow down in which emer­gen­cy solu­ti­ons are prai­sed as inno­va­tions and expe­ri­ence is repla­ced by con­ve­ni­ence. I admit to be bored. I should be angry or a litt­le bit sad or resistant. I am bored becau­se I miss the joy or at least the pos­si­bi­li­ty of coming to a truce, as you wri­te, with the big­ger place we are in. When I look at con­tem­po­ra­ry cine­mas I see a lot of film­ma­kers try­ing to nar­cis­si­ti­cal­ly suc­ceed in the world we are living in. They are not crea­ting a space whe­re we could go, only a litt­le niche for them to feel bet­ter. It can be nice, it can be stu­pid, it doesn’t real­ly mat­ter. I guess the same is true for many care­ers, many life decisions.

So, we are all buil­ding our litt­le niches until we have to live under­ground, wit­hout light becau­se the­re are so many niches that the­re is no space left. It’s in the­se dark places that cine­ma can real­ly mat­ter, I think. Yet, the ques­ti­on remains, what kind of cine­ma will lead us out of the dark­ness? It’s a big ques­ti­ons, a ques­ti­ons for cynics to tear apart, for roman­ti­cs to del­ve into, for me to lea­ve unans­we­red in the hope to read your thoughts on it soon. As for me, I begin to under­stand that stay­ing insi­de would also mean to react to what’s right in front of me, for exam­p­le your let­ters, ins­tead of thin­king about a world I don’t understand.

Fri­day, June 19, 2020

Lucía: The­re is no truce. We have been bur­ned 100 times too many and still, we for­get every time. Or worse, we secret­ly, uncon­scious­ly wait for the pre­ca­rious equi­li­bri­um we call a truce to be back, always deva­lued. Some­ti­mes we wake up and remem­ber cops are bas­tards and land­lords are cri­mi­nals. Then, back again. When I think of the idea of coming back I always remem­ber the ending of Lost in Ame­ri­ca, the bit­te­rest, begging to be taken back. A film so sunk in the mud will take you out of the dark­ness the right way any time. The pessimist’s faith.

Thom Ander­sen can ans­wer your ques­ti­on in his Why I Did Not Beco­me a Film Cri­tic:

«We don’t need more mas­ter­pie­ces. We need work that is useful and work that is mode­st. We need work that ack­now­led­ges what we know but don’t belie­ve. We need true and valid images in which we can reco­gni­ze the world and its beau­ty; images that teach us about our­sel­ves and our world. Not just an image, but an image that is just, to para­phra­se Godard. Such work exists, and it demands of us who wri­te about cine­ma our atten­ti­on and our uny­iel­ding support”.

As you say, ever­y­thing seems so inte­gra­ted, the pro­test­ing in ultra-capi­ta­lists plat­forms, the inde­pen­dent and the depen­dent. I agree with Ander­sen, such work exists. We may have a bro­ken hoe, so the con­tem­po­ra­ry looks like a gar­den full of nar­cis­si­stic weeds. To fix the hoe is our job, as it is what is in front of us and the­r­e­fo­re what we can abso­lut­e­ly react to. But I do think we need all kinds of work, some­ti­mes unu­seful and unmo­de­st too, as we need to iden­ti­fy enemies, and also peo­p­le of other faiths. The har­dest is not to cover your burns with the vit­amin A of what’s not gre­at but good enough.

I saw a film not with sharks but clo­se, alli­ga­tors. Crawl is the name of the game. In it a father and a daugh­ter are trap­ped in a base­ment as a pack of alli­ga­tors are try­ing to devour them during a hur­ri­ca­ne. The film resem­bles the pre­sent uncan­ni­ly: the flood inten­si­fies by the minu­te and as the water rises, the ene­my ‑alli­ga­tors- get more powerful, as they are only half as dead­ly out of the water. The water ori­ents them, makes them fas­ter, able to see and hear, which is the oppo­si­te for humans. The par­ti­cu­la­ri­ty (which is what brings the dura­ti­on) is that the woman is a swim­mer, almost amphi­bio­us, so she is able to be a wort­hy opponent.

The­re is ano­ther trend, one that asks what if you are not able? I saw The King of Sta­ten Island the other day, about unable mil­len­ni­als. This one is unable to deal with life in gene­ral, and with his father death and image in par­ti­cu­lar. One of the reasons for this is that his men­tal health is a dis­as­ter, in the cli­ni­cal sen­se. But in the film what is appar­ent­ly nee­ded is that he has to grow up (he is in fact also a com­ple­te idi­ot), and this means spe­ci­fi­cal­ly being able to adjust to what things are. The rea­liza­ti­on of this is sup­po­sed to bring us reli­ef. I won­der who feels the reli­ef in such a night­ma­re. Both films end with still waters, one so inten­tio­nal­ly (the King) and one as you need to brea­the a litt­le (the alli­ga­tors) after such a storm. I like the alli­ga­tors bet­ter, but I won­der if such a mir­ror, so exact, is ano­ther fal­se threshold.

We share half a defect: not cyni­cal enough to be pro­tec­ted, roman­tic enough to be an easy tar­get. I lis­ten to Doris Day: Qué será, será. And I won­der exact­ly how numb or weak truces are. But I also won­der if, as in The Man Who Knew Too Much we could play dumb, dis­tract and buy a litt­le of the time we need to think. The future’s not ours to see, que será, será.

By the way, I ente­red a cine­ma yes­ter­day, for the first time sin­ce March 7th.

Sun­day, June 19, 2020

Patrick: Such work exists, no ques­ti­on. What I read from your obser­va­tions, your thoughts on the neces­si­ty of wri­ting about cine­ma reminds me of a pos­si­ble histo­ry of this medi­um that is an invol­un­t­a­ry histo­ry. Cine­ma is often dis­cus­sed as a suc­ces­si­on of ide­as, inven­ti­ons even. Ever­y­thing seems to be so deli­be­ra­te, the plots, the sub­plots, the cas­ting. Yet, as Hen­ri Lefeb­v­re has poin­ted out in his dis­cus­sions of Mar­xism, one of our main issues is that peo­p­le get over­whel­med by the con­se­quen­ces of their actions, con­se­quen­ces they didn’t fore­see. The same can be said for films, I think. I remem­ber this stu­pid anec­do­te of Ste­ven Spiel­berg as a child making his model rail­way crash and then dis­co­ve­ring that he needs to film it becau­se other­wi­se he can only see it one time. Here, an idea of cine­ma is at place, that claims to be able to tame the con­se­quen­ces through a came­ra or in other words: the con­se­quen­ces of an action don’t mat­ter if we film it. Quite the oppo­si­te is true, of cour­se, as we can see from recent events. So this trend you wri­te about, the things/​films that are not gre­at but good enough, also comes from a mis­con­cep­ti­on of cine­ma, one that looks down on its sub­jects, an arti­fi­ci­al cine­ma that thinks that it crea­tes images ins­tead of loo­king at the world. Cine­ma is a toy in this per­cep­ti­on, a tech­no­lo­gy, some­thing to play around with time and space and movement.

I feel, we have moved past a moment of balan­ce bet­ween image and rea­li­ty long ago. I wat­ched Spike Lee’s Da 5 Bloods the other day and I feel that it’s a film which only cares about images. He wants to cor­rect the images we know by employ­ing dif­fe­rent images or else put­ting dif­fe­rent ele­ments and peo­p­le into old images. The­re is not­hing real, it’s like a video game clai­ming to have a truer sen­se of histo­ry. In the end it only adds images that are born from images, not from the world. Yes, I know that he shows us some images that are dis­graceful­ly absent from most of main­stream cine­ma but in the end, his film is a media cri­tique, not a fic­tion con­cer­ned with the world. It’s a super­fi­ci­al media cri­tique that wants to beco­me pop cul­tu­re. Yet, when Ander­sen wri­tes: “We need true and valid images in which we can reco­gni­ze the world and its beau­ty; images that teach us about our­sel­ves and our world.”, I still feel it’s pos­si­ble and we both know works that achie­ve it. It might appear a bit sta­le but it’s quite obvious to me that in a world con­sis­ting of so many images, we do not see the world in cine­ma. The peo­p­le actual­ly being in the world, tho­se that are able to touch things, to work with things sel­dom­ly own a came­ra. And if they do, a came­ra only appears as ano­ther some­thing put bet­ween me and the world. It used to be a bridge but now it is just one of hundreds of devices, an emp­ty machi­ne that helps us to sli­ce pie­ces of the world out of it; pie­ces of a world that is alre­a­dy frag­men­ted, vir­tu­al, cut through.

So may­be one pos­si­ble escape is to not be able to. I have been rea­ding a lot of Guy Debord recent­ly as the Aus­tri­an Film Muse­um has published a book with his texts. The­re are seve­ral pas­sa­ges in which he thinks about the pos­si­bi­li­ties of not making an image, not making a film. Cine­ma needs dis­tur­ban­ces more than ever. I think, we now live in a time whe­re cine­ma needs a recon­ci­lia­ti­on with rea­li­ty. May­be we should bury the came­ras, plant some flowers insi­de the pro­jec­tors, put the screens into the rain, give the hard-dri­ves to octo­pu­ses, so they can build a gar­den. We have to touch, see, lis­ten first, then make a film. In this regard, it real­ly might be good to play dumb becau­se we can­not know ever­y­thing. I think today, she or he who tri­es to live with as few images as pos­si­ble is very strong, very intel­li­gent. The­re is the mode­s­ty Thom Ander­sen wri­tes about, the mode­s­ty of accep­ting that the world is more than sho­t/­re­ver­se-shot, more than we will ever know and defi­ni­te­ly more than what we can express in images. In my opi­ni­on, the pro­mi­se of cine­ma lives in the world, not in the movies. We need film­ma­kers that do under­stand that. In Shakespeare’s words: “Life is a tale told by an idi­ot, full of sound and fury, signi­fy­ing nothing.”.

to be continued…